thought somebody "delivered"?
Leg still flaring up from time to time..
Hard to walk after sitting a while.
Not gout.
Hurts.
Sucks.
Love you.
Night.
Saturday, January 31, 2015
I
just wasn't going to be without you.
It would have took a bullet or the law or both, but I just wasn't going to be without you.
Rumi
Not the ones speaking the same language, But the ones sharing the same Feeling understand Each Other.
Don't
ever think I am stupid...
and just count your lucky starts I played along Lucy.
K?
K.
Love you.
Friday, January 30, 2015
Thursday, January 29, 2015
I'm
tired.
Of a lot of things.
One would think you would understand.
Plus I am just tired.
I just never sleep well anymore.
Ever.
Unless I just get so exhausted like the other day, then I sleep for 13 hours.
I been through enough.
From all parties all around me.
It's taken it's toll on me.
I'm not 25.
Move it along please.
It's all I ask.
Love you.
Night.
We will...
and #10 happens when it happens.
I aint worried about it.
I just wanna know you're mine.
Thats it.
See you in that dress.
Hear you say "I do."
Have the time of our lives the rest of our lives.
Buddha
"All that we are is the result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think we become.”
“He is able who thinks he is able.”
“Thousands of candles can be lit from a single candle, and the life of the candle will not be shortened. Happiness never decreases by being shared.”
“You can search throughout the entire universe for someone who is more deserving of your love and affection than you are yourself, and that person is not to be found anywhere. You, yourself, as much as anybody in the entire universe, deserve your love and affection.”
“There is no path to happiness: happiness is the path.”
“Health is the greatest gift, contentment the greatest wealth, faithfulness the best relationship.”
Wednesday, January 28, 2015
Funny
Nich had some computer parts delivered to the house the other day.
But me?
I haven't had any deliveries at all.
Not a one :-).
Rumi
Something big is coming.
It’s still a secret, but arriving everywhere.
The atmosphere is charged with longing and searching.
The pilgrims and the mystery-lovers know.
They are gathering now
The sound of prayer drifts across the dawn.
It’s Muslim, Jew, Christian
All mingled
All religions
All this singing
One Song.
The differences are just illusion and vanity.
The sunlight looks a little different on this wall
Than it does on that.
And a lot different on this other one.
But it’s still one light.
We have borrowed these clothes
These time and place personalities
From a Light.
And when we praise,
We’re pouring them back in.
"...Sleight of hand
"...Sleight of hand and twist of fate
On a bed of nails she makes me wait
And I wait without you...
yeah we'll shine like stars in the summer night
we'll shine like stars in the winter night
one heart
one hope
one love
with or without you
with or without you
i can't live
with or without you
with or without you..."
Gotta get.
Same as always lol.
Finally feel rested lol...
Just in time to turn it around and do it all over agian lol.
Love you.
ttys.
Really
dug lil miss Manutuu yesterday...
If you couldn't tell lol.
Looks like it took a lot of work.
Looks like she would be somebody right up my style...
If she was a "real woman" anyway.
She might be.
Right up my style that is.
Maybe.
Not sure yet.
Haven't made up my mind.
Not really sure.
Leaning toward "no" lol...
Morning beautiful.
Love you.
Tuesday, January 27, 2015
:-)
"...Hey lady, you got the love I need
Maybe more than enough
Oh, darling, darling, darling, walk a while with me..."
Morning
sunshine.
Snow over here.
Not enough to cancel school.
Slept from 10 PM till 5:30 AM.
That don't happen everyday lol.
Knee is almost back to normal.
Nich is staying over at moms for a while.
Getting a new furnace filter and dusting this weekend to help with his allergies.
Made scrambled egg and bacon and cheese and hash browns breakfast burritos.
They were pretty damn awesome.
Yes, both of them.
Errands to run today.
Barber shop (mustache trim) lol.
Insurance agent (VIN) for nichs vehicle.
Walmart.
Just a few lil odds and ends here and there.
No big deal.
Looking forward to when I get to cook breakfast for all of us :-).
Love you.
Be awesome today :-).
Like you can help it lol.
Peace.
Monday, January 26, 2015
:-).
"Hey pretty baby are you ready for me?
Yeah, it's your good rockin' daddy down from Tennessee..."
Always loved this album...heard Hillbilly Highway at lunch today.
Sunday, January 25, 2015
So
again I ask, are we understanding each other here Lucy?
Cause I am not, nor have I ever been, kidding.
Knee
is still a lil swollen.
Stiff.
Almost like ligaments or something.
Didn't put a heating pad on it last night.
Walked around like I would normally yesterday and the swelling went down.
It's not gout at this point.
Sore today.
I think it will be alright.
Just needs a while.
Long as there is progress.
Was glad to see the swelling down this afternoon when I woke up.
Talked to Janet when she got home this afternoon.
Things seemed better.
Were going to lunch today.
I got her bday card with some cash and I got her a refillable popcorn tub from the movie theater she goes to.
Saves her $ on pop corn when she goes.
I think we will be fine.
I think she was worried about us (all of us, yes you included lol) not coming around.
Her fears were irrational really.
I think her friends were spurring them on.
Like I said, I think we will be okay.
To come around when we want?
To shop and eat and go to the movies in my old hometown with her several times a year?
Especially if we can ride up?
That would be a good thing if you ask me.
Love you Knucklehead.
And another yep...
"Every now and then, you meet someone completely unexpectedly and they become an important part of your life as time passes by. You begin to realize how things are changing — you smile a bit more, laugh a bit louder, and love a bit stronger. Somehow the life you had before becomes a distant memory and all the wounds and scars begin to heal. This person is now a part of your life and my best advice to you is for you to hold onto them. This person is a rare individual and, trust me, you will only grow to love them more as each day passes."
Saturday, January 24, 2015
Yeah
uh...
If ya wanna show me somethin?
Come be lil miss shadowofmyself in person right in front of me.
Then maybe I will think you are a "real woman".
Maybe.
Bahahahahahahahaha
Well
hell, if all I had to do was leave my phone in the truck and forget to say goodnight, I love you to get some shadowofmyself coming through my instagram feed I would have done so a long time ago :-).
Gotta get
Now I just gotta handle Janet.
Think I'll ask her to lunch Sunday at Texas Roadhouse.
I'm like budder...
I'm on a roll!
Bahahahahahahahaha
Tell
me to leave right now and see wat happens lil miss fine as hell ass cheeks.
Dare ya.
Double dog dare ya.
Friday, January 23, 2015
Almost
showtime :-).
Be busy from here on out Dollbaby.
Sorry about the sour mood earlier today.
I just hate being here and not with you.
Seems like a waste of time if you ask me.
Love you.
Night.
Oh
magically twos now lol.
Almost like someone is listening or reading or what have you lol.
Love you Virgie.
Tryin...
tryin real hard...
Didn't
do such a good job today :-(.
I'm sorry if I am hard on you.
I just don't know whats going on, although I can tell it's something and that it's something spectacular.
Love you.
Rumi
"I smile like a flower not only with my lips but with my whole being."
Tryin to work out of it.
What else can I do?
Just
having a rough week Lucy.
Two days of being up 24 hours in a row is a lil hard on an old man lol.
I
know what is going on.
Everyday I walk back in that cesspool of chaos is a day I am not with you.
I fucking hate it, absolutely fucking hate it, when people think I am stupid.
If I am going to be your "Hubby".
Then let it be known loud and clear.
For all parties involved.
Otherwise?
Let me go.
Love you.
Morning
beautiful.
Nichs sick.
Sore throat.
Lots of sick kids at school.
Sucks.
I think we got patch tonight.
I couldn't care less.
It's to much to deal with.
If you wanted to blow it up any worse you couldn't.
That's what this woman has done to this group.
I don't blame her.
I blame her bosses.
For letting it happen.
It's just a lot on my mind.
That.
Janet.
You.
What we are doing here.
What I think we are doing here anyway.
Lil lost sweetheart.
A lil encouragement or a sign or something to let me know what I think is ture is true would be great.
I'm exhausted.
I'm just spent.
Every way you could ever imagine.
Need a lift.
I'm crawling back in bed.
Be awesome today.
Like you can help it :-).
I just want my wife.
I'm tired.
Love you.
Thursday, January 22, 2015
Willie
Abbott, Texas 1948-- Willie as a high school sophomore, left halfback.
I thought it was pretty cool anyway.
Love you.
Night
Did you
get all that in Skype last night?
It's wat I don't have anybody to talk to about sweetheart.
Then I have to get up here in a few.
More errands.
Then patch Friday PM.
Then talk to Janet Saturday about what I need to.
It's a lot.
It weighs on you.
My cafl and knee still swollen.
No pain.
Mobility just fine.
Just can't get the swelling to go down.
Wanna take a guess why?
Yep.
Stress.
35 year old livin at home virgin gonna tell full grown men when they can and can't take off.
It don't work like that.
I'm starting to feel a lil frayed around the edges and I just don't wanna feel that way.
You deserve better.
Love you.
Be in and out all day.
ttys.
Wednesday, January 21, 2015
Okay
Skype, Kik and Instagram all up and running on my new phone and it's not gonna matter a lick cause I am going back to bed so that I can get up and continue to run around like a head with my chicken cut off yes I meant to say it like that and I'll be taking my new phone back tomorrow any way. If ya wanna torture a boy some more do it in Skype or something later tonight.
Cheers.
Love you.
Night.
So
you are onboard with everything then?
cause you sure can fool me sometimes.
Woke up.
Went to Wal-mart.
Went and ate mexican.
Went to ATT and got new phones.
Nich really needed his.
Im going to take mine back tomorrow.
I just need an sd card.
My old one quit working.
I got 14 days to take it back they said.
Just got out of the shower.
Was up 24? 26 hours in a row?
Five hours sleep.
Been hectic since I woke up.
Just wanna chill.
Love you.
"Love
is when your babe is on board."
I didn't just mean about going riding.
I meant on board with everything.
Love you.
Night.
Tired
This shit sucks.
Write all these tickets for nothing.
Send out all these emails nobody looks at.
Then at the end of your shift?
All the sites came back up.
Just like you knew they would.
Cause it's all maintenance.
Every night.
Can't even write all the tickets they go down and come back so fast.
Monitoring 2-3x as many sites as when you were here.
Micromanaging.
100 errors on a circuit?
SMC ticket opened up.
Used to be a nursing center could be down for a day and nobody gave a shit,
Well not that bad.
But 100 non-service impacting errors gonna be a cause to open an SMC ticket?
I'm hanging in there Lucy but this shit is for the birds sweetheart.
Threes,
twos, whatever for the love of God would you just marry me so we can have some fun together?
Like?
Forever?
Would ya?
Is it to much to ask lol?
Geez louise woman.
Tuesday, January 20, 2015
What
ever happened to 883some?
Ashleynicoleleashes?
pandina1981?
Shirley Bowman?
Where did they all go Bambi?
I'm
off.
Saturday.
Feb 14th.
Valentines day.
If somebody wanted to get married or something :-).
Let me know :-).
Tired
Going to be a long night.
Slept all day yesterday.
Couldn't sleep last night but a few hours.
Laid back down about 9 this AM but couldn't ever fall back asleep.
had to leave two hours early for some stupid meeting that did nothing.
So after all that this weekend?
I get to be up for 24 hours straight now.
Nice.
Had lunch in Corydon on the way up.
Called Adam.
He stopped by for a few minutes.
That was nice of him.
Like I said.
Long night.
Just wanna get home.
Seems like that's all I ever wanna do anymore Lucy.
Be home.
With you sweetheart.
~ Rumi
Never lose hope when the Beloved sends you away.
If you're abandoned, if you're left hopeless tomorrow for sure
you'll be called again.If the door is shut, right in your face keep waiting with patience don't leave right away.
Seeing your patience your love will soon summon you with grace
raise you like a champion.
I'm here beautiful...
relax dollbaby.
Meeting sucked.
Bosses boss was here lol.
She (our boos) stuttered and stammered like you wouldn't believe lol.
Nobody paying attention.
People playing on phones.
No command of the room what so ever.
Nothings changed.
Same old stupid shit.
Love you.
Monday, January 19, 2015
Feel
much better.
First time I felt like sitting at the computer for two or three days lol.
Thank goodness for my phone I guess.
Let see.
Got to the Dr. had to wait a while longer.
Whatever, beats a drive to Obro and they understand I know what I have and they just give me what I need.
Got med.
And two shots in the ass lol.
Steroid shot hurt like a mother.
Both worked really quickly though.
Went to bank to deposit Nicks money.
Closed.
MLK day.
Went to store.
Got fruit and some two litters.
Ginger ale and sprite.
Mom brought over diner.
Pork chops, mashed potatoes, peas, green beans, rolls, I just had a veggie plate.
Slept from 12-3:30?
Got up at 5.
Company was nice for diner.
Good idea.
They had seen how I do things before and had most everything set up when I got up,
Literally just got up and ate.
Helped mom clean up.
Nich as well.
Got through bills.
Got organized for the next few days on to do list.
Nich's asleep.
He has school tomorrow.
I have a four o'clock meeting.
Nice.
Idiots.
This alert they are bitching about has probably come in hundreds or maybe thousands of times.
Major.
Yellow.
No page.
Ever.
Five years.
Alert actually says under the Actions tab:
Priorty: Low.
Action: Non-actionable.
And we were supposed to know to write a high priority ticket and page?
It's a fucking funny farm of idiots all trying to make themselves look better than others which always backfires in the long run you bunch of brainiacks, as opposed to working together not worrying about credit (which will always find it's rightful place eventually), and trying to fix anything.
I mean I will just look at these mother fuckers like "Bitch, I couldn't walk two days ago. You think I am worried about this bullshit?" I dare the "Management Consultant", I use that term loosely btw, you know? the one I've seen one time in five years, cause, you know, that's a successful team strategy. Nobody leads by example anymore. No one. Or for New Age to say anything about my mustache or clothing either. "I drive 90 miles one way to work 6x a month, I got a better attendance and promptness record that most that only live 30 minutes away. I got a 16 year old boy I have to put on my insurance policy in seven months, we have to pay for our own parking now, our insurance cost more, we're all working for less now than we were four years ago, I have one raise in five years and you wanna come in here and talk about facial hair and and a wardrobe? I work 6 PM to 6AM you ought to see what some of these HP techs look like at 3 in the AM. Them and the EMC techs and the security guard on his rounds is who all we see at night. You're about ready to loose seven long term employees and maybe the contract for New Age. Do you really want me to continue?..." Of course he doesn't, it that old Nietzsche thing, "Nobody wants their illusions shattered."
Always always always got to have more ammo to fire back with than what they have to give and always got to be willing to always have more ass then they got teeth...cause they know your fucking right. This is just her wanting to make it look like our fault and the real question from her manager should be: "Why didn't your guys know how to handle this alert Laura? You've been down there for over two years. We've had the new alerting system for over a year. Can you explain or try and have this makes sense to me?
And have witnesses during the meeting. And record it. Have everybody take notes. Have a legal pad and pen for her. Write the handwriting on the wall right in front of her. Thats how kewlrockin daddy would roll. I guarantee you it's what I would do. I learned a lot from running a three million dollar a year operation. This may just be her sink or swim moment. Kindred HR left the door open for Kenny to come back within a year and manage the NOC. That's a lil odd and seems like it's there for a reason. Everybody's hopin' anyway.
This song is always important on today.
This is the tour I saw them on in Rupp arena.
Slept on a air mattress to overnight to get the tickets.
There was no ticketmaster then.
Word of mouth.
Very few if any cell phones either.
Old school.
If I remember right I had to get my shift covered at work as well.
Awesome.
Peak of their power to me.
Everyone knew Joshua Tree was going to be huge.
They way underestimated.
They went from playing arenas to playing stadiums in six months.
They were the "next big thing" for about three years solid.
I remember hearing "With or without you" for the first time driving to Nashville for Spring break in college.
I knew who the artist was and that the song was from the new album within a second or two.
Life changing.
These guys, Stones, SRV, Bruce, all of them were, others as well.
Sunday, January 18, 2015
Exactly...
“Take heed that you do not do your charitable deeds before men, to be seen by them. Otherwise you have no reward from your Father in heaven.” Matthew 6:1.
I
know that is a lot to take in in all those text.
Im tired of talking about it, thinking about it etc.
I just want resolution with her however it plays out.
Alan is here.
Grilling some chicken (on the griddle mom gave me for Christmas).
Making chicken club sandwiches with french fries (Baked lol) and then game time.
Dave supposed to be here for the second game.
Then probably back to bed for me.
Mom is going to find me some black cherry concentrate when she gets back.
Love you Virgie.
Saturday, January 17, 2015
Yea!
a two!
Went to see about two other places to hopefully try and get a perscriptiom but they were both closed.
I am a lot more mobile today than yesterday :-).
I can make it.
Just really don't feel like driving to Oboro today.
U of L comes on here in a few, then UK then taking Nicholas and a buddy of his out for dinner then home for good.
Love you Virgie.
Hey
been layin in the extra bedroom so I can have a heat pad on my knee.
Thats why I aint been on here.
Gonna see about gettin some meds.
Love you.
Friday, January 16, 2015
Gotta
be moving here in a bit.
My knee is jacked up.
Ran out of medicine this AM.
This is about the second worst it has ever been.
Looks like I am wearing a brace under my jeans.
Luckily it hasn't been that painful.
Just wanna get home and get some meds and lay down after taking Nicholas to school.
Gotta go to the emergency care there in Lewisport.
Have the nurse practitioner write me another script.
Gotta get the swelling down.
Drivin me nuts.
Got some non-narcotic pain medicine at home as well.
So much for riding Sat at this rate.
That really sucks.
Been close to two months.
Really wanted to get out.
Maybe ride to fawn's and see her new house now that it's done or something.
Oh well.
Love you Lucy.\
Night.
Still
waiting.
Somebody said something about she delivers?
Yeah?
Still waiting.
Just like always.
Go figure lol.
Thursday, January 15, 2015
Really?
A two on the handlebars?
I like dragin pegs and makin sparks Dollbaby.
Not so sure about all that without some low slung bars.
Oh well, I got time to think about it anyway.
Wat you want me to do?
Get some like yours?
Don't we match up pretty good already?
Threes! Yea!
Handlebars, yeah or nah?
Don't lie now Bambi.
I'm kinda still likin the low-slung dragster type bars still but want something a lil different.
These seems to foot the bill.
You think so?
Should be able to have the gas tank painted solid black by the middle of Feb, and hopefully a white spring loaded seat (like this one0 and the handle bars by May.
Hopefully.
We'll see.
Then some new grips and foot-pegs.
Then have the rims and hubs painted red and the spokes painted black.
Then white wall tires as they are replaced.
That should about do it.
I hope lol.
Someday anyway lol.
Like I said, we will see.
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