If

it's not today?

It will never happen.

Promise.

I'll always love you.

I always have.

I always will.

Your husband at heart.

Leaving

here in a few minutes.

The first thing Brother Joe said was:

"It is the time."

He didn't elaborate.

Time for what Lucy?

Enquiring minds wanna know sweetheart.

You

put me in a position where I had no choice but to force your hand.

Took all I'm gonna take.

Heart gut and intuition tell me its happening.

If not today?

Psych ward here I come.

Perfectly comfortable with either outcome.

Told people for weeks I was unstable.

Not doing good.

All they ever did was flash that lil smirk like they always do.

The "if you only knew smirk" I guess I'll call it.

Sorry for the breakdown.

But I'm not living like this anymore.

Something has to give.

Who

are you telling?

Meeting

Brother Joe at 2.

Guess we are about to see here before to long.

You pushed me in a corner for to long.

Couldn't take it anymore.

I got the impression Bro Joe didn't want me going to the hospital.

I'll take that as a good thing.

Lord

I hope so.

I

just messaged Brother Joe.

You

are not hearing me.

You're really not.

You're about to.

Should

have known you would make it as tough as possible for as long as possible.

Why in the world would I expect any different lol?

So

what you can check DM's but not respond?

Something happening before 5 I take it then?

I

will fuck it all up.

For everybody.

I promise you I'm in the mood to do so.

You

need to start paying attention to what I'm saying.

Seriously.

Check DM's.

Space in particular.

GT3 RS Huh?

Sweet :-).

The Notebook

"The best love
is the kind that awakens the soul;
that makes us reach for more,
that plants the fire in our hearts
and brings peace to our minds.
That’s what I hope to give you forever." 

Somebody said it was some kinda popular movie or something?

Never heard of it :-).

Been

that way for six years now.

Couldn't

take it could you space?

Just had to check it and see didn't ya?

Like you can't wait lol

Bahahahahahahahahaha

It's all about trust.

Thats what people don't understand..

Yes you do.

Yes

they do.

Amen

Truth

Yep

I

mean it really was right?

Great way to look at it.

Poor

Space lol.

I almost feel sorry for her lol.

Almost.

Nah, not really.

Bahahahahahahahahahahahaha

Space?

The last one that was sent to you :-).

If you even knew :-).

I

like to control outcomes.

Seems to me you're the one thats all about control.

Thats about to change lol.

In a certian environment :-).

Oh...

1 more view Space and they will start rolling lol.

All day

everyday
till the end of days
Dollbaby.

Be awesome today.
I know you will.
You are you.
How could you not be?

I'm

just gonna keep sending stuff to Space solely to get on your nerves lol.

"Your game your way.
My game my way."

Bahahahahahahahahahaha

It's

French Lick.

The only question now is what time.

If

either one of us were ever going to leave?

We would have already done so.

I love you Virgie.

More

like the beginning :-).

I

got plenty more for Space if she's interested.

Bahahahahahahahahaha

I

Love you.

I

do feel like the real life Adjustment Bureau though you know?

Like we weren't supposed to meet.

Then we were supposed to go our separate ways.

And instead, through sheer force of will, 

everybody else's paths around us got altered instead.

I mean that s what it feels like at times.

Other times it feels like it was just all preordained.

Romans 8:29

For those God foreknew 
he also predestined to be conformed to the image of his Son,
that he might be the firstborn among many brothers and sisters.

I'm gonna go with Romans 8:29 :-).

:-)

'You mean the world to me"

I know

It shows :-).

Kinda fond of you too :-).

I

told you :-).

I

remember that day.

Blog Post from:

TUESDAY, OCTOBER 29, 2013

They...

"...They are one person
They are two alone
They are three together
They are for each other..."

I haven't heard this song in well over 20+ years. I haven't so much as thought about Crosby Stills Nash and Young except for the song Suite Judy Blue eyes a while back. I get up and go to brush my teeth and start my day and this just pops in my head out of nowhere? Usually there is come kind of trigger, a song, a riff, a lyric or a group that reminds me of another song, another lyric or another group and then things pop in my head. Not today. Out of nowhere, this...hits me like a ton of bricks.

It's how I know you're my muse and things are being directed by a power not of this realm. People can call me crazy, I don't really give a shit, some always have, some always will, but I know what's up, I don't fight it, I don't run from it, I accept it and I run toward it. You can cry now.

Love ya Lucy.

Peace."

I stared in the mirror and was about to start brushing my teeth and all the sudden out of nowhere, I mean nowhere, that pops in my head. It was like I was looking around the room for an answer, like hey, where did that drop in from? It was pretty early on, but I knew then for sure things were definitely different with us.

Everybody's all like "Oh yeah right God is using a Crosby Stills and Nash song to speak to you blah blah blah, such hocus pocus bull shit." Well? What better way for my creator to speak to me except through the music I like? 

Colossians 1:16 

For in him all things were created: 

things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, 

whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; 

all things have been created through him and for him.

Not some. 

All.

Just gotta be listening.

"Go

Trust
You'll see.
She loves you more than you can imagine.
She'll always be honest with you.
She will never cheat on you.
Go.
Trust.
You'll see."

I do what he says.
It works out.
Eventually lol.

Hubby

Baby Bubblegum?

WTF?

lol.

need to thank me.

Things happen.

I couldn't control falling for you like I did.

Were supposed to be together.

Thats all.

Glad were pulling it off.

I love you.

Relax.

It will be okay.

Hey?

You could be the one reading the letter in your gift ;-).

Still don't know how I'm gonna make it through that lol.

You okay

Homie?

Look a lil choked up :-).

There

we go lol. 

I knew it.

I could just tell lol.

Space

You about ready for some more?

Seems like :-).

Soon,

real, real, soon :-).

Works

for me :-).

Revelation 13:16-18

Revelation 13:16-18 

"It also forced all people, great and small, rich and poor, free and slave, to receive a mark on their right hands or on their foreheads, so that they could not buy or sell unless they had the mark, which is the name of the beast or the number of its name.

This calls for wisdom. Let the person who has insight calculate the number of the beast, for it is the number of a man.That number is 666."

It's the new economic system.
You can just see it coming.
Cryptocurrencies.
Paying by your phone.
Never even seeing the currency you're earning.
Trade tensions.
Trade wars.

This:

Trump reportedly wants to pull the US out of the WTO, a move that would wreck the international trade system

It's all about tightening access and control.

It's coming.

"What

cho talkin' bout Willis?"

"We all have that one person who no matter what kind of day we are having can make it a little bit brighter. That one person who can send something simple as a hi beautiful I miss you can change your outlook on your day. If you have that person, hold on tight and don't let it go.
Time is too precious for the what ifs and should've, could've, would've.
Live in the now and Love Live Laugh"

You do the same thing for me babe.

It's

been that way since I met you.

It's how I know it's never going to stop.

That

would be us.

Over and over and over

Date nights

Exactly.

No wonder they hate us Lucy :-).

I'm saying

it for the last time.

If you're not happy for us?
Don't fucking come.
Stay as far away as possible.
Don't want you there.
Don't want to see you.
Don't want to even think about you.
Don't smile like everything's all good and extend
a handshake when we both know it's not.
Tomorrow ain't the day.

People aint been happy about things for years.
Then they gonna show up and act like everything's okay.
No. No it's not.
They know who they are.
Stay the fuck away with your fake phony
"Oh I'm so happy for the both of you" bull shit.
No youre not.
You never have been.

Stay away from me tomorrow.
I'm not in the mood.
Obviously.

But if you are genuinely happy for us?
Then by all means come and enjoy.
Be glad to see you.

Pretty much

I'm game

but youre going to have to help with this a lot

And be patient with me about it.

I never was that much of a gym rat.

Really never liked it.

But I'm to the age where I need to do something 

to be and stay in better shape and I know it.

That is why I accept it.

Plus?

As long as you're around in workout clothes?

I figure I'm good :-).

I've shared my concerns about possible side effects of the 

long term taking certian medications as well.

But surely we can get me started on some kinda small regimine 

and slowly work into a full fledged routine that suits my needs.

Walks, swimming, riding bikes, surely all these can fit in here somehow.

Just be patient.

Not my thing.

But it's necessary.

I get it.

I want to be around for you as long as I can Dollbaby.

This helps with that.

I told you a long time ago I want to be the best man I can be for you.

Healthier.

Eat better.

Exercise more.

Everything.

I meant all that as much as I have everything else I've ever told you.

I love you.

I

love it.

I jump on things ASAP.

Like less than 2 hours together and I'm asking for a date.

She makes me wait six years.

Then she tells me I'm too late lol.

She's so hardcore.

God I do love her so.

Well

if you are now?

You just wait :-).

Space

7 terrifying ways that asteroids could wipe out life on our planet revealed

Like?

Everyday?
Forever?
Just marry me over and over and over?
Every day?

I saw

it when you were coming down the steps that day.

Promise.

Space

Massive 4 Vesta Asteroid Is Zooming by Earth, and Here's How You Can Spot It

Yep. Sure am.

"Do you wanna hang out sometime?"

You actually asked me that once.

When I asked you out for lunch.

I said yeah but...

It's just not my generation.

Not what we did.

Get the phone number.

(Anxiety)

Call.

(More anxiety)

Ask out on a date.

(Even more anxiety)

Hope everything goes well.

(Ultimate Anxiety)

I bypassed the first one lol.

Fuck it I know the number I'll just call her.

I don't think she'll mind lol.

I did say something to the effect of:

 "sorry if I breached some form of etiquette or protocol" lol

"Oh, no, no, you're fine." you said lol.

But yes.

Old school.

Dates.

Flowers.

Etc.

Then the dirty stuff when you get home with your wife :-).

Or before if both parties prefer :-).,

Exactly

I take it that was in response 

to my answer on your last question :-).

Like

your Corporatocracy yet?

But they don't make enough money to upgrade infrastructure right?

I mean this is just flat out ripping people off.

These corporations are just brazen about it anymore.

AT&T is making bank on hidden wireless fees

Oh

theres plenty more coming Space :-).

Later :-).

In the broader context

Hebrews 10:33-36 

Sometimes you were publicly exposed to insult and persecution; at other times you stood side by side with those who were so treated. You suffered along with those in prison and joyfully accepted the confiscation of your property, because you knew that you yourselves had better and lasting possessions. So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded.

You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised.

Hebrews 10:35

Hebrews 10:35

Therefore do not cast away your confidence,
which has great reward.

God tells you to be confident.

I just don't really care for people who are lacking in self-confidence.

I just don't.

It's been my experience that they view others with

self-confidence as arrogant.

They're not.

They're confident.

Arrogance is false confidence.

Does God say:

"Don't throw away your false confidence"?

No.

He says:

"Be confident, and don't cast it aside because it carries a great reward for you."

Salvation of the soul and eternal life.

It's applicable in other areas of your life as well.

Psalm 18:24

Psalm 18:24 

Therefore the Lord has recompensed me according to my righteousness,
According to the cleanness of my hands in His sight.

Psalm 18:20

Psalm 18:20

The Lord rewarded me according to my righteousness;
According to the cleanness of my hands
He has recompensed me.

Proverbs 11:31

Proverbs 11:31

If the righteous will be recompensed on the earth,
How much more the ungodly and the sinner?

Look

out Space.

Told you earlier they were coming :-).

I've

shared with you my thoughts

on the 

"all of you" 

part of things :-).

I'm

good.

I aint worried bout nothing.

Love you Virgie.

Isaiah 40:31

Proverbs 10:22

Ready

I

love you too babe.

More than you'll ever know.

Who

said we were stopping?

Bout

how it works :-).

Nope

I had no idea at all.

None.

Bahahahahahahahahahaha

So

your new toy is it a turbo?

Surely it is.

Thats

how you learn how to do it.

Pablo Picasso

Space

The Milky Way Is Full of Toxic, Sticky Grease

Like

The spoiler.

The red spark plug wires.

And the swing arm bag.

I would want a black one however.

Dir______e_?

Gonna be a lil bit more 

going on than just that lol.

Promise.

Hello

IG feed update lol.

Goodness GF :-).

That

is the absolute truth.

If it takes money to get her?

You better believe 

it's gonna take a whole lot more to keep her.

Chances are she'll never be happy.

You'll never make enough.

Do enough.

Go enough places etc.

You'll never be able to buy her the things she wants, 

take her the places she wants to go etc.

Sound like a great way to spend the rest of your life?

Just avoid it at all possible cost.

Somebody

asked me the other day what I did.

I almost responded with:

"Whatever it takes."

But I got the impression they wouldn't have taken to kindly to it.

So I just told them I was unemployed.

A freelance writer, struggling artist, type.

I still say the biggest mistake some people make 

is letting how they earn a living 

define them as a person.

Then they retire are spend the rest of their lives 

in search of an identity 

because they no longer have a role to fill.

Sad really.

I think it's why a lot of people die shortly after they retire.

They can't adapt to the shock of not knowing who they are supposed to be anymore.

Same thing goes with the whole "empty nest syndrome."

Never ever understood that.

You had 18, 20, 25 years whatever to get ready for it?

And you didn't think about, or plan for how you were gonna feel when that time came?

You didn't have things in mind you wanted to go do that you couldn't before?

Why?

Enjoy your new found freedom.

Go do the things you always wanted to go do.

You've earned it.

Think?

better know by now woman :-).

They

say it stinks.

The canals are filled with sewage?

I don't care.

I wanna see it anyway.

Ready yo.

Exactly

It's your life.

It's okay not to want what everybody else does.

I

can't even imagine.

I

remember when the Olympics were in Barcelona a few years back.

They did a segment on the Sagrada Família.

I thought man I'd like to see that someday.

Yeppers

Did

you really just say that?

GF?

I aint even going there.

Bahahahahahahahahahaha.

Na, 

I know what you mean.

I feel it too.

Or neither one of us would still be here.

Betcha

I had shelter over my head to sleep under last night.

Betcha I got food to eat today.

Betcha I got clean clothes to wear.

Betcha I got a smile on my face.

Betcha I have internet and WiFi access all day and night.

Betcha I took a hot shower this AM.
Betcha I drink good coffee today.

Betcha I've given thanks everyday for years on end now.
(way before I ever met you Lucy)

Even on my worst of days I have.

And people still can't figure out how things works.

That's crazy to me.

If

you ever make it there :-).

Still thinking about it.

Gonna need a minute.

Leaning towards no TBH.

I'll let you know something when I figure it out :-).

Bahahahahahahahahaha.

Well

of course you do.

Why wouldn't ya?

Ya been calling all the shots for six years :-).

Now?

 At a minimum youre gonna have to share in that responsibility.

Just remember.

I didn't do all this shit to be treated like some junior partner.

I did my end and you marketed to the world.

Equals.

Walking side by side.

Date a Boss.

Be a Boss.

Build an empire, 

somebody's always saying.

I say our morning routine 

should be having our breakfast coffee etc.

You do your social media thing.

I'll do the blog.

We'll feed off of each other, 

not even telling what the other is doing,

just let them see it when it comes through.

The only difference is 

we will be sitting next to or across from each other.

Or you on my lap.

Or...

Na.

That would be a lil complicated lol.

That

was the original version when they were broke up.

Not the remake when Aerosmith got back together.

Always liked Joe Perry.

Which

in turn,

reminds me of:

I

just want to remind everybody:

So

now what kinda bull shit you got up your sleve :-)?

That was a pretty good one last night.

I'll give ya that.

Something in the back of my mind just kept saying:

"No way you get out of here without seeing people one last time."

It was a lil after three.

Jet left supposedly a lil after 9.

It should have been here.

Then I see this:

and I figured?

Thats about right.

And rolled back over and went back to sleep.

One thing I did like about last night?

The constant attention and updates.

That I enjoyed :-).

Love you Bambi.

Decided on a mini trampoline yet?

Bahahahahahahahahahahaha