Okay,,,

Okay because at the end of the festivities tonight I get my phone out and I look down and I didn't even intentionally open my web browser cause I just don't ever and here is the screen shot of what web page my phone was on...Now you tell me whats up Lucy...I promise it's exactly what happened...It doesn't even really freak me out so much anymore...I mean I still do a lil and all, but at the same time things like this have been happening with such frequency and regularity...who am I to fight it?

And you serious about this

And you serious about this and you meant every word Adam Somed ever wrote and someday soon you will tell me these things to my face?

You know...

You know what you have to do to come get me don't as well don't you?

Well...

Well one would hope so...lol...you know where when and how as well right?

You know...

You know I love you and I want to marry you and have you for my wife right?

Well that's good...

Well that's good, I though you did...very responsible, follow a certain code of conduct if you will...

Just freakin call would ya?

I aint bullshitin...

I aint bullshitin, never have been...

And while were at it please tell me you can read between the lines...Bob Marley, Dave Matthews Band, Black Crowes...you got that part of me figured out right? Do I have to spell that out for you?

Like your not gonna go back and 1+ that last post like you have every other one...woman please...

Love you Hotrod, ttyl...

"I'd call that livin"

"I'd call that livin", that's exactly what you said when I explained how we do things around here when we cook, swim, eat, just have a good time hanging out with each other...So why aint you? Livin that is. Only person stopping you is you sweetheart...I thought you liked tailgates and trucks and country livin...always remember, I'm just a big teddy bear...peace...You really plan on being here in a few months? Be nice to know instead of just seeing post get 1+ed all the time...Christian will flip, "Hey come here for a minute I want you to meet somebody"...few minutes later..."Christian this is my wife Virgie"...

Not into...

Not into Birkenstocks  anymore, they are comfortable though. These days the Jimmy Buffet Margaritaville sandals seem to be footin the bill...gotta go, gotta man the fire..you should be here...I fully expect you to be in the next few months, so get the big girl pants out and start putting them on sweetheart...Love you.

If you were here...

If you were here...we could grab a couple of blankets...ride the bike down by the river...and let nature take its course...thing is...we could do this...pretty much whenever we wanted to. Love you, busy again tomorrow...

So I am...

So I am riding down the road, windows down, Crowes blarrin' and I'm thinkin "Where is my sweetheart? Why is she not here? Why am I not holding her hand right now?"...

Another Glamarous Day...

Another glamorous first day off. I haven't even ate yet...Rode home 90 miles, took Nich to school, came home, laid down at 10:00 due to adrenalin from the ride, woke up at 1, buddy calls me at the same time "We doing this tomorrow? I done called Fawn and Mark and Tessa are all coming over I need to know." "Yeah man, were on." "Okay, come help me move this smoker". "Alright". So I go back there and he takes off to get the smoker from in between the round bails and bring it over to the trailer. I'm watchin him, all sudden he shags ass back to the trailer, "We got a problem" We always got a problem, it's how everything always starts off. "What's that?" There's a damn wasp nest in the neck of the smoker, I hit it with the hitch on the truck and they are pissed!" (He is apparently very allergic, hand swelled up like a softball last time he was stung he said). "Well grab some wasp spray". "I don't have any." "I got some, I'll go get it". So we get the wasp spray from my house and we spray the nest and they all get dead or fly away one, and we hook the smoker up to the truck and we pull it slowly to the building to put air in both tires, I don't think the tires have ever been fixed since he has had the damn thing, I think they have both always been flat. Anyway, we get the tires filled up and get the smoker moved to the tailor.

"When you go to the store get two things of pam and spray the grates with it and then fire that firebox up as hot as you can." "Alright, I got it".

Went back home and went to bed till 3:45 got up, made the dry rub and then went and got Nicholas from band practice. We are operating on like four hours sleep here. Go to the store to get Nich some dinner, get the Pam and a cheap mop (You'll see later). Go back home, load the truck with the fireplace shovel, the trash wood, the hickory and the peach wood. Go back to Christians (armed with wasp spray), open smoker, soak grates with Pam, empty the firebox from last time, load up the firebox with trash wood and burn those grates off. After a bit the fire is under control, go home get a shower, lay down from 6 till 7:30, get up to watch my sunset. Go to IGA in Lewisport to get the two gallons or Worcestershire sauce, cause I don't think Walt-Mart carries that in bulk, then go to Walt-Mart in Tell City and get the rest of out supplies, come home, do dishes, said the hell with laundry, and decided to put the rub on pork butts in the AM, watched Nich play a lil Nazi Zombies, and now I just sat down, I might eat...tomorrow however, will very much worth the effort...as usual, somebody is missing all the fun...love you Dingleberry, peace...

Then...

Then why aren't we talking? :-(... I don't get it, I just don't sweetheart.

Really?

Are you sure Lucy...

Are you sure Lucy? Are you really really sure this is what you want? Evansville is a haul for a commute, but people do it everyday, and like I said the lifestyle that it affords you will be so worth it...but are you sure? Are you as sure as I have been all along? The first time we talk I'm gonna flip out, you know this right?

Lucy...

Lucy...I'm home.

Safe and sound sweetheart.

Winding Down...

Winding Down...Heading home soon. Love you.

 

 

Yep...

 

 



Yes we are...



Always...



I asked Chad...

I asked Chad if he was going to come to the wedding...He said "yes, sure". Lol, Chad gotta love him.

Crying agian?

Crying agian? Okay, I'll leave you be for a while sweetheart, but I'm here all night...relax, I never thought I would find you either...It's okay, things like this happen, not often, but they do...promise.

Some of us...

Some of us didn't need a study to understand this...

 

 

I like...

I like the post that you are leaving comments on...I really do...You trying to say something Lucy? Are we gonna prove to everybody we weren't crazy and that we knew all along what was up? You said once "I knew very early on who you were"...When did you know is the main thing I want to know and to hear from your lips...I think it was at dinner in the courtyard, when I was talking about loving the peace and quiet in the country and said "Your soul and your spirit need those things like your body needs vitiam C"...That's when I think you knew, but till you actually tell me I'll never know Lucy... I know this, after I said that you looked down at the ground when you had been making eye contact before that and when you looked up your facial espression had changed like you just could'nt believe what you heard me say and shortly thereafter you left to go back to work...I don't just talk like that to you sweetheart, It's not an act, It's who I am, I know it's true. When I text you and said "Peace is my religion, nature is my sanctuary" I was sitting right where the panorama picture of the back of the house and the yard was taken (under the hickory tree, on the picnic table) watching the sunset. Anyway, thats when I thought you knew who I was, and that's why it hurt so much for you to leave...It hurt me too...I wasn't about to let you get away...ever...peace.

Or maybe...

Or maybe something like these...am I really that hard to figure out Lucy? Walk into any hippie store or website, any super premium bourbon, not whiskey, bourbon, any kind of kewl rocks glasses, but no, we gotta go with Asian Manbags? Really? I always thought I was pretty easy to figure out as far as taste and preferences go. Guess not.

 

I'm just kidding you sweetheart, I know you were kidding about manbags...at least you better had been cause that shit aint never happening.

 

Manbag?

How bout something more along these lines? This is something a real man woukld enjoy and could slowly sip on, on cold winter night with his woman snuggled up beside him in his recliner...Only 8000 bottles ever being produced...Manbag? lol..I got your manbag sweetheart...

 

 

Asian manbag...

Asian manbag sites? Really? Do I strike you like someone who would be the least bit interested in manbags? You funny...

I'm trying...I really am...

Funny...

You 1+ed the post complaining about you only 1+ing...do you not see the irony here? lol

1+ ing...

1+ ing and knowing its you just not cutting it anymore sweetheart...

When sweetheart?

When sweetheart?

When do I get to see you? When do I get to hear that angelic voice that I long to hear so badly? When do I get to know for certian what I already know? when do we get to walk in the moonligh holding hands in my yard? What you gotta torture a boy for? There's not going to be nothin' left of me by the time your done...

Can you not just take it easy on a fella's heart? Do you just not understand I've been through enough in my life already?

Could you please just ease it up just a titch? No reason for us not to be talking at this point sweetheart...love you..

Wake me...

"Wake me when the day breaks
Show me how the sun shines
Tell me about your heartaches
Who could be so unkind?..."

Real Wild Child...

 

But I only ever wanna be wild with you sweetheart...

 

 



Most guys are stupid...

I remember last year Labor Day...you said you went to Chicago; it was after we had dinner in the courtyard...I was like "You went to Chicago and didn’t bring me back any pizza? What's wrong with you girl?" You said something to the effect of "I know, right?" and that was it, we just walked on to your car talking no questions asked...
 

I told some of my friends that you said you had went to Chicago for the weekend...each and every one of their responses was the same..."What was she doing up there? Where did she stay? Who was she with? What was she doing? Where did she go?What did she do? On and on and on...I just let them ramble, when they got done I was like “I don't know, I didn't really care, I didn't ask". Every one of them "I would have asked, I would have wanted to know, she was probably with some ex or something blah blah blah...” I said, "she is a full grown independent woman able to make her own choices and go and do where and what she pleases, who am I to try and interfere with that at this point?, it would only push her away. Let me put it to you like this, what if it was a woman that was interested in you, and you went out of town for the weekend and when you came back this woman started asking you 1000 questions about your weekend and where you went and who you were with and what you did etc...What would be your opinion be of that woman from that point forward? Would you be more interested in her or less?" They each and every one of them just sat there (conversations took place individually by the way) with their deer in the headlights look, like they had never thought of it like that before. "Exactly", I said, "If she wanted to have told me she would have, and if not, it's not for me to worry about or fret over. She said she wants to go walking again, that’s good enough for me".
 

Most guys are stupid, especially when it comes to beautiful, independent women.

Okay...

Okay now I know your cryin' so I 'm going to give you a lil break...I'll be back in a bit when I feel like you've had a chance to recover...Love you.

Cryin...

Cryin yet?

 

Lets do it.

Lets make this a reality.

All you have to do is say you want to

and then we will.

If your in WVA or whereever you are and it takes us a while

well

thats just how it will be for a bit

But

I just wanna know

Your whole heart

all of it

every single lil piece of it

is mine

all mine

Nobody from the past

or anybody in the future

ever going to matter

to you

the way I do

Thats

what I want to know

more than anything

in this world

Its why I want

ink on our fingers

so I know

this is what

we are commited to

both of us

Say the word Lucy.

 

and yes I am just going to keep giving you love and trust and making you cry tears of happiness

seems to be my role here

If I didn't think you would be good

for my son

I would have walked away

a long time ago

But I kow that heart of yours

cause it's mine

and it will sooth and comfort my boy

when I am away

and unable to

He may be older

but he wants a mom

someone he can look up to

and admire

and respect

he will be

the son you never had

 

Lets' be heros Lucy

 

"What do you say, I say?"

 

 

 

Just...

Why don't you Just come home and start a life with us?...You would be closer to your family (assuming your in WVA), have your own pre-built family thats crazy about you...how much longer you gonna keep a boy hangin Lucy?...I don't have a lot, but I promise I'll love you with everything I got and I'll make it my lifes purpose to see that no harm comes to you that I myself can prevent, I'm used to doing this for Nicholas, it comes second nature to me to want to do it for you as well...

 

You know I think about you all the time, you know I am happy and content with my life as it is, I just want that final piece of the puzzle...I'll be honest, I didn't think I was ever going to find it, I had given up...then you walked in my life and I saw, or it was revealed to me, or however which way you want to say it, what our lives could be like together...there is no turning back from that, nothing else is ever going to do. "Once your mind has been expanded ..." they say...

 

Home

 

 

"Do you...

"Do you know how rare that is Virgie, that someone would go that far to show you how much they want to be with you?" Sayith the neighbor lady...well do you sweetheart? Do you know how rare it is?

So...

So you not gonna share the "She was so busted..."post? That was some of my best writing to date...and it sounds like something straight out of a romantic comedy...whatever knucklehead...

Talked to Nicholas, he is fine, realized that he has work to do to get his grade caught up to a "C". He'll make it, big adjustment from Middle School to High School, and band is taking a lot of his time...He is used to having everything come easy to him and when it doesnt he gets flustered (Don't know where that comes from lol). Now he knows he has his work cut out for him, it's challenging for him, which is good, it's what he needs...Love you...

When you gonna call? It's not like you haven't done it before once or twice, although you did say you "ass dialed" me the second time...Sweetheart, let me tell ya, you can ass dial me anytime you want to...

Well good...

Well good that will help matters then...

You...

You any good at Algebra? Nich could maybe use a tutor...It's AP (Advanced placement). He is going to work with his teacher Tues and Wed. Just wondering, you're a hell of a lot smarter than I am sweetheart, I sucked in algebra...Peace, love you...

:-)...

:-)...I love it when you one plus my post right away...People think I'm crazy, I don't care, I know whats up...Had you pegged from day one dollbaby...gotta go grab a bite to eat and get to work,,,Love you sweetheart, ttyl.

Morning beautiful...

Morning beautiful...always thinkin bout you sweetheart...always...

Winding down...

Shift is winding down...gotta get to step-moms soon...Love ya girl...call, relax...it's all good.

Always will...

Always will, blew my mind, changed my life...imagine if you had been preachin to everyone that she would be: self-sufficent, professional, intelligent, beautiful...and then you walk in and sit down right beside me? Wouldn't your head have been spinning?...I just couldn't believe it...not at first anyway...then I was like, "Hey dumb ass, isnt this what you said you wanted?" Then it all made sense...

 

 

You're...

You're a riot...just be glad I'm a good sport and that I "get it"...

 

Make sure everybody sees that "She was so busted" post, that shit is just priceless...

Anonymous...

Anonymous comments left on post pointing to spanish language blogs about nutrition don't count sweetheart...

Well...

Well heavens to Betsy, could you speak up a lil bit? I can't hear you...Oh, that's because your not talking...Your mute? OK, don't change how I feel none, I'll start learning sign language then, Nich as well...

A real woman...

A real woman, one that will look me in the eyes and tell me all the things Adam Somed said...that's what I want in my life...you her Lucy? Are you really, really her?

RE - LENT - LESS

RE - LENT - LESS...just saying...

TI - TAN - IUM...

TI - TAN - IUM...you know what I'm sayin' Lucy...

I can't wait...

I can't wait to meet some of the people that have been reading this (If there even are any lol). I'll tell them straight to their face the same things I've been telling you. Why wouldn't I? Why wouldn't I want to tell everyone I could about this? All somebody has to do is start talking to make it happen...

Well then...

You beat all I ever seen...You'll 1+ my post at three in the morning but you won't text or IM me to let me know if you wanna get together in Cincy...lol...whatever, been playing this game this far...You should really do something about this...move this thing forward :-P...Nich even asked about you the other day, totaly out of the blue, without me bringing it up first. Be here with us by late fall, simple civil ceremony, public ceremony late spring or early summer, next fall Destin, just me and you ...simple, easy, Why dream it when you can live it? Makes no sense to me Lucy, but I'm not the one drivin this train...

Just a lil reminder...

 

 



Oh, I wanna know...

"...Oh, I wanna know, do you ever wanna let it shine?
Do you ever wanna let it shine, baby?
Your love light, your love light
Listen, lover, cover me with your sleep
Let your love light shine, let it shine..."

Go to bed...

Night Lucy...sweet dreams...love you...

Better decide...

Better decide about Cincy...I need to know something soon dingleberry.

She was so busted...

She was so busted...

 

I had called her numerous times and she wasn't answering any of my calls. Like she still won't lol. This after having talked on the phone with her and sharing dinner in the courtyard? I was like "WTH is going on here? It sure seems like she likes me". So one day I decided to park my bike where she would have no choice but to see it when she was leaving the parking garage on her way home. (I had done this one other time already, she knew I parked on the third floor when I rode in) She had told me that she always parks on the top floor, so when she was leaving she would have to make a right turn onto the third floor and there at the end, before making another turn and going down to the 2nd floor she would have to see my motorcycle.

 

 

 

 

I can't remember what time it was but at a certian point in the evening around 8:30 or 9 I decided I didn't want her to know I was thinking about her in the least. So I went to move the bike to where I normaly park, and therefore she wouldn't see it on her way out of the garage. I told Chad (my partner at work) what I was going to do, Chad's a pretty quiet guy, he just laughed and said "Ok man see you in a few" and with that I was off to move my bike.

 

So I get on it and start her up and right at that very moment, I promise you, you can not make this stuff up, right at that very moment the elevator doors opened up and guess who steps off? Yep, Lil Miss Knucklehead. It was like a movie script, I lit up, I was like "This is GREAT!," She looks up, sees me on the bike, looks terrified and takes an immediate hard left walking away from where I was. I was like "WTH?" all over agian. I knew she saw me. But why did she turn and run away from me? Which, mind you is what she has been doing ever since, but I digress. So I was like well who knows, just move the thing to where you normally park it. So I did. And she is still walking away! I wish you could have seen it, there is not a car or a person to be found on this side of the third floor of the fifth street parking gagage. None, nada, not a one, nobody, yet she continues to walk away? LOL. I park the thing and holler "Hey, where you going?" She acts all suprised like I didn't know she saw me. "Oh Hey" she says as she turns around and finally acknowledges me. I walk over to her, Well why we're here can I show my bike to you? Do the five minute walk around and explain all the cool stuff it has on it?" "Sure". So she walks over to the bike and we do the walk around, I could have swore she was trembleing, but we manage to get through it. "I know you like it" she says with that voice...that voice...don't even get me started on that, it still haunts me to this day.
 

(What the garage looked like. She was walking straight ahead, going where? Only she knows...)

  

Anyway we walk over to the elevator and we are waiting on it to get to the third floor and she says, and I swear, her honest to goodness words were "I don't know what I am doing here, I guess I thought I parked here, I'm going to walk up to my car." "Well would you like me to walk with you?" I asked. I'll never forget this either, with a face as red as a beet, and a smile from ear to ear she says just as sternly as possible: "NO, I do not want you to walk with me!" In my mind I was like ok, whatever, glad your smiling at least I guess.

 

She takes off up the stairs. I decide to use the Pedway (Now closed) on the third floor back across the alley to work. Half way across the Pedway it hits me. "Wait a minute, she didn't come across the Pedway from the floor she works on to the garage, she wasn't on the elevator with a bunch of people and just decided to get off on the third floor, she was by herself...why would she be getting off on the third floor when she always, always parks on the fifth floor?...OH SHIT!, Oh my goodness!...No way! No wonder she was so red faced, no wonder she said "NO, I do not want you to walk with me.", No wonder she was smiling from ear to ear...

 

She was so busted...

 

 

 

(Pedway and elevator...where Lil Miss Knucklehead made her red-faced exit up the stairs)

 

Coming soon: She was so busted pt 2.

 

Peace yall...

 

Always...

Always thinking of you sweetheart.

Gonna be a bright, bright...

Gonna be a bright, bright sunshiny day...

 

Quotes Jeremiah 17:8 in the bridge...

 

"Blessed are a man and a woman that walkith not in the council of the reptilians..."

 

I have no idea where that came from but I like it, always liked Jimmy Cliff, from way back in the day...peace dingleberry.

 

 

 

Jeremiah 17:8

"He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by a stream. He won't fear when the heat comes, and his leaves will be green. In a year of drought he won't be concerned, nor will he stop producing fruit."

 

I stop here, at a lil "put in" on the banks of the Ohio River, each time I come home from or go to work this way. It reminds me of the verse listed above. I say prayers and give my thanks for the blessed life I've been given, and then go on my way, richer than I was before I stopped.

 

I pray for you as well Lucy, that you will find the strenght and the courage to come get what was given to you.

 

God Bless you girl, you're always in my thoughts. Promise.

 

 

Aren't you...

Aren't you glad to have a real man in your life?...One that knows what he wants and isnt afraid to go get it? One that knows how he feels and isnt afraid to tell you? Or the world for that matter? Love you, you should call sometime, we should have that first all night phone conversation...

I love you sweetheart...

I love you sweetheart. I want you sooooooooo bad...in ways you can't even dream of...that's how I want you. Peace...

Just woke...

Just woke back up...now getting ready to go back to Louisville. TTYL...Don't yall think she should be talking to me by now?

Morning Beautiful...

Sweet Dreams Sweetheart...

Sweet Dreams Sweetheart...

Gotta go see Christian...

Gotta go see Christian, Angel was convicted of neglect today...It really is Mr. Mom's neighborhood around here.

I just...

I just walked from the picnic table underneath the shag bark hickory tree to the house...and all I could think was, "why is she not here holding my hand walking with me?"...love you Lucy.

Rumi

The source is within you.
And this whole world is springing from it.

Rumi

I burn each second of my life to love.

Next time...

Next time your number flashes across my phone...it better be you...

Truth

Coke collection...

Coke collection is pushing 90+ pieces...this set? Less than $10.

Tell her...

Tell her she ought to go yall...

Just got...

Just got the itinerary for the Band Contests on Sept.14th, if somebody wants to have fun in Cincy they better speak up...

Well...

Well after all these years it seems I have a following...nice, very nice.

Errands...

Errands to run...in and out for a bit...Love you.

Rumi

Love is an emotion - totally silent
and inexpressible, with words!

Chaps...

Chaps...Bike...Patron Silver...Salt...Lemon...you know whats up...don't even act like you don't...bahahahaha...Love you dingleberry.

Rumi

I will find new meaning in every joy and sorrow
In that silence, I will hear the voice of spirit,
And freed from this world, I will see another world
Where the end is another beginning.

Rumi

Beauty and Love are as body and soul.
Beauty is the mind, Love is the diamond.
They have been together
since the beginning of time-
Side by side, step by step.

Morning...

Morning Sunshine...

You...

You should be here right now...I should be crawling in bed with you this very second...Love you...night knucklehead.

"I'm a smooth..." Yes I am :-P...

"...I'm a smooth rider baby
You know I just keep movin on
Don't know why I like to carry on
The way I do
It's just that I'm in love with you..."

Half a mile...

"Half a mile from the county fair
And the rain keep pourin' down..."

Tired still...

Headin to bed soon...

Truth...

The glamorous day...

The glamorous day of a single parent who works midnights ninety miles from his home and his son:

Ride ninety miles home

Unpack

Start Laundry

Fix a lunch for Nich

Do Dishes

Take Nich to School

Come Home

Wound up from ride home so I

Stayed up to 10:00 reading, listening to music, my favorite time in the world as everybody knows not to come here in the AM, he's at school, it's the only time I feel like I ever get to myself, it's needed.

Woke up at 2:30 and got him from school

Went to store

Came home and laid back down a lil after three

Got up at six

More laundry

Pay Bills

He wanted to go see granny and grandpa

Came home and did home work

Still messin with Laundry

and now I am here with you.

The first day off is always the busiest, that way we have more DT on the second one

Mondays always the worst 

Particularly after patch

Busy weekend as well

Cookin Sat with Christian, biggest mess of food we will have ever attempted

He's is emptying his freezer, making way for a whole cow his buddy is going to butcher for him

It will keep him and his kids fed for a while

Probably be giving a lot of the venison we're cooking away

Sunday trip to Evansville for two pair of jeans and two hoodies for Nich

Sunday Church, usual activites

Monday, cutting up tree and burning brush pile at Mom and Al's...

If you so worried about me leaving put the ink on your finger

"We can be Heros just for one day, 

what do you say 

I say?"

Love you, peace...

I'm sure...

I'm sure we could find a place open after the show in Cincy to get tats if we wanted...

Tired...

Slept most all day till now sweetheart...I like it when everything is 1+ed...makes me happy...told you it don't take a lot...

Awwww...

Awwww, somebody went back and 1+ed every post...who could have done that Lucy? So sweet...

Night...

Night...love you.

"Don't you get..."

"Don't you get tired of the commute?" they ask...uh, yeah, uh, no, not really...

Purpose...

"Your pourpose is not what you do to bring home a paycheck. Your purpose is what you were put on Earth to do with such intensity and passion that it becomes a spiritual calling."

Really? You don't say?...I would have never figured it out...

It just...

It just pours out of me, I can't explain it, I'm sorry if it comes to much or to often but I can't contain it, I would be a basket case if I tried...It's how I know it's not just me at work here...Let me know if you wanna go to the shindig in Cincy, we will work it out somehow...I love you, gonna go for a while...Let you cry and all...peace, get some sleep...

Just keeps droping out of the sky...

Time after time, not even really looking...everything reminds me of you...you are my muse.

 

"...Something inside is telling me that
I've got your secret
Are you still listening?
Fear is the lock
And laughter the key to your heart
And I love you
I am yours, you are mine
You are what you are
You make it hard..."

...

"...Sometimes it hurts so badly
I must cry out loud
I am lonely
I am yours, you are mine
You are what you are
You make it hard
Remember what we've said and done and felt
About each other
Oh babe, have mercy
Don't let the past remind us of
What we are not now
I am not dreamin'
I am yours, you are mine
You are what you are
You make it hard..."

Change my life, make it right...

"...Chestnut brown canary
Ruby throated sparrow
Sing the song, don't be long
Thrill me to the marrow
Voices of the angels, ring around the moonlight
Asking me, said she so free
How can you catch the sparrow?
Lacy, lilting, lyric;, losing love, lamenting
Change my life, make it right
Be my lady..."

I know that of which I speak...

Stephen Stills is simply amazing. Very underated palyer particularly on acoustic...

I don't even know...

I don't even know where you are and I'm asking you if you want to go...lol

I'm waiting...

I'm waiting...I'm sitting right here by the phone, on the computer, signed in to gmail etc...waiting Lucy...

Well...

Well, I'll believe it when I see it...

Well

Well call me, text me or email me and I'll get tickets and we 'll do it...simple, easy, we will take a blanket and set up shop in the grass...it will be a good day...promise...aint nothing to be scared of Lucy...I aint gonna let nothing happen to you...ever.

Yeah right...

Yeah right...1+ aint gonna cut it, you gonna have to let me know something sweetheart...

Wanna go?

I'm off, Nich has a band competition, Tedeschi Trucks band is awesome, seen Los Lobos, liked them, seen JJ Grey and mofro four times, always a good time, their horn section alone is worth the price of admission, Kenny Wayne Shepard is a hell of a player, Stephen Stills is very underated especially on 12 string acoustic, my buddy Dave likes Beth Hart alot and the few songs I've heard from JC Brooks and the Uptown Sound I've really liked...What do ya say Dollbaby? How many cool things you gonna turn me down for?

 

 

Our secret World...

"...In our secret world, we were colliding
All the places we were hiding love
What was it we were thinking of?..."

If...

"If your path is more difficult it is because of your high calling."

I love you...

I love you. I knew the third time I ever walked you to your car you were just what the Doctor ordered. Actually, more than what the Doctor ordered, but thats fine as well. I'm a teddy bear sweetheart, promise, just ask Nicholas.

I am serious...

I am serious. We can keep doing this for years or we can start having a life together.Wasting time at this point if you ask me. The most valuable commodity on the planet. You can't buy it, you can't sell it, everybody is only given so much of it, you just can't go get yourself some more. It's really all we have. That and love. What better way to show someone you care, than to give them the most priceless gift of all? Your time...

Heres how it works...

Heres how it works. I aint calling. I'm not e-mailing. I'm not texting. I'm not looking up any more addresses. No more wild goose chases. I shouldn't have to. You want me and what I'm offering? Then let it be known. Text me. E-mail me. Message me in yahoo or gmail. (I like gmail better cause the dialog box stays on the screen when I move from tab to tab). Send an anoymous package that I will know could have only came from you. Any number of ways to let it be known...

In the meantime, I'll continue to give you love and trust...just like always...Love you sweetheart, relax, take a deep breath and come join the rest of your life.

What are we waitin on?

You know when the perfect time for anything is kuncklehead? Never. There is never a perfect time for anything. Never a perfect time to have children, buy a house, fall in love, move, on and on, never. If you sit around and wait for the perfect moment for everything then life passes you by and you'll end up with a lot of "I wish I hads". Not my style sweetheart. Never has been. I tell Nich all the time, get a chance go do something, even if it's something you don't think you will like, you'll never know unless you try, and it may be the only chance you ever get to go do that particular thing so why not?

 I said it a while back, I don't worry about "if" anymore, now all I think about is "when". Love you, peace...

"Watch her..."

"Watch her walk..."

Been ready...



Ready...

Ready to tell the world Dollbaby...just say the word.

"I aint afraid...

"I aint afraid to talk about it
I aint afraid to dream about it
I aint afraid to shout about it..."

Are we...

Are we forgetting to 1+ some post?...Oh no! My worlds just gonna fall apart, what ever will I do? bahahahaha...

"It's overtime...

"It's overtime at ringside...no lie."


Lord aint that the truth...

"It's a ..."

"It's a thrill a minute plane ride...

Morning Sunshine...

"Only trust him, only trust him, only trust him now, he will save you, he will save you he will save you now."

Love you, off to lunch with step mom...peace...

They laughed...

They laughed at me in the NOC when I said the next one (if there ever was to be one) would be:
1) Self-sufficent.
2) Professional.
3) Mensa level intellligent.
4) Drop dead georgous.

They laughed at me when I said I would put an outlet in the bathroom for the woman that's worthy.
They laughed at me when I said I would put a seat on the bike for the one that's worthy...

I'm used to being laughed at, people been doing it to me my whole life. I don't laugh back, I don't throw it in peoples faces when things start going my way, I just figure people will know or hear about things sooner or later anyway...so let them find out on their own. To not gloat when people are expecting you to? It just makes the gears in their head lock up, they just dont get it, it's just not the response they were expecting...exactly.

Things...

Things setteled down here at work. Felt a lil odd coming in on a Saturday of patch weekend after having been off on Friday, but jumped right back in to the swing of things. That co-worker that was giving me a hard time? Well that still just blows my mind. nobody ever, ever complained of my work, no team lead, no supervisor, no other support group (Hickman doesn't count lol). To be that angry, jealous, hatefull, and spitefull of someone it's just a foreign concept to me. Why not be thankfull? Why not be happy for someone? I just don't understand it. James told him "You don't know him, you don't know a thing about him." and he is right he really doesn't. James does, we sat in here for a year and a half, we both know about each others ups and downs and life experiences. This coworker doesn't know what it's like to be a single parent. He doesn't know what I have had to endure to get to this point in my life. He's not thinkig about all the sleepless nights with a sick child cause you were the only caretaker. He doesn't no jack about me or anything I've lived through in my life. He just sees a guy riding and living his life like he wants and he's jealous, plain and simple. He went to germany a few years ago to visit family. Will I ever go to Germany? Probably not. I say good for him, glad he got to go, why be jealous of someone? Only gonna bring you down in my book. He's been added to the prayer list.

I love you, I think about you all the time. It feels good not to talk to a ghost anymore lol. Serious about the house, make it ours, do whatever you want. Pink kitchen? Sure, why should I care? I want you to feel like it's yours, cause it's going to be. I mean it.

Love you...

and...

and hear your voice on the phone...that would be nice...real, real nice.

I just ...

I just wanna see your face coming down that sidewalk...I wanna know we want the same thing in life...

Night sweetheart...

Night sweetheart get some sleep for a change...sweet dreams...

I love you Lucy...

I love you Lucy, god bless you girl...

Rumi

"The heart has it's own language."

It doesn't need to be spoke to be understood sweetheart, I can hear it from 100's of miles away...promise.

Well...

Well that was quick with the 1+...

Cry to me...



Crying agian?

Crying agian? It's okay...promise...

IDK...

I don't know that we will ever do everything I want us to do...I don't know that the house will ever look like both of us want it to someday (purple and gold bedroom and all)...I don't know that we will ever buy kayaks I don't know if we ever see DMB at the Gorge, or anything else on my list of things I would like to do with you......so many things can go wrong with plans.

The point is, none of that matters...all I care about is my son being happy and living a life with you.

I'm just gonna keep saying it and saying it and saying it...you'll be running around the house all in a frenzy about something and I am just going to grab you and hold you tight and not say a word and you're gonna look at me with those "Let me go I got things I gotta get done eyes" and I'm just going to smile... you will be like "WTH?"...and I will look you dead in the eyes, run my fingers through your hair, kiss those sweet soft lips of yours and ask you "What could be more important than this?"

...nothing...that's what.

But this...

But this is my dream; this is what I will work hard every day the rest of my life for because I want YOU, all day, every day, the rest of days...peace.
 

Lovin...

Lovin you is impressive? Aw sugar, that comes easy for me.

"You have performed...

"You have performed an impressive task" I have? Now what exactly would that be Lucy?

A picture...

A picture would be nice, maybe an unexected package like I thought might be showing up? Something Lucy...lol

My buddies friend...

My buddies friend caught a catfish down by the Canneltown Locks and Dam that was an Indiana State Record...I forget how much it weighed...alot...Christian says Tommy weighs close to 280...so you can imagine how much the fish weighs...

Are you...

Are you crying agian? Don't be sad...be happy, for the life we are about to have sweetheart...

Have to...

Have to click and hold down to highlight text in last post for some reason...

How about...

How about we share this lil gem with all of them Lucy?

 

I want a woman who is on my level. I'll be honest, I've never had one.I want a woman that challenges me on every level. I would be this woman’s rock and she can be the waves coming and going rising and falling, failing all around me while I just remain steady and solid. I want a woman that when she gives me her whole heart I know I got it and I won't ever have to worry about it ever again, ever, period. She can test me all she wants, that’s fine, I expect that, she's a woman, but that heart of hers is all mine and I know she will never desire another. I want a woman that when I piss her off or she pisses me off it just makes us want to be with each other that much more because I know nobody else will ever give me that fire, that passion, that intensity that I long for, that has been missing for far too long now. I love romance, I love "Old School" things like that because it seems like we have lost our way with it and nobody does it any more. It’s just sad. Everybody is to damn scared to take a chance. It worked back in the day, still works today if people try it. "With great risk comes great reward" I read somewhere. I want that woman, that even though I may have only spent a little bit of time with her I could just tell she was the real thing and I knew, I'll never be able to explain it to anyone, I just knew there was no way I would ever let her get away from me. I didn't used to believe in "when you know you just know" but I have recently been converted to this concept. I want a woman that has touched my soul so much that I will freely go above and beyond anything I could have ever dreampt of doing in order to show her how much she means to me and enjoy the journey doing so. I want that woman who is so beautiful most men wouldn’t even have the courage of walking up to her and starting a conversation. The greatest thing? She doesn’t have the slightest clue this is how the majority of men perceive her. I want that woman I feel like I was put on this earth to be a good husband for, someone that I know we are going to have a life and a love like few others will ever be fortunate enough to experience. Will it be easy? Of course not, nothing worth it ever is. But this is my dream; this is what I will work hard every day the rest of my life for because I want YOU, all day, every day, the rest of days...peace.

Here safe and sound...

Here safe and sound...patch weekend still sucks...residual issues...nice ride though...Love you, ttyl.

Ridin...

Ridin up...talk to you later...Love you...peace...

Done...

Done crying yet?

When I...

When I think of you I see your pretty face and that simple lil white summer dress and flowers and you're walking just as slow as you can down our sidewalk...tears are just pouring down your face...there's tears streaming down mine and a lot of other peoples as well. All it takes is a job in Evansville...Love you, gotta get ready to go to work...be back in here later.

Somebody...

Somebody went back and 1+ed every post from yesterday :-)...who could it be Lucy?

I think...

I think about you all the time Lucy...especially when I am going to bed, and when I get up...you should be here with me Lucy.

Better yet...

Better yet we could be layin in the hammock lookin at the stars...

We could be...

We could be talking on the phone right now...

I gotta get to bed Lucy...

I gotta get to bed Lucy, love you...

If you were...

If you were with me you would sleep, you would be worn out...

Do

Do you ever sleep?

One of my favs...

One of my favs of all time...

"I heard Papa tell Mama: Let that boy boogie-woogie,
'cause it's in him and it got to come out!

Well, I felt so good, and I went on boogie-woogie'n just the same…"

-John Lee Hooker (Boogie Chillen')

He's got...

He's got a buddy spending the night...we all went to the local pizza joint's "Fifth Quarter" pizza buffet...all you can eat and a fountain drink for seven bucks...so hokey it was kind of fun actually...Love ya Lucy...

A real...

A real woman...Bahahahahahaha...where? Where is she Lucy?

Funny...

Funny how the pageviews drop dramatically when someone knows im not at a computer...Just sayin'

709 almost...

Home from game...he did good :-)

54 more to go yall...

54 more to go yall...

No, 'cause

"No, 'cause it just feels so good and so free and so right.
I know we ain't never gonna' to change our minds about it - hey!

Here comes my girl. Here comes my girl."

But then

"But then she looks me in the eye and says,
"We're gonna last forever."
And man, you know I can't begin to doubt it."

Yeah, I

"...Yeah, I just catch myself waiting, wondering, worrying
About some silly little things that don't add up to nothin...'

Every time

"...Every time it seems like there ain't nothin' left no more,
I find myself having to reach out and grab hold of something..."

Just...

Just feel blessed that someone was sent to you who exist on the same wavelength as you do. Ok knucklehead?

you funny...

You funny bout the 1+ing...like your not gonna have access to the whole thing forever anyway...you're to much...

95

95 to go...

Yall know...

Yall know I love her right? Can yall not convince her she should grab hold of me and not let go? What kind of crew you run with Lucy?

121...

121 more pageviews to beat yesterdays record...come on guys, yall can do it...

I've told you all along...

I've told you all along I knew what was up...this is nothing new...so you a real woman or not buttercup? Bahahahaha...

Your not...

Your not foolin anybody...you never have been...never from day one...you came back to the NOC sayin' you couldn't find the elevator just to have me walk with you to show you...You had to get a second look didn't you? Just couldn't believe what you saw the first time around, you had to come back and double check for yourself ? Like I didn't know or couldn't tell? Please...give it up sista...you funny...peace...

Visited...

Visited "my sister than I never had" Fawn, and her lil munchkin Rusty today...talk about out in the boonies...that house has been there since 1880's? I think that's what Jason (her husband) said. They just got started building their house on the hill behind the present one. Jason was asleep from working midnights, Alyssa (Fawns daughter from a prior relationship) was at school, but it was a nice visit, 35 minute nice ride with , hills, curves, rode in the Koboda, fed and watered the chickens with 'em...went to the bank, the post office, the gas station, Wal-mart, visited with Christian and his bunch of heathens, now I get to go get Nich and then take him right back to school and then go to the football game to go watch him...your missing all the fun...this stuff means as much to me as the concerts and the trips, etc...There will only ever be "one" first performance in a high school marching band...I was not about to miss it...in and out all night love you...

Oh?

Oh? you not gonna 1+ that last post? I'm so frazzled...I just don't know what to do,,,

I know...

I know it's you sweetheart...how many Virgie Tidmore's you think there are on Google+? Especially one that doesn't know me but keeps 1+ing my post? Give me a break dingle-berry, you've been had...lol

When...

When you just gonna tell me you love me and we can move this thing forward Lucy...When sweetheart?

Running errands...

Running errands...love you...peace.

Share it with everybody...

Share it with everybody and have them share it with everybody...I really don't care...want the whole world to know how crazy I am about you Lucy...

Coffee...

You could have had your coffee right here with me this AM...If I am off i'll do the cooking...used to doing it all anyway, have been for years...Starting early next spring I'll have my PTO built back up...I plan on going back to taking a week off every two months...I never work more than three days in a row...we will have plenty of time together sweetheart...promise.

Don't you...

Don't you wanna walk down our sidewalk to "Here comes my girl", making your way to the porch to marry me? I figured it out yesterday, you could just walk real slow when the chorus is playing "Here comes my girl"...then finish up however much you need to when the song is finishing...4:30 minutes of all eyes on you, whoever you want here to see it...ride off in the sunset on the bike...a small reception at church five minutes away with punch and cake, no gifts needed, we already got what we need...Don't you wanna Lucy?

When?

When do I get to tell the world the baddest woman on the planets heart is all mine? When Lucy?

Love you...

Love you, night.

Don't ever forget...

Don't ever forget I'm a man...

It's my...

It's my plan anyway...lol

Eat it up sweetheart...

The chicken was good...

The chicken was good the other night...you should be here...

741

741 pageviews yesterday...unreal...what would "John" say?

I got to...

I got to get up in two hours and fix Nich breakfast...Im gonna lay back down...WhY aren't you here with us?

And if your

'...And if your soul is let go
Oh you never know, no you never know..."

If your,,,

"...If your rhythm ever falls out of time
You can bring it to me and I will make it alright,,,"

If music...

"...If music got to free your mind
Just let it go cause you never know, you never know..."

Fell asleep Lucy...

Fell asleep Lucy...sorry sweetheart...Love you so much...when we gonna be together dollbaby? You killing me...

At times...

At times Febrez can be a single man's best friend.

One would hope...

Sop...

"Sop you up like gravy with a biscuit"...promise.

Mamihlapinatapai

Mamihlapinatapai (Yaghan): A look between two people that suggests an unspoken, shared desire.

Tell me about it...

I just love it...

"And if your heart is beating free
For the very first time it'll be alright"

I promise...it will be.

741 page views...WOW...

741 page views...WOW...

Don't it...

Don't it just blow your mind? Aint it great? Don't you love it?

"Only those who are ravaged by Love know Love,
The sun alone unveils the sun to those who have
The sense to receive the senseless and not turn away.

Cavernous shadows need the light to play but light
And light alone can lead you to the light alone."

When?...

When? When do I get to taste those sweet honey lips? When do I get to know I and I alone will be the only one to kiss those lips? Why you gotta torture a boy? What more I gotta prove to you Lucy?

Just to know...

Just to know that I am going to hear that sweet voice calling me honey and babe for the rest of my life...I will be happy all of my days...If only I could know for certain...

Nine views?

Nine views? I know way better than that sweetheart...

631?...

631 pageviews in one day? What is going on with you?

Rumi...

Rumi followed closely by John Lee...who else?

JLH birthday today...

"Boom boom boom boom
I'm gonna shoot you right down,
Right offa your feet
Take you home with me,
Put you in my house
Boom boom boom boom
A-haw haw haw haw
Hmmm hmmm hmmm hmmm

I love to see you strut,
Up and down the floor
When you talking to me,
That's baby talk
I like it like that
Whoa, yeah!
Talk that talk, walk that walk

When she walk that walk,
And talk that talk,
And whisper in my ear,
Tell me that you love me
I love that talk
When you talk like that,
You knocks me out,
Right off of my feet
Hoo hoo hoo
Talk that talk, and walk that walk"

Back to...

Back to threes and fours? Come on sweetie...You can do it!

Rumi

Love is longing and longing, the pain of being parted;
No illness is rich enough for the distress of the heart,
A lover's lament surpasses all other cries of pain.

Love is the royal threshold to God's mystery.
The carnival of small affections and polite attachments
Which litter and consume our passing time
Is no match to Love which pulses behind this play.

It's easy to talk endlessly about Love,
To live Love is to be seized by joy and bewilderment;

Love is not clear-minded, busy with images and argument.
Language is too precocious, too impudent, too sane
To stop the molten lava of Love which churns the blood,

This practicing energy burns the tongue to silence;
The knowing pen is disabled, servile paper

Shrivels in the fire of Love. Bald reason too is an ass
Explaining Love, deceived by spoilt lucidity.
Love is dangerous offering no consolation,

Only those who are ravaged by Love know Love,
The sun alone unveils the sun to those who have
The sense to receive the senseless and not turn away.

Cavernous shadows need the light to play but light
And light alone can lead you to the light alone.

Material shadows weigh down your vision with dross,
But the rising sun splits the ashen moon in empty half.

The outer sun is our daily miracle in timely
Birth and death, the inner sun
Dazzles the inner eye in a timeless space.

Our daily sun is but a working star in a galaxy of stars,
Our inner sun is One, the dancing nuance of eternal light.

You must be set alight by the inner sun,
You have to live your Love or else
You'll only end in words.

View this...

View this post 100 times if your madly in love with me and wanna be my wife, wanna come live a quiet life in the country, have a garden with me, wear a sundress (and only a sundress) while dancing around to the grateful dead for me in the yard, wanna pay of the house (with your name on the deed within a few days of you coming) as soon as we can, wanna buy kayaks to go fishing in, wanna go to concerts, go to New Orleans Jazz Fest, go to Beale Street in Memphis, go to Nashville for a weekend, go to Tampa Bay Blues Fest, go to Cedar Point, wanna buy solar panels, wanna go camping, wanna take naps in the hammock with me, wanna have fires at night just the two of us, want me to cook for you, make your coffee in the AM for you, wanna watch sunsets from our porch in our swing, go for rides, wanna go to worship with me, wanna make love in the rain on the trampoline, are ready to go places and do things you just never ever thought you would want to...can a brother get an amen?...Love you Lucy...you funny, you still not foolin anybody...gonna put adsense on here before long if these pageviews keep growing like they are..565 pageviews...you know how that makes me feel? :-)...I wanna marry you dollbady been telling you for a year now, or almost a year anyway...

Nich thinks...

Nich thinks your having an affair with the F5 button...land I though your heart was all mine...lol

365...

365 pageviews...who all you got watchin this thing? lol. I really don't care...I already made myself a big enough fool for you...what makes you think I will ever quit at this point?

You're something...

You're something...lol

The package...

The package...was the DMB tickets that we can't go to :-(...Figures...lol...Love you...diggin the pageviews...your amazing...so when Lucy? When I get to see or talk to you?,,,Come on babygirl...

:-)...

300...

300+ pageviews amazing...

A lil over a year ago...

A lil over a year ago I would have said this is just nonsense...not these days.

I...

"I...I could be king...and you?.., you could be my queen..."

Love you...

Love you Lucy...

Tired Lucy...

Love you...like i'm really gonna sleep...night sweetheart...if Ican't sleep ill be in and out...peace.

Fedex...

Fedex Door Tag is on the door...

I'm a...

I'm a nervous wreck...big bad me...knock on the door at Cookville, no problem, go to a family gathering on a Holiday weekend in Baxter and you have already moved...go to your mom's in Albany and knock on the door, no big deal...but wait for a package? I'm terrified...

You know...

"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.”

If I am breathing...

If I am breathing I am thinking of you...but I am thinking back to that talk with the guidance councilor...my head is spinning and I can not breathe...let a boy catch his breath Lucy...

Are...

Are you sure?

So...

So I should get the package then?

Chillin...

Havin that third day off Friday has put me in a very relaxed mode as I have an extra day for bills, laundry etc...Feels nice...no patch Friday, no Louisville till sat :-)...hangin with nich...gonna BBQ some chicken in a bit... Fedex been here the last two days, they want a signature for a package? I didn't order anything, nor did Nich...Probably pictures of you and John flipping me off telling me to go away is my guess...Seriously I don't know if I should leave my signature on the form so they drop it off or not...You know anything about this? What would you do Lucy?...Be back later...Peace...

Rumi

Words are a pretext. It is the inner bond that draws one person to another, not words.

Is it...

Is it you Lucy? Is it really you? How much longer you gonna keep me in suspense? Be easy on a boys heart now...he done been through a lot...

:-)...Night.

:-)...Night.

You up?

Home safe and sound...

Wrapping up...

Love you, night.

Decorate it...

Decorate it however you want...I really don't care...paint our bedroom purple and gold...don't really matter...Nicholas has absolutely no say here as he lives upstairs and will be gone soon anyway...put your touches on it so that it feels like yours because soon it will be sweetheart...promise.

All it takes...

All it takes, is you saying, yes, this is what I have decided I want, and then a job in Evansville...No more moving ever agian...You will move into the home you will grow old in...promise.

Warriors of the light...

:-)...If you only knew...

:-)...If you only knew...we would already be together.

Guess so...

Still with me sweetheart?

Got to go brew some...always have a cup or two this time of AM if I'm riding home...Don't drink it if I'm in the truck...

Who else...

Who else ever gonna give you the greatest argument you ever heard agianst atheism and David Bowie "Heros" live within hours of each other?...let's see here...Your future husband that's who...aint nobody else ever gonna blow your mind like me sweetheart...Don't ever think I don't know it.

Heros..

I could write a book on this one, I guarantee you I could...Gets me fired up these days when I think about fighting for Nicholas..."We could beat them forever and ever". The slow build up, the droning guitar that just sounds fabulous...Like the guy or not he has a great voice and is a fantastic performer...'I would be king...and you...you would be my queen" reminds me of you and me..."We can be Heros, just for one day"...I remember reading an interview with Springsteen where he said he thought it was odd how songs changed could their meaning over the years to him as a performer even though the lyrics never changed, mostly based on life circumstances and the like...I was like "Dude! that's true for the audience as well"...So it is with this song...it's changed it's meaning many times for me through the years...Right now it's an anthem about fighting for him... Your  beautiful, I love you...peace.