I love you Vergie.
So glad you're in my life.
We are going to be three of the most unconventional SOB's you ever seen.lol.
I wouldn't want my family any other way.
Peace.
Saturday, November 30, 2013
My bike...
It's a HD Sporster 48. Just like my model is. Lots of Mods here. I like the black heavy duty air filter = 25% more horsepower...I would like that, and paint the tank solid black...and three of four lil covers here and there...and LED lights on rear fender to replace the reflector and...and...and...
Maybe someday lol...not really too much of a priority for me right now...
Maybe someday lol...not really too much of a priority for me right now...
I freakin....
I freakin wish...
One month down..three to go.
I look everytime before leaving.
No chance of percipitation and nightime low of 42-45?
then I'm rolling to work.
Period.
It doesn't even cross my mind not to anymore.
I got my criteria, I have established my limits.
Conditions suitable?
Rolling.
No need to ask questions.
Just wanna be coming home to you that's all.
I wouldn't...
I wouldn't have posted it, but I have been known to destroy a "Family Size" bag of Nacho Cheese Doritos in one sitting...lol...Yes, one sitting...one.
Next afternoon Nich's like "Where's the doritos?" "Uh...Yeah...Thery're...uh...They're gone." "What? They're gone? You ate them all?" "Yep, I paid for them and I ate them, sorry about your luck. Relax, we'll get some more." lol. Anyway, I thought it was funny.
Looks ...
Looks like my kinda joint.
This is exactly the type of thing I scour the backroads looking for.
Makes great pictures.
"If the...
"If the potential payoff is greater than the risk involved, then you break the rule."
I think somebody said once :-).
Response from the party to whom the message was intended?
"I do not feel the same way!"
I knew...
I knew what was up.
I could tell.
I wasn't ever about to let you.
Thank goodness I am skilled in the art of non-verbal communication.
Your smile, your body language, lots of other things lil things were sending a compltetely different message than the words that were coming out of your mouth.
It's...
It's exactly what I decided I wasn't ever going to do...I saw what it did to me, it doesn't ever work.
People have to be themselves, for them to be anything else is for them to be miserable.
"Yes...
"Yes dad, me Grandma Janet, James, and Granny all have this little spy network going on watching you." "Sure seems like it."
Just sayin'...
And...
And seriously, what is up with that Norwegian bot?
Damn thing wont quit scouring my blog and leaving comments...
I'm ...
I'm on to ya...lol..have been ever since Lil Red Dollbaby...
I've been on to ya...lol
If I didn't think you wanted me to chase and catch you...
Then I never would have bothered.
I saw it in your eyes comin' down the steps.
"Be cool, be cool, she don't know your hearts beating so fast it's bout to explode, be cool, be cool, act like this is exactly what you deserve...act any other way and it won't ever happen...be cool...god bless she is so fine...be cool."
If you only knew what was going on in my head right then.
Well...I guess I just told you.
Thing is...
I want to tell the world.
Love you.
So...
So this AM James comes in 5:30 or so. I love James, he is like a brother to me. He has helped me so much in my job. I would like to think I have helped him grow personally. It was James that tipped me off that I was accidentally posting things to the wrong circle in Google+. I told him when I had been doing that a while back that if it ever happened again to let me know, so he did. (He said the pink G-string got him excited btw lol). Anyway, I told him thanks for the heads up, deleted post etc...
I also told him that things were fun, it was exciting to know that things were going to happen but not knowing when. I told him that you had obviously been talking to Nicholas and that you have a little thing about inside jokes building intimacy and that I though it was very smart of you to include Nicholas in whatever lil scheme you guys are currently executing.
So anyway when he came in yesterday morning I wasn't about to say any more about what I had told him the other day. I was ready for "Dude, you're letting her talk to Nicholas? Are you sure about that? Don't you think that's a lil weird?" etc and so on. He never mentioned it :-).
I showed him the picture of where I would like for us to spend a day each Christmas Season. I had never showed it to him, it was just the pic, not the blog post. "Oh yeah, West Baden Springs Resort...blah blah blah...I'm sure you all will go there." He obviously wasn't talking about me and Nicholas going there.
The thing is...lil Miss Thang...Nowhere...not in any text to you, not on the Blog anywhere...did I ever mention where this place was, nor the name of it, just that it was 68 miles away...No way he sees one picture at Christmas time and knows instantly exactly where the place is and what its name is...noway. Just the way he did not question in the least that you were talking to Nicholas and how emphatic he was in his "Oh yeah, West Baden Springs Resort..." comment. All this once again, gives you away :-).
I've told you plenty of times.
I like your style sweetheart.
Peace.
It's...
It's pretty easy to do really, cause she is.
Why would I ever want less than the most amazing I ever met?
Rumi
Dance, when you're broken open. Dance, if you've torn the bandage off. Dance in the middle of the fighting. Dance in your blood. Dance when you're perfectly free.
K.
Give me a lil bit.
And then I will start right up.
Come to think of it.
That applies to some other things as well.
Bahahahahahaha
I'm serious...
I'm serious.
I want this to be where we spend our Christmases.
Once Nich is gone, or sometime during the season(s) even before he is, when we can manage to get away together, I want us to always spend a night here every year.
Sixty eight miles away from our home.
Our tradition.
I want to wear a suit for dinner, and I want you in that fine lil black dress.
Need another one? Okay, whatever we gotta do, that's what I want to do to make this happen.
Hose, heels, garter, no panties :-).
Can you imagine sitting through dinner and knowing whats going to happen later?
How much excitement would that bring to the situation?
I want to sit right there in one of those chairs and have a 18-21 year old bourbon to close out the night with.
If they don't have one (I'll call ahead) I'll bring my own.
I'll say something to management about it.
Very classy, very polite, tell them we plan on coming every year and I would like it if they would stock_____. (Fill in the blank).
A place like this?
Yeah, they would do that for their guest.
Years from now when we walk in the place they will be like "Welcome Mr. and Mrs. Hollifield, we've been expecting you".
The entire staff will know us by name.
We will be that couple sitting there and the manager will be saying "See that couple right there. They have been coming here every year for going on 15 years now."
I just want to be able to sit back and soak it all in.
Just take it all in.
Just be able to absorb the beauty of the place with my beauty.
Do you...
Do you have company with you Lucy?
Are you showing friends or family what we do?
2:30 in the AM the day after Thanksgiving and you're sitting there 1+ing my post.
What ever would "John" or your "current lover" think?
Oh!
Maybe they're sitting there with you.
Nice.
Yeah...
Yeah me!
Back to my two's!
I know you are sitting there smiling and laughing.
Don't think I don't know it :-).
Me too...
OH NO!
OH NO!
liebermanjuanita5 is signed out of Yahoo!
What ever will I do?
How will I ever manage to carry on?
Did I embarrass or offend her earlier today?
Or did her juices start flowing?
I bet I know the answer to that one lol.
Don't matter.
I'll still leave messages for you there...
When...
um...
how do I say this delicately?
When I feel the need to shall we say?
Bahahahahahahaha
Friday, November 29, 2013
Uh...
Uh...
Yeah...
Theres a barn back at Christians...
It's got a hay loft and everything...
Just sayin'.
Well...
Well I guess I know ya pretty well...
I was hoping for a three and I got it :-).
But a "one" wouldn't really have suprised me either.
You crack me up.
Please tell me you want to crack me up the rest of our days.
Your...
Your "two's" make me smile btw...
So please keep them coming!
Nothing but "twos" from this point forward...ever!
My new favorite number...two.
Oh...
Oh...I see, a three on the Estee Lauder post and a two on the "two's" post...
Nice...
Maybe I had it wrong...
Maybe you're getting it on with "John", or perhaps your "current lover"...
Bahahahahahahaha.
You're too much.
Strike that...
You're just right.
For me you are anyway...
Love you.
Peace.
Estee Lauder
When I thought I couldn’t go on, I forced myself to keep going. My success is based on persistence, not luck.
~~Estee Lauder
~~Estee Lauder
Rumi
"Love is cure, Love is power, Love is the magic of changes. Love is the mirror of divine beauty."
Is this who you know you would be for me if need be? I know well beyond any doubt that I would be the man pushing the wheel chair in the other version of this scenario. If this is not who you truly know yourself to be, then don't drag it on any longer cause it's not fair to any of us.
Honestly, I think you knew a while back who you are.
The rest has been window dressing.
Love you.
Chicken Shit.
Call me...
Call me she says...lol
That one still cracks me up.
Nice try with Nicholas over Thanksgiving as well.
Wednesday AM 7:30, phone rings, some random 812#.
"Aren't you gonna answer that?" Nich ask. "No, I don't answer calls I don't know who they are from" I say. "Could be Virgie" he says out of the blue. "If it's her she can leave a message or she can call me from her 520 number, that's the only one I will ever answer, I've told her this". He just smiles and goes about his day.
Two more times during the day he ask "Are you excited about Thanksgiving dad?" Twice? The boy never ask if I am excited about Thanksgiving, never. "Yeah, of course I am, we get to hang out with everybody, cook my turkey, watch some football why wouldn't I be excited about it?"
Nice try. I can see ya comin a mile away theses days. You were a lot more subtle this time around than you were for my birthday, I'll give you that.
Nothing going on tonight, or all weekend. Patch was last weekend. We don't even have a DT listed. Could be chit chatting away in gmail, but no, she got better plans for her self, shes a "rules girl"...what a crock of shit...
Seen through your shenanigans from day one missy...
You can't fool your self sweetheart, nice try though, much more subtle this time around.
Love you.
Peace.
Back to the grind...
Back to the grind lol.
Heading out.
Working all weekend.
Not even worrying about Christmas shopping till later on next week.
Love you.
Don't get me anything...
I'll just take you.
That be more than all I ever wanted.
Ever.
Promise.
See...
This is what I don't like about social media or electronic communication.
It's to easy to be like "Oh aint he so cute, hehehe I'm sure he doesn't really mean all that hehehe."
I'll say the same exact things to you, romantic or naughty, in electronic format that I would say to you right to your face if given the chance.
Don't ever forget that.
I simply don't say shit I don't mean.
It makes life a lot easier to manage.
Never forget...
Never forget
Your pussy, your ass and your mouth are all mine...
Monogrammed and manicured sweetheart...
Or stay away...
Bahahahahahaha
Been to the...
Been to the sheriff's yet?
I hear they have a Black Friday two for one deal on restraining orders and harassment charges.
Bahahahahahaha.
Just count your blessings I play along as much as I do.
Norwegian...
There must be a Norwegian bot out there or something...lol
Just want to be husband and wife.
Rumi
The moment you find a companion in joy
Is the moment you find your life’s own fate.
Beware that you don’t waste that moment in vain:
You will find very few such moments again.
Is the moment you find your life’s own fate.
Beware that you don’t waste that moment in vain:
You will find very few such moments again.
Hebrews 10:36
Hebrews 10:36.
Your biggest problem is exactly what mine used to be.
For what ever reason, you don't think you deserve to be loved.
It's a lot easier for it to be given away than it is to receive it.
You deserve it.
But learning to accept it is your work.
Nobody elses.
Love you.
Freaking...
Yes..."there is a girl out there".
I saw the love in her eyes.
Coming down the steps at work.
It haunts me to this day.
I just wanna see her...
with flowers in her hair...
Walking down our sidewalk.
To come marry me.
"watch her walk"
Love you.
Freaking Norwegian again...whatever....
Don't think...
Don't think I am kidding about what I say in Yahoo, or in text either.
I assure you I am not.
You more than met your match.
I just don't think you're woman enough.
I don't think you're brave enough.
I don't think you're courageous enough.
You just don't ever show me shit.
I'm...
I'm going back to bed.
I love you.
But I aint fucking happy at all about things at all.
Like you gonna meet somebody better suited for you, or more "interesting", or a better lover, or a better cook, or a better person, or a better dad...
Go fucking get him them and leave me alone...
Tina...
you're just so...
FULL OF SHIT!
Like I don't know...
Please.
Night Beautiful.
Love you,
I've...
I've been strong!
I've been courageous!
I've followed my heart.
I'm tired of being fucked with.
Period.
A man thats not into head games?
How bout a woman thats not as well?
You don't practice what you preach.
Makes me question your integrity.
Start all over again and see how long somebody else does this stupid shit for.
You got plenty with which to go to the sheriffs office and get the harassment complaint and the restraining order.
Go fucking do it.
Did you...
Did you not like it when I wasn't in yahoo?
Did you not like it when you couldn't view the blog?
Keep it up and the day will come and none of it will ever be there for you.
I've told you.
Over and over.
I won't ever say anything.
I'll just go away for good one day.
Nothing James or mom or Janet or Nicholas would say would ever change my mind.
No explanations.
No reasons.
To anybody.
Ever.
Just drop off the face of the earth.
Your call.
Your actions determine what happens.
I am tired of your lil girl horseshit that serves no purpose anymore.
I deserve better.
Tired of fighting through adversity,
It's all I've ever done.
I've proven enough Lucy.
You sure do like to dish it out.
But man you can't take it back.
Get over it.
Love you.
Are you...
Are you just sitting there waiting for a post or what?
Sure seems like it.
No poems.
No Adam Somed.
No sweet anythings anymore.
No Birthday wishes.
No Happy Thanksgiving.
Nothing but a hard time is all I ever get from you.
Sounds like two people that feel the same about each other to me.
Hope...
Hope you had a good Thanksgiving.
I'm Tired of being disrespected.
Move it along.
Or quit talking to my son.
Or I assure you it won't be pleasant when I do show up at your door the next time.
Thursday, November 28, 2013
Answer...
Morning beautiful.
Back up and at em.
Turkeys done.
Wrestle dryer.
Go to moms.
Love you.
Answer a damn text would ya?
Layin back down...
Layin back down.
Turkey is in the oven.
Changed furnace filter and hung with Nich for a lil.
Wrestle with dryer when I get back up.
Then over to moms.
Al's son and his granddaughter and their whole family are going to be there.
Food football and family.
What more could a fella want?
Besides you there with him,
and maybe some warmer weather...lol.
I aint complain.
I love this holiday.
Love you.
TTYL.
Peace.
Good Morning...
Good Morning.
Happy Thanksgiving to you and your family.
We could see this together.
Everyday we wake up together.
Tired of waiting on my wife.
Take to heart what I text you this AM.
I mean what I say.
Always.
Promise.
Love you.
Wednesday, November 27, 2013
I'm tired.
I'm tired.
Busy day.
Going back to bed.
Gotta wrestle with a dryer (get my old one from garage to basement).
Cook a turkey.
And watch a parade in the AM.
If you were here I could just tell you to your face.
Then we wouldn't run the risk of people accidentaly seeing what I am sayin to you.
Just sayin'.
Love you.
Peace.
I deleted them...
I deleted them.
They were all from this AM, pretty innocent stuff.
Except the pink g-string lol.
Sorry...lol
Shit happens.
Look how honest I am being.
Soon as I knew I told you.
Love you Knucklehead.
Jimi's Birthday today...
Jimi's Birthday today
Anger he smiles tow'ring shiny metallic purple armour.
Queen jealousy, envy waits behind him.
Her fiery green gown sneers at the grassy ground.
Blue are the life giving waters taking for granted,
They quietly understand.
Once happy turquoise armies lay opposite ready,
But wonder why the fight is on.
But they're all, bold as love.
Yeah, they're all bold as love.
Yeah, they're all bold as love.
Just ask the Axis.
My red is so confident he flashes trophies of war
And ribbons of euphoria.
Orange is young, full of daring but very unsteady for the first go 'round.
My yellow in this case is no so mellow.
In fact I'm trying to say it's frightened like me.
And all of these emotions of mine keep holding me
From giving my life to a rainbow like you.
But I'm a yeah, I'm bold as love,
Yeah yeah.
Well, I'm bold, bold as love.
Hear me talkin', girl.
I'm bold as love.
Just ask the Axis.
He knows everything. Yeah, yeah.
Queen jealousy, envy waits behind him.
Her fiery green gown sneers at the grassy ground.
Blue are the life giving waters taking for granted,
They quietly understand.
Once happy turquoise armies lay opposite ready,
But wonder why the fight is on.
But they're all, bold as love.
Yeah, they're all bold as love.
Yeah, they're all bold as love.
Just ask the Axis.
My red is so confident he flashes trophies of war
And ribbons of euphoria.
Orange is young, full of daring but very unsteady for the first go 'round.
My yellow in this case is no so mellow.
In fact I'm trying to say it's frightened like me.
And all of these emotions of mine keep holding me
From giving my life to a rainbow like you.
But I'm a yeah, I'm bold as love,
Yeah yeah.
Well, I'm bold, bold as love.
Hear me talkin', girl.
I'm bold as love.
Just ask the Axis.
He knows everything. Yeah, yeah.
People have forgotten just how mystical he was.
Shame really.
Awesome song.
Beautiful.
Love you.
Relax.
Sacking out.
Peace.
Oh...
Oh we are going to cry so many tears of joy when we finally meet up :-).
When ever you get close things always happen around me to try and disrupt my peace.
Well, other than the peace I don't have cause we haven't gotten married yet, but that's different.
I'm talking bout the evil one coming and trying to distract or keep this from happening.
He's tried.
It don't work.
Truck been running rough last week or so, water in the gas tank.
I think it sweats sitting in the garage not being driven that much for eight months and then when I do start driving it it's cold outside and it starts acting up.
Anyway, it did it last year, did the same exact thing this year.
Just gotta go to the store and put the treatment in it that gets out the water.
Takes a few tank fulls.
It's way better.
Still not there but almost.
It just stresses me out until it works it's way out that's all.
Nich's talking about a game he wants and in my head I'm like "Dude, I just hope we make it to Granny's."
Then tonight he calls and says the dryer is making a sound like a siren?
I think the mice got in the dryer vent.
Whatever, it's just a dryer, not what I am interested in at this point :-).
Got to get a new one then we just go get a new one.
Point is, things like this always seem to happen when you come close.
But I got more important things on my mind.
Like you.
And us.
Forever.
Peace.
1+ed...
1+ed :-)...it just kind of makes me feel good thats all...:-).
Love you.
It aint over sweetheart.
It's just starting.
I...
I love you.
It's going to be okay.
Just a new phase of the same game.
The one we will never quit playing.
Ever.
I read the other day that if god is blessing you , you should ask for the character to know how to handle it.
Something else added to the prayer list :-).
I'll be back in a bit.
Give you a chance to dry those eyes.
Peace.
One more...
I think you are a lil extra emotional tonight.
It's okay.
I keep telling you I got this.
Relax.
I didn't think I would ever find you either.
We are each other.
It's going to seem like meeting yourself.
Chill dollbaby...
"Wats up dog?"
I was like
"Who is that? She talks just like I do."
You're...
You're either like "Would you just quit already?!"
Or balling your eyes out, or both.
Do you honestly think I will quit?
Don't you know the answer to that question?
Haven't I shown you?
And why did James say "I couldn't have done it."
And why was Joe Williams so pissed over nuthin?
And why did James tell him "It's not enough for you to be successful is it Joe? You just don't want to see others be as well do you?" Successful in regard to what exactly Lucy?
And why were Nicholas and Janet acting like there was a surprise birthday party that never happened?
And where did Nich's intricate knowledge of relationships come from on the ride home from Alex's wedding?
And why did Nicholas keep breaking into a laugh at he wedding?
And why did he keep saying "At your wedding..."
And why did the band booster lady ask "Are you getting married soon?"
I like your style.
Always did.
From way early on sweetheart.
And...
And where did my funny lil "w" go in the comments that used to be left on post?
And why doesn't Tina ever check her e-mail anymore?
And why does some yahoo web cam freak want me to call her?
And why would she think I have the number anyway?
You're awesome.
I love it.
I don't ever wanna quit "playing".
When you get right down to it.
I just wanna go play and have fun.
Life is to short not to be lived to it's fullest.
I found the perfect person to be like this with.
I thank god and pray everyday, everyday, that he lets us become husband and wife.
"This is my dream...This is what I will fight hard everyday of my life for..."
Promise.
I want one...
I want to be the first guy around our parts to have one .
I want everybody else to want to know where I got it from.
I want everybody else to want one.
Black bandana or white?
Have to try both and see what looks best I suppose.
You are a knucklehead and a dingleberry.
But I love ya anyway Lucy.
Exactly...
Seemed very appropiate right now.
Cry all you want.
Still gonna cry when we meet.
Me too.
Tons.
Oh well.
Comes with the territory.
Oh whatever...
Oh whatever.
lol.
One last test?
Somebody gettin scared?
Hell don't view them at all at all for all I give a shit.
I'll just text you like I just did.
Y
O
U
A
R
E
F
U
L
L
O
F
S
H
I
T
!
You act like I don't know.
Or that I can't see through your shenanigans.
It's ridiculous.
It don't work with me.
Never has.
Your mom know.
Your sister knows.
Your brother(s) know.
My mom knows.
My step-mom knows.
Nicholas knows.
My step-dad knows.
You been had.
Give it up sister.
Bahahahahahahaha
Tuesday, November 26, 2013
I can't...
I'm frustrated because can't become the man I know I am supposed to be.
I will try harder at anything I decide to attempt.
I will be more faithful to my faith.
I will be calmer at times.
I will be a better parent.
I will be a better "rock" for our family.
I will be a better leader.
I will laugh harder.
And longer.
I will have more fun.
I will have more patients.
I wil be more sympathetic to others...
with you as my wife than I can just me by myself.
Not that I am that bad at some of those things already but I want to be the absolute best possible man I can be, because it's what I want to be and what you deserve. I know I'll let you down from time to time, we all do. The point here is to find that "special someone" who you want to be your absoulte best for.
I hope you feel the same.
I got a sneakin' feeling you do.
Haven't I?
Haven't I?
Why would I ever not?
I don't think I could not give 100% even if I wanted to.
In fact, I know I couldn't.
I've tried.
Not wired that way.
Just not in me.
I...
I know I won't.
She can play her games etc.,
but I know in my heart we love each other like only we will be able to.
I can't explain it.
I just know it.
Have from a very early point in time.
True...
Why would you ever want to be someone your not?
Guard up front said "You're not right." (Joking around). I said "I know, It's just easier to manage life once you accept who and how you are."
Okay...
Okay enough with the bull shit.
On to the good stuff.
I'll make you mad Lucy.
It doesn't ever mean I don't love you with all my heart.
Promise.
Well...
Well maybe you get them maybe you don't then.
You sure can dish out a hard time.
Not so sure you can take it yourself so well however.
Bahahahahaha
You...
You bout ready for some good stuff?
You want your blast of internet memes?
Always remember, I just get frustrated cause I want my wife.
Okay?
That's...
That's more like it sweetheart.
Better step it up you gonna come be in our circus.
Bahahahahaha
Oh no....
Oh no she didn't 1+ the last post.
My world just came to a screaching halt!
Whatever will I do?
Two's and threes....
Two's and threes....nice.
I bet irish girl is just steaming...
Get used to it.
And get over it...
I'm more than worth it and I know it.
You do too.
Or you wouldn't be there waiting on the next post to come through.
Please...
Bahahahahahahaha
To funny...
Too funny...
and true...lots of it anyway.
I love you Lucy...
I just want you with us.
I told you, the longer this goes on the more frustrated I will become.
It's reaching critical mass sweetheart.
Tell...
Tell "Tina", "John" and your "current lover" that I said hello.
Signing off for now sweetheart.
Love you.
Just get frustrated.
Want my wife.
Wanna start working on that life for us.
Every day we don't is a day wasted.
Actually...
Actually, I have it all the time.
(Because of and for you sweetheart)
You never should have sent those pics and said what the things you did to me lol.
I aint stopped since.
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