tomorrow.
Love you.
Night.
Monday, June 30, 2014
Next thing
"Handcuffs
yoga pants.
Couch arm."
Next thing you know you'll be talkin bout clit rings and anal and DP and toys and gooey facials and blah blah fuckin blah sister...
You just bring your shit right on over here and see what happens to you...
Well
"Handcuffs
yoga pants.
Couch arm.
Just sayin"
Fuckin bring it then...
Good lord woman...
Please...
Bahahahahahahahahaha
Slept
till 12:30.
ATT guy came and fixed the wires outside that were corroded.
Big day tomorrow.
500 miles probably.
Chads a blast ;-).
Makers.
Last stop on Bourbon trail.
Six years.
Maybe they can find the barrel with my name on it and I can get a picture.
I'm serious, it's such a big deal to me I washed and waxed the bike, sprayed it down with engine polish (nice black shine :-), and conditioned my chaps, jacket and boots, won't wear the jacket but probably will the chaps as that is the shot in one particular place up there I had in my mind. Take chaps off for rest of ride after that lol. To hot . Wearing new jeans as well.
Only one thing missing knucklehead.
You.
Love you.
Morning Sunshine
Isaiah 43:18-19
Forget what happened long ago!
Don’t think about the past.
I am creating something new.
There it is! Do you see it?
I have put roads in deserts,
streams in thirsty lands.
Love you.
Made Nich breakfast.
He is going to work over at mom's.
They pay him $10 an hour to get things done.
Things they would have to pay somebody to do anyway.
They figure they might as well pay him.
He's been doing a good job for them.
Works for about 2 hours a day in the AM.
Im going back to bed after grandpa picks him up :-).
Its why I came home early.
All I got is run to the bank and wash and wax the bike.
All day.
Thats it.
Hung out with Christian last night.
He's got a exit strategy for Century.
It's a good one.
He needs to pull it off.
I think he will.
He's gonna use their tuition reimbursment program and go to school for electrical?
Something like that.
I'm glad for him :-).
Those boys deserve to have a good life.
Love you.
Really was wishin to be out of here before school started.
Nich said he didn't mind if it was a lil later.
as usual, somebody else has better plans lol...
Later numbnuts...
yes...
I called you numbnuts.
bahahahahahahahahaha
Sunday, June 29, 2014
It's
"...If they can't be happy for us?
Fuck 'em.
We don't need them in our lives.
Period.
And I don't really care who they are..."
the truth.
I knew it would happen.
Just shocked by whom.
I mean if it's just you and me and Nich?
Well then fine.
Good for us.
Oh what fun we will have.
This process is like each time you remove something negative from your life you make room for something more positive to enter.
It's like a staircase sort of.
The more stupid crap you put in your rear view mirror the quicker you can realize it earlier when you see it again in the future and you can avoid all the drama and the chaos much earlier and easier.
Going to the mall is starting to be like watching TV was a while back.
The less I do of it the less I wanna do of it.
Just can't handle the crass commercialism and materialistic disposable nonsense to impress people that don't care anyway.
I don't get it.
Never have.
Not at all.
"Come we go chant down Babylon one more time."
I like a day or two at Christmas time.
All day.
Relax.
Know what you're in for lol.
Nice lunch somewhere.
Thats about it with me and malls.
Except to get Nichs clothes and days like today :-).
Three things I've learned.
1) God uses the people you would least expect him too.
2) The people who help you when you're down will lots of times surprise you.It won't be who you thought it would lots of times.
3) Likewise, people you never thought would turn away from you? When blessings come your way?
The first people to walk away from you will lots of times be the ones you least expected to.
Just how it works.
Love ya Lucy.
Threes
or higher in lots of instances...
nice...
Took the day off...
second time in four years to ever just call in...
just didn't wanna run around like crazy Monday afternoon after I get up and get shit done and then get up at six and go ride with Chad all day Tues...
Went to kohl's...got a pair of Levis 527's slim fit low rise boot cut jeans...went to mall and got a Bob Marley t-shirt for me and a Pokemon t-shirt for him... I'm happier than a pig in shit...lol...
Nice ride home...exact inverse of what I did going up...really pretty all along the river...couldn't get on it as much as I am not as used to this route, plus I was heading into the sun and it was getting toward dusk, not exactly pristine conditions to be opening her up in...
Yes dear, there is a method to the madness.
There's always a method in the madness.
Have ya noticed?
But it was nice...
Just needed to be on my porch at nightfall...
First there were soft chimes...then the coyotes...then the crickets...then the frogs...
all accompanied with SpongeBob :-).
Just needed ito get away Lucy...
Wanted to be out of here before school started...
Be nice if we could talk about some things :-)...
I know it aint happening...
till you decide lol...
lil Miss Thang...
Bahahahahahhahahahahaah
Love ya Dingleberry...
Shit at church was just hard to swallow...
but its for the best.
Can't go back.
Cause if I ever saw it happen again I'd blow a fuse...
Were gettin better over hear today...
seriously, I told you a long time ago it don't take much to make me happy lol...
Nice pair of Jeans and a nice Bob Marley t-shirt...
Thats two T-shirts and a pair of jeans for me this spring.
I'm good.
Picky about our t-shirts, they have to be of a good quality shirt or I don't buy it even if I like the design...
Last pair of 527's I bought a year a half ago are just now starting to fade real nice and have worn threadbare in two lil spots on the Knees...:-). Its fun to watch them wear and see what they eventually become...
If
it wasn't for him, I would have been gone oh so long ago.
Could your blessings to have found such a bad boy with such a good heart.
I'm just tired of being aggravated all the damn time.
You, work, Nicholas, Janet, church etc...
Ready to start a new life.
Not that you and Nicholas won't continue to be aggravating lol.
But at least I will be where I want to be with whom I want to be with.
It's not the case right now and it just wears me down.
Ornery Ass
ones...why even bother?
You'll just go back and make them threes later.
Bahahahahahahahaha
Pummeled.
I mean just destroyed.
You can't even imagine.
"I can handle it. I'm ready for it."
Better be.
Glad to see
some threes.
But what I really wanna see is you sweetheart.
I am by no means done talking dirty to you either.
Just
keep that hair long so you can put it in a ponytail and I can wrap it around my wrist.
Bahahahahahahah.
Oh
you're gonna leave some comments alright.
When that ass is spanked and that hair pulled.
We'll see about some comments then.
Bahahahahahahahahah
Yes
I cuss.
A lot lol.
A lot more than I should.
Nicholas gets on me.
Maybe you both can and I'll work on it.
Seriously, I need to.
Lil peer pressure and some support go a long way.
I
mean be mad.
Cry.
Tell me to go away.
What the fuck ever at this point.
Seems like if you were gonna say it one more time you already would have if you ask me.
Always got to call a bluff when you see it Lucy.
Should of done it when you were still at Kindred.
Whatever
happened to harassment charges?
and restraining orders?
and telling me to quit contacting you?
Women...lol.
Bahahahahahahahaha
A small Uhaul
and seven big totes, one for each room.
Come back and get some furniture.
Put pictures in albums.
Done.
Moving on.
Next issue please?
It aint rocket surgery.
You
like that lil mental image don't ya Lucy?
Aint nobody else ever had the balls to talk to ya like that sweetheart.
Hell, everybody else to scared to even say hello to ya let alone talk that dirty to you.
Like I don't know.
Woman please...
Tell me
to leave right now chicken shit lol.
Tell me.
Dare ya.
Lil miss "I've got balls."
No you don't lol...
Not like I do...
TI TAN IUM.
Im
gonna tell ya right now, there aint nuthin Ive said in here, POF or in text that I couldn't look you right in the eyes and tell ya...
Does
it make your panties wet to see me get this riled up about us getting together?
I mean, it is the only thing I can think of that would cause you to keep going on like this.
Just so glad I could amuse you so much princess...
Mom
when she found out I had bought a bike,
"At this point in your life I would rather you have a motorcycle in it than a woman."
Well gee, I wonder why in the world a 72 year old woman would say something like that?
Maybe she knows a lil bit about how women are?
You think?
Maybe?
I
wanted a real woman.
A strong woman.
The kind that knew what she wanted.
That wouldn't be afraid when she saw it show up.
Not some scared lil girl.
She can go back to boys for all I care...
This is the real world.
These are tough decisions.
They affect more than our own lives.
Cowgirl up there sweetheart.
Cause
trust me, if were married?
You're gonna have to cut me a lot more than this.
I will mess up your lil plan.
I'm telling you I will.
I showed up at your ex's apartment.
I showed up at your moms.
I got a unpredictable side you seem to like for whatever reason.
I'm telling you, all of your work all of you put into things?
I will mess it all up if you don't find a way to ease my mind.
I'm not fucking playing around.
The
longer this continues the greater the frustration is going to be on my end and if you don't understand that ...well...thats your tough shit...
I've
never cheated on anybody ever, not even one kiss and I have always taken all of my relationships seriously, even the ones that, looking back, II never should have been involved in to begin with.
These are you issues, not mine.
Only you can overcome them.
Either you will, or they will come to define who you are as a person.
So what is it Lucy?
You wanna live?
Or you wanna just exist?
Your decision sweetheart.
I
can be just as mean as I can sweet.
Always remember that.
Good and bad.
Ying and Yang etc...
just tired of it...
want my wife...
And then
I see Chrome nail polish and I think,
"Would she just let me paint her toenails sitting on the couch with her feet in my lap?
Would she just call me so I can take a moments break and breathe?
Why doesn't she understand just how important all this is to me?"
I thought
we would be married today.
If you were me would you still be here?
Would you?
Would you be trusting?
Would you?
Think about it.
I've told you and told you and told you I am tired of waiting...
What
exactly, was this supposed to mean?
"They might be planning a unique occasion for this night
and with your help all will come together perfectly."
I'm bout to fuck up your little plan if you don't tell me whats up.
So cry...
get out your ice cream and turn on lifetime movie channel and let your 40 cats surround you and sit there and have a pity party about how "Theres no good ones".
Yeah, you know why rulz gurl?
Cause you ran him off one too many fucking times.
That why.
Geez louise...
I can't
fucking breathe.
Do you not understand that?
I'm about to hyperventilate.
I just can't take it no more, the not knowing whats going on when it's clear as day that everyone around me does.
The over whelming feeling if things ever do come to fruition will not be one of joy but one of relief.
It's not what I want.
I want it to be joy.
It's what it should be.
So I
reiterate, one more time:
Go fuck yourself.
I don't need this shit in my life.
Not from you, not from nobody.
Ever.
Period.
If
you are this insecure, if you are this untrusting, after this long?
Then I don't want no part of ya.
Somebody else can deal with it.
I'm better than this.
I thought you were too.
I'm serious.
You're about to blow it all up.
I
could see a year.
But two?
Two fucking years?
Are you kidding me?
This shit is stupid.
Period.
I don't care if you're a millionaire and can pay off my house and put my son through school and me never work another day in my life.
I mean I literally just don't care.
I honestly am to the point where I just don't give a fuck anymore.
Congratulations.
That's what you wanted?
Well that's what you get.
Isn't that romantic?
Don't you love that fairytale ending?
Should have been together over a year ago.
Two things upset me more than anything Lucy.
1) People that think I am stupid.
2) PEOPLE THAT WASTE MY FUCKING TIME.
So which is it?
Or is it both?
Let your intentions be known to me, in person,
or leave my son alone.
Cause this is about to get ugly quick.
Wouldn't be the first time I had the law knock on my door.
I told you, I am a win the battle loose the war kind of guy.
I also told you to be careful where you tread.
You don't listen.
Nothin, gets through to you.
Speak up.
Or go the fuck away.
Period.
Clocks tickin.
You had plenty enough time already.
Saturday, June 28, 2014
I'll
still chase ya sweetheart.
I'll still post things here.
I'll chase ya around the house...
the yard...
the bedroom :-).
I'll chase ya everywhere I can after I caught ya...
Cause everything I do.
Everywhere I go.
I wish it was with you...
and I know it's always gonna be that way.
but ya gotta let me catch ya...
A
real woman would have just showed up at my doorstep and had nothing on but those leather boots if you ask me.
I'm
"Were ya worried about me there sweetheart?
You know me better than that lol."
Starting to wonder.
It's
gonna take all I can muster to not break out into a full blown panic attack again.
This is what you want?
This is how you treat the man you say you love?
Nice.
I'd hate to see how you are with the people you don't like.
Like
your text?
been a while.
Feelin a lil naughty.
Well, always feel a lil naughty, just don't tell you or it's all you would ever hear lol.
There will be more to follow soon.
Trust me lil miss never gonna give me your address or send any pics or talk to me in yahoo or on and on and on for two fucking years now.
It's old Virgie.
Change it up a lil.
"Two people feel the same way about each other" you said.
Yeah, I can tell, it shows.
Ones...
whatever.
I'm, no we're, ready to move.
We're done where we are.
Nothing left to do or say to anyone.
Move it the fuck along Bambi...
Blah
blah blah...
more comments...
blah blah blah...
same old same old...
blah blah blah...
are you this boaring in real life?
If you are ,you're about to not be.
Bahahahahahahaha
Right on time...
LUKE 18. 1-14.
9 To some who were confident of their own righteousness and looked down on everyone else, Jesus told this parable: 10 “Two men went up to the temple to pray, one a Pharisee and the other a tax collector. 11 The Pharisee stood by himself and prayed: ‘God, I thank you that I am not like other people—robbers, evildoers, adulterers—or even like this tax collector. 12 I fast twice a week and give a tenth of all I get.’
13 “But the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, ‘God, have mercy on me, a sinner.’
14 “I tell you that this man, rather than the other, went home justified before God. For all those who exalt themselves will be humbled, and those who humble themselves will be exalted.”
Whatever
with your silly comments lol.
The only comments I wanna here from your are:
"I do."
Followed in the very near future shortly there after by:
"Ohhhhhhh..."
"Yes baby..."
"Just like that..."
"Right there..."
"Uh huh..."
"Oh Baby..."
"Yes....yes...YES!!!!
"OH MY GOD!..."
"Don't stop..don't stop..."
"Oh my god, don't stop..."
"Mhmmpf..."
"Hmpf..."
"Mmmmmmhmpf..."
"Grhmpf..."
"unh..."
"Ugh!..."
"Argh!..."
"unggghh..."
and of course...
"Yes sir..."
I know
better than to get my hopes up with you lol.
Broke my heart too many times already.
My job to protect it :-).
We can keep playin all you want.
Someday maybe you'll get your pretty lil noggin out of that fine lil ass of yours that you been workin on with all those squats just for me cause you know what I like.
Like I don't know or can't tell with you by now lol.
Give me a fuckin break lol.
Love you Virgie.
Yeah
so ummm just tell me where you want me to be, what you want me to wear, when to shave my balls and I will be there for you.
Bahahahahahahahaha.
I aint gonna flip out.
It's obvious whats going to happen and what you want lol.
Wanna keep goin?
Want another two years of chasin?
Fine with me.
Got a feelin you bout had enough being chased.
You want the real deal.
Where honey you found him.
Here he is.
Lets tell the world sweetheart.
You ever
gonna get this show on the road Lucy, I mean ornery ass, I mean hot rod, I mean beautiful, I mean Dingleberry?
RUMI
There is only the giving,
and the only gift is Love.
There is only the giving,
all else is but a passing breeze.
There is only the giving,
have no concern
of what others may think,
There is only the giving,
and the only gift is Love,
There is only the giving.
Don't feed your body as body will be sacrificed
Feed your heart as it's the heart that will ascend into the heaven.
RUMI
The Way has been marked out. If you depart from it, you will perish. If you try to interfere with the signs on the road, you will be an evil-doer.
Friday, June 27, 2014
Oh
I rode mine today like a wet rented mule, I mean I put it on it.
I know 62/66 from Rocky Point to Corydon like the back of my hand.
Rested.
Sun shining.
Middle of the day.
Curves where I would normally just take it easy?
Fuck it, line it up start wide shoot through the shortest line possible.
Oh there's a lil bit of a straight away where we don't normally get on it?
Fuck it, get it up to eighty.
Non stop hills and curves, downshift take off...bye...
Oh theres a semi on the other side of Corydon?
Fuck it, later dude...
Hope you can keep up lol...
:-).
"Well I'd sell my soul for just one touch
The good Lord would too if he loved her half as much."
RUMI
If you look around, you can find a face of God in each thing, because He is not hidden in a church, in a mosque, or a synagogue, but everywhere.
As there is no one who lives after seeing him, there is also no one dying after seeing him. Who finds Him, stays forever with him.
Ones?
You in bed?
WTH?
lol...
You ever gonna show me what kind of "real woman" you are?
Honey...
I knew that the third day walking you to your car...
Truth...
oldie but a goodie.
Doesn't matter what organization, church family, family member, group, person, friend etc...
Am I mistaken
and just imagining things or did somebody finally find a pair of big girl pants that she could wear?
Just wondering Lucy...
"I'll...
fill those canyons in your soul..."
Who else was gonna do it for each of us?
Lets see...
ummmm...
yeah...
nobody but us that's who.
Love you Virgie.
You
sure you want me to go to work today?
I'd just soon stay here or come be with you.
If I ride up and then have to come back Im not gonna be happy about it lol.
Love you
I'll
"They might be planning a unique occasion for this night
and with your help all will come together perfectly."
I'll believe it when I see it.
Morning beautiful ornery ass...
Thursday, June 26, 2014
Funny...
"There's a plane flyin' outta here tonight
Destination New Orleans..."
Been goin through my head for two days straight now...
Tired.
Calling it a night.
Love you.
ttys.
Awesome...
Reflections
The Heavens declare the glory of God; and the firmament shows His handiwork.
Psalms 19:1
Create in me a clean heart, O God,and renew a steadfast Spirit in me.
Psalms 50:10
The fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, self-control.
Galatians 5:22-23
The kingdom of God is not eating and drinking, but righteousness and peace and joy in the Holy Spirit.
Romans 14:17
Become complete. Be of good comfort, be of one mind, live in peace, and the God of Love and Peace will be with you.
2 Corinthians 13:11
I will make a covenant of peace with them, and it shall be an everlasting covenant with them.
Ezekiel 37:26
Therefore do not be ashamed of the testimony of our Lord.
2 Timothy 1:8
I will sing the mercies of the Lord forever, with my mouth will I make known Your faithfulness to all generations.
Psalms 89:1
Blessed be the name of God forever and ever, for wisdom and might are His.
Daniel 2:20
I told
you I was gonna sop up you like gravy with a biscuit...
Honey...
I meant it...
Love you Virgie.
Night.
Wednesday, June 25, 2014
Love you
Lucy.
Night.
Gotta get up and go to Owensboro for a Dr appointment.
Come home and grill out for us for dinner.
Watch Christians two lil munchkins from 8-11 PM.
I'll sleep when I'm dead they say.
I guess lol.
Tuesday, June 24, 2014
Todays Truth...
I Samuel 16:7, “But the LORD said to Samuel, ‘Do not consider his appearance or his height, for I have rejected him. The LORD does not look at the things people look at. People look at the outward appearance, but the LORD looks at the heart.’” (NIV)
Cialis?
Really?
You aint gonna be able to handle me as is.
You wanna go that route?
Sweetheart...you don't know what you are getting into.
Two years ago
today...
6/25/12...
you walked into my NOC...
my life aint been the same since...
what was I supposed to do Lucy?
Just let you leave?
Wasn't gonna be allowed to happen...
Love you Virgie.
Ones...
nice...
What ever happened to Adam Somed and all that sugary gooey, mushy stuff she was writing?
Where did all that go?
Wow...
just wow...
Those who don't feel this Love
pulling them like a river,
those who don't drink dawn
like a cup of spring water
or take in sunset like supper,
those who don't want to change,
let them sleep.
This Love is beyond the study of theology,
that old trickery and hypocrisy.
If you want to improve your mind that way,
sleep on.
I've given up on my brain.
I've torn the cloth to shreds
and thrown it away.
If you're not completely naked,
wrap your beautiful robe of words
around you,
and sleep.
- Rumi
Oh good heavens GF...
can we role play?
I would be a great Big Bad Wolf and I will huff and puff and blow your house down!
Damn woman.
You write more comments than I do post these days lol...
Least we started the day off with a three :-).
Yeah me!
E-mail I just sent to mom.
I can't believe it's come to this but I am not going to put up with it.
Period.
Ever.
From anyone.
Time to move on anybody?
I can't really believe that I am saying this but I really don't believe I will be attending Hilldale UMC any longer. Sunday was the last straw. April Bryant saw you put your hand up twice and me once when you volunteered to do the typing for the cook book, she willfully and purposely ignored you in front of everyone. She was standing right next to me. She can say she didn't see us all she wants. It's hooey. It was deliberate. Then Shelia Estes just ignoring me with the cards to give to her at the end of the service. She saw me holding them, she knew what was going on, she was willfully doing the same thing. It's been brewing for a while, but I do believe that is it for me. A few weeks back I went to speak to Alan after the service and when I was done and started heading out Lacy Brown was speaking to someone and they were blocking the asile. (It wasn't very crowded) I stood and waited for a moment, I don't remember who the other person was but they both saw me and could have stepped aside for a second and let me go by but they just deliberately stood there blocking the asile, after waiting for a moment or two I just walked around. I'm just not going to be part of a group that not only has become increasingly less friendly, but now I feel has become downright rude. It's not what I go to church for. I shouldn't feel the way I felt walking out of there Sunday afternoon. I didn't say anything cause I wanted some time to think it over. In all likelihood I will go to Hawesville or Lewisport UMC as I do like the Methodist theology and I do desire some spiritual nurishment on a regular basis.
I didn't agree with the money spent on the TV downstairs. It seems like that money would have been better spent being donated to the food bank or some other charitable entity and I don't like the amount of time taken up by people talking about how there kids race/game/test etc was somehow "Gods Glory". A beautiful sunrise or sunset or something else would seem more like it. It's more like boasting and "look at what my kid/family has done". In my oppion, that time would be better spent with Brother Bill explaining the scripture. Nothing against Brother Bill, he does a good job and has to "go with the flow" so to speak as to not ruffle any feathers as he is close to retirement and has it pretty good at the parsonage etc. I get all that.
I've always said a church in't about the preacher it's about the people and I am not just gonna sit around and watch myself and other members of my family be treated disrespectfully, particularly in front of others, in church, on a Sunday.
I don't know but I get the impression people don't like what I put on FB? my politics? that I ride a motorcycle? That I don't tithe much? Feel like there has always been people at that church who never really liked me but would just smile and shake my hand and act like they were your best buddy on Sunday and then ignore you when others were around when you saw them out in public through the week. Everybody has strengths and weeknesses. I brought seven different people to that church at one time or another who didn't have very strong or any faith. I look around and I can't say that for many others I see sitting in the pews on Sunday. Yet we wonder why the church won't grow? Luke 6:32 says "If you love those who love you, what credit is that to you? Even sinners love those who love them." Loving non-believers isnt always easy but I firmly believe it's how they come to see Christ in you.
Don't say anything to anyone. I want a chance to talk to Alan one on one first. When the time comes over the next month or two and Al starts asking why I am not there I'll just tell him that I felt like after 16 years I am being called in a different direction and wanted to go explore some other places of worship. It really is that simple.
I am not trying to put you in a bind with Al, so I hope you continue to worship at Hilldale unless you feel called to visit some other churches as well. He likes being involved and at his age its good for him to feel needed. Janet said dad was the same way at St. Mathews Baptist. The fact of the matter is someone else would step right in and do what Al does or dad did. It's perfectly fine to let them feel needed. It gives them a sense of community and purpose. At the same time, just because Al attends there doesn't mean I have to.
I set out on a misson a lil over three years ago to rid my life of all drama, chaos and bull shit. It doesn't matter from who, how long you've known them, or what organization it is, if it's no longer a positive, constructive relationship it's time to be done with it and move on. Unfortunaetly this is what my time at Hilldale UMC has evolved into. No more. There are plenty of other places to go worship and be treated with a lil more respect.
Love you, hope you understand. We can talk more later if you feel the need.
Awwwwwww...
546 views...oh well.
I will walk my path
with purpose, with confidence.
I will observe my surroundings
with reverence, with humility.
I will not be distracted by obstacles,
I will react patiently to detours.
I will not fear the darkness or shadows,
but continually seek spaces of light.
The Back roads girl.
Can we
make it to 600?
We're at 540...
do I hear a 600 pageviews?
Come on 600...
LOL.
Love ya Bambi :-).
Love you.
Janet wanted to go have lunch so I went ahead and got up.
Now she's not going lol cause she is going to diner at 5:30.
No biggie...
Layin back down.
I can't take much more Lucy.
Time to roll...
Monday, June 23, 2014
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