One's still?

Damn girl lol.

E-mail I just sent Nicholas follows:

(and I am not that smart lol, I've made a ton of bad decisions, more intuitive these days than anything but hey, if you think I am intelligent? Who am I to argue :-)?)

Relax about what is about to happen. You have never had to share your time with me with someone else and now you are about to have to.

Our fear of what lies ahead is most times worse than what actually does lay in wait for us. It will all be okay, I promise you. She is not only an amazing woman but one of the most amazing people I have ever met in my life. You will have a better life in the long run than I could have ever provided for you by myself. We can and will go do the coolest shit ever, all of us, as a family, what I have always wanted my whole life and never had. She never really had a dad, you never really had a mom, I never really had a family. We are all three, in some respects, going to get some of our wishes.

Always keep in mind that there will be times when it will be just me and her going and doing things without you. Likewise, when you make new friends, you are at the age where you are going to rather be with them than be with us. It's just life, happening, right in front of us. I told you a while back the only thing constant in life is change. I'm sure granny, grandpa, grandma Janet, Christen etc never thought this day would come. But it's here. They have made their peace with it. So should you.

I'm 49 years old, I finally knew what I wanted and wasn't about to let someone of her caliber just walk away, from me, from you, from us. Two and a half more years and the world is your oyster. I just want you to be happy. We will provide for you and ensure you always have a place to call home if needed. Just don't ever worry about it.

I love you, relax, it's all going to be okay. Promise.