Well?

Being alone
out in the middle of nowhere
going insane
really wasn't my plan now was it Lucy?

People are like:

"Why him?"

"Why not me?"

Even preachers have sometimes had a hard time accepting things.

1 Samuel 16:11

"Thus Jesse made seven of his sons pass before Samuel. And Samuel said to Jesse, “The Lord has not chosen these.” And Samuel said to Jesse, “Are all the young men here?” Then he said, “There remains yet the youngest, and there he is, keeping the sheep.”

And Samuel said to Jesse, “Send and bring him. For we will not sit down till he comes here.” So he sent and brought him in. Now he was ruddy, with bright eyes, and good-looking. And the Lord said, “Arise, anoint him; for this is the one!”

Because 

it's always the most unlikely one..

The one people just can not wrap their heads around it being.

It's just the way he works.

David?

The future king of Israel God said was more after his own heart than anyone else?

Wasn't even considered enough of to be in the line up.

Because.

Because I didn't have the constraints of a congregation to minister to.

Because I didn't have a family to take care of.

Know anybody else that has such a convincing case they love God more than their own child or family?

Matthew 10:37-39

"He who loves father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me. 

And he who loves son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me. 

And he who does not take his cross and follow after Me is not worthy of Me. 

He who finds his life will lose it, and he who loses his life for My sake will find it."

Maybe just as much, but more than?

Doubtful.

Because 

of the solitude and silence and lack of distraction 

I could afford to be in 24/7 if I wanted.

Because 

I didn't have a wife or significant other to distract me.

Okay, you did/still do, 

(lord do you ever lol)

but nowhere near in the manner that it would have been if we had been together.

I was just, 

for all practical purposes, 

entirely removed from the world to become closer to God.

To get ready for what were about to undertake.

So?

It wasn't my plan.

Everything here is happening just the way he wants.

Me.

You.

Us.

All the others around us.

It's just so obvious these days.

Acceptance of things instead of fighting them so much came first thats true.

But after that?

Seeing all this unfold?

I know we will do whatever it is we are supposed to 

and accomplish his aims whatever they may be.

So there is just no need to worry.

To do all this with the baddest mamajama who ever walked the earth?

Who loves me more than I will ever know?

Who will always be truthful and faithful to me?

I can hear them now lol.

"You don't know that."

Yes.

Yes I do.

He's told me multiple times.

Anyway.

My point here lil miss itspetewhoever lol.

It wasn't my plan.

It was his plan.

And its working out perfectly.

Just like they always do.

I love you.