Like...

Like you aint already made up your mind.

Give me a fucking break.

Rubber...

Rubber hit the road back in May or June.

Hell, there aint no tire left.

I'm...

I'm gonna be 65 before you come along at this rate.

I wanna have fun now.

Snap it in line sister.

Funny how all the words come out of his mouth seem like they comin from yours.

He doesn';t have that experience with relationships to talk like that.

It's obvious.

He doesn't act like it weird at all for us to be talking about you.

Now why would that be?

I just wonder why Lucy.

Im beat...

I'm beat, I have all of 36 hours at home this weekend :-(.

Already missing riding.

Saints and Cowboys with Nich and Alan tomorrow.(Nichs a saints fan sort of, should be a good game)

Night sweetheart, love you.

Tina...

Tina also said "She doesn't owe you an explanation, she doesn't owe you anything." Very protective like when I asked "Why doesn't she just tell me?" You didn't want to, scared of what I might think or how I would react. I would say your being strong, That's what I think, and I admire it. I would like to think you're doing the hard work not just for yourself, but so that we can be together as well.

Maybe that's me just being full of myself lol. Cats out of the bag, you aint gotta hide no more.

Come on home Lucy.

Family (small as it is) and friends that will love and accept you from day one.

I get it...

Tina said "So you're just gonna hang around in limbo till she decides to come along?"

"Yeah, if that's what I got to do."

"Well that's crazy"
"Maybe to you, not to me, what's perfectly normal to you can be crazy to me and what's crazy to me can be perfectly normal to you."

Crickets...she just couldn't believe it.

"On my darkest days thoughts of you have helped get me by."

"I know I can get back to being the woman I was for the man I love." 

I don't think you are fucked up for being in counseling. Thats a sign of strength. Nicholas agrees, we both been in it. It's a sign that you know somethings not working and want to fix it. That's wise, not crazy. Whats crazy is not talking to me and just letting me know about it, that's what's crazy..You're working hard. Keep it up. The trust with the army pic was about one one thousandth of what it was with the ones from the other day. Just keep them coming and Ill be chill, if not I get freaked out. (That's my issue anxiety that you're gonna have to find a way to deal with). Don't even have to show skin, some nice sexy lingerie or bra and panty shots do just fine, hide in Yahoo all you want. They are mine, I don't share. I aint like that. Ask James. I might tell people you sent me some pics :-), but I'll never show em to anybody (Except maybe Fawn someday. lol)  I'm here, I aint goin no where. "If he can love me through my darkest, he deserves me at my finest", Something like that you said. The pieces of the puzzle just came together.

You were in an abusive relationship for 10 years, lord only knows why. I told you, it don't matter what I hear or what has happened in the past, the only thing that matters is us going forward. Period."Whatever I gotta do, however long it takes, that's what I'm going to do". Meant it then, mean it now, I will always mean it, because if I didn't I couldn't still be here and you know it.

I said shit to you on purpose that would scare a dominatrix away. (And yes I can be that freaky at times lol) You're still here. There is no restraining order or stop and desist order coming, nor will there ever be, you've made that clear. Says a lot.

.

The POF stuff was because of living with Travis. Had to hide. That's not abusive, that's being abused. I could tell in that little fuckers eyes he was up to something. Somewhere along the lines of when you started 1+ing things on Google+ you must have broke free from him. Because you didn't care to let it be known it's you. I just wish you were talking back like in the old POF days, but just knowing you're seeing the post here is better than only having text and not knowing if you're getting them. Your amazing, your beautiful and were gonna have a wonderful life together. You can try and play it like you were the abuser, but the storyline reads the opposite, and Nicholas gives it away, sorry, he does, good little actor is he, but every once in a while he can't hold it in and I see through it. It would work on anybody else. I raised the boy since he was two and a half, he can't fool me either, not for extended times anyway.

You're councilor probably doesn't want you having direct contact and I understand. It's good advice. I always felt like there was somebody behind the scenes pulling strings. Maybe it's the councilor, not the rules girls.

I asked Nicholas " Can I have one of our weekends in January to go where she is?" "No, wait." "Why, so she can get her shit more together?" "Yes, exactly, go in the spring like you said you were, that I can sign off on, not before." One last time, best I can figure right now about three hours from Louisville. I'm going to come and camp at your door till I see you this time. Something tells me you want to see me so I will make it happen. And Im getting the address so I can send you your Christmas gift. I said I would do whatever it takes and I will. One more trip. Frustrated that we couldn't at least pull off the civil ceremony this year, long as it happens is all that really matters to me.You want your knight in shining armour? You want to actually see him this time? That's how you want this to end? Then that's exactly what's going to happen.

Love you always dollbaby.

Your future husband.

Andrew.

 

"Watch her walk"

It...

It absolutely infuriates me when somebody thinks I'm that stupid.

No 14 year old has that much wisdom about relationships.

I listened to it all the way home.

Might as well have been coming out of your mouth.

I'll get an address and I'll see you sometime soon.

Travis, John or whoever, don't fucking matter.

13 baboons and a tank remember?

I'll camp out till I see you this time.

Come this far.

Time get your shit together.

I don't blame you for not coming today, I didn't wanna step on Alex or Jessica's toes either.

But this shit gotta move forward.

More than it is.

Your job is to hold back, my job is to push the envelope, that's the way it works.

How wet does it make your panties to see a guy fight this hard for you?

I bet they are dripping.

If they weren't, they are now.

Go show the sheriff this, with John,Travis or whoever.

TI-TAN-IUM.

Bahahahahahahaha

Love you,

and yes you are still a KNUCKLEHEAD!

I thought...

I thought you would be here.

At least said Happy Birthday.

But no.

Same ole Lucy.

It's old.

I thought you might be at the wedding.

But it's not looking like that either.

Now I am not even going to be able to enjoy my Step-Dads grandsons wedding.

Thanks.

You suck lol.

Tired

Tired of the Bull Shit Lucy.

I...

I can't sleep either... for some reason, I don't even mind.

What a story.

Love you.

Morning...

Morning beautiful.

Love you.

Rumi

In every religion there is love, yet love has no religion.

What...

What do you do just go back and read them all night and day? 

How do you ever sleep?

I made...

I made you a cup of coffee.

I hope you like it.

 

Gotta move.

Tony be here in a bit.

Love you dingleberry.

 

No Yahoo? :-(.

 

Wat...

 

Wat do you do sleep for like an hour?

Get some sleep.

Love you dingleberry.

This one...

 

This one never gets old...No matter how many times I see it, or what form it takes :-).

 

 

Yep...

 

 



Talkin...

 

Talkin to a buddy of mine yesterday..."Man I get so lonely sometimes, I think, well, this will do."

"No it won't!" I said. "Don't ever think that. Don't ever even begin to start to think that. (Smiles) That is a recipe for being miserable. You see these people at Wal-Mart or wherever and they look at each other and they are all just gloom and doom and they just can't believe that this is who they are with and they are so sad and so miserable. You can just tell they can't believe their lives turned out like they did. You know where all that started, where it came from? One day they both decided 'This will do', that's where it came from. Don't do it. Hang in there, hold out, worry about your children, work on yourself, become the best man you can possibly become, work on what you know you need to, you're young, you'll be fine". "There are just not that many good women out there." "I know, that's why I jumped when I saw one, but listen, you do those things, work on self etc? I guarantee you one day you will just walk around the corner and out of the blue there she will be, that's how it works."

I just...

 

I just wanna be together.

Build a life.

One I never could have imagined not that long ago.

Can't wait till we can ride rides at our lil county fair.

Eat a funnel cake (yes, I remember the small things :-) and have a Lemon shake up together.

 

"Whatdoyasay? I say?..."

Dat's...

Dat's right.

I will forever if you'll let me.

 

Married late fall...

Simple civil ceremony.

Public in the spring.

"Watch her walk..."

Ride off on bike.

Small reception at church.

Destin in fall on next year.

Let's make it happen.

Who...

 

Who makes you laugh Dollbaby?

Two's...

 

Two's? Three's? Four's?...

Did you sprain your index finger so you can't press F5 any more?

No Yahoo?

Damn girl...lol

I told you I love it when you're hardcore.

You...

 

You don't

nor have you ever

fooled me.

 

I have been on to you

from day one.

It's becoming increasingly obvious lol.

 

"I am he as you are he as you are me
And we are all together..."

 

I'm you.

You're me.

You can't fool yourself.

 

"...Ya running and ya running
And ya running away.
Ya running and ya running,
But ya can't run away from yourself...

 

Who feels it knows it, Lord;
Who feels it knows it, Lord;
Who feels it knows it, Lord.
Ya running and ya running
And ya running away.
Ya running and ya running
And ya running away.
Ya running and ya running
And ya running away.
Ya running and ya running
But ya can't run away from yourself...

 

I've got to protect my life, (running away)
And I don't want to live with no strife. (running away)
It is better to live on the housetop (running away)
Than to live in a house full of confusion. (running away)..."

 

Lord haven't I learned that the hard way?

You as well.

 

Loves me some Bob.

Peace.

Yall...

Yall even got Alan involved?

Had him call me to see if I was going to be home for church Sunday?

Maybe I will, maybe I won't.

Yall pullin' out all the stops...

Bahahahahahaha

Tween...

 

"...No longer will you be a slave
No longer will you have to crawl
No longer will you suffer
No longer will you stall
One day you'll live for a reason
One day you'll be gone, no more..."

 

Seems to be something tween Mr. Petty and me and you :-).

 

 

Psalm 37:5

 

Psalm 37:5

Rumi

This world is like a mountain. Your echo depends on you. If you scream good things, the world will give it back. If you scream bad things, the world will give it back. Even if someone says badly about you, speak well about him. Change your heart to change the world.

49...

 

49 years old tomorrow Lucy.

Wish you were here with us sweetheart.

Get tired of fighting lifes battles alone.

I love it...

 

I love it when you are just right there.

I just love it.

And a lot of other things as well. :-P.

Hey...

 

Hey you...

 

Been a lil busy here at work, nothing major, just enough to keep us occupied.

Love ya Lucy.

Morning...

Morning beautiful...

Listened to "Here comes my girl" about five times last night.

You need to walk down your asile (our side walk) to the live version.

Really like how he says "Watch her walk" :-).

Oh Lucy sweetheart were gonna do this, just like we want to, not like anybody else thinks we should...

How bad ass is that sweetheart?

You would have just left!

All I had was a phone number...

Love you so much.

Bout sums it up...

 

Keep running into the perfect thing for the perfect situation over and over and over Lucy. Really really really love this...

 

Go be awesome today.

 

 

Mornin...

:-)...

 

 

Do...

 

"Do I want to have fun with you?"

 

Na, I just been chasin' ya for 16 months cause I figure, you know, lets be miserable together or somethin'...lol.

We don't...

 

We don't watch a lot of TV at our house sweetheart.

You ok with that?

Yes it is...

Here is my...

 

"Here is my secret.

It is very simple:

It is only with the heart that one can see rightly;

What is essential is invisible to the eye."

 

The Little Prince

The story...

 

The story about the guidance counciler is all true...all true...It was a long winding road...I got lost...a few times lol...he knew where I was headed all along...had to stop and just learn how to listen...

Take that leap of faith and just trust it was all meant to be...

not gonna be easy, gonna be fun though :-).

Love you...

Love you...

HDD failed

 

HDD failed.

Gotta open a HP case.

ttys lil miss MWA.

You know...

 

You know we are just going to keep on doing this after were married right?

Yahoo as well.

The "game" never quits sweetheart.

 

All your life you just wanted someone to play along.

Well...

You found him...Here he is.

Oh!

 

Oh!

She 1+ed them all!

Love my Lucy!

Why...

 

Why don't ya go to bed?

It's late.

From what I can tell you're not sleeping much either.

Theres a cure for that you know?

Bahahahahaha

You're...

 

You're just too funny.

You don't just crack you up.

You crack me up as well

Apparently, mom, Nicholas , James and others as well.

 

I have calm back.

I can breathe now.

Really couldn't sleep last night.

Not to good today either when I laid back down.

Hopefully I can get some good rest today when I work off this AM.

Love you sweetie.

Dang...

 

Dang girl.

Not even gonna 1+ Rumi?

You're so hardcore.

I love it.

Proverbs 17:17

Proverbs 17:17

Buddha

 

"There is no path to happiness.

Hasppiness is the path."

You can...

 

You can one plus or not lol...

They're still comin.

Told you I was gonna have my fun :-).

Bahahahahahaha

Rumi

 

"Wherever you stand,
be the soul of that place."
 

Rumi

"Don’t sit and wait. Get out there, feel life.
Touch the sun, and immerse in the sea."

 

Sounds like a deal, lets do that.

Waddaya say Lucy?

Come on girl.
 

Bob again

 

"Let righteousness cover the earth, like the water cover the sea." 

Bob...

 

"The power of philosophy floats through my head.

Light like a feather, heavy as lead."

- Bob Marley Misty Morning.

 

Little late for all that not 1+ing kinda business aint it?

Bahahahahahaha

Oh...

 

Oh...Lucy , Lucy, Lucy what am I ever gonna do with you girl? Been nice to have had a date for Saturday. Place where Alex and Jessica are getting married looks real nice...

 

Thinkin bout you all the time sweetie.

Tell me...

"But then she looks me in the eye and says,
"We're gonna last forever."
And man, you know I can't begin to doubt it.
No, 'cause it just feels so good and so free and so right.
I know we ain't never gonna' to change our minds about it - hey!

Here comes my girl. Here comes my girl."

 

Tell me we aint two peas in a pod Lucy?

"Yeah...

 

"Yeah I just catch my self, wondering , waiting, worring bout some silly lil thing, it's gonna add up to nothin."

You...

 

You missed it with the chicken and dumpling :-P.

Very good.

Hitting the spot today.

Brought the whole crocck pot in and plugged it up in thr break room.

If you still worked at Kindred we could be having dinner together lol.

But nooooooo...

Somebody had to leave lol.

Love you GF.

You're...

 

You're a poet.

An artist.

A dreamer.

You dare to be different.

You have the audccity to be yourself.

You're stary-eyed.

A misfit.

Yes, even a "freak", you are.

You're beautiful.

We're gonna be great together.

 

I can finally breathe.

Bout time.

Love you.

Lou...

Lou Reed passed away the other day. Not sure how many dads gave their 14 year old sons their 191 song Lou Reed/Velvet Underground song collection. Any way this is R.E. M. covering a favorite Velvet Underground song. Like the cover better than the original actually.

"Now take a look, there's no tears in her eyes
She won't take it from just any guy, what can you do
You see her walkin' on down the street
Look at all your friends she's gonna meet..."

Love you.

Don't forget to be amazing today.

Mornin

Morning Sunshine. 

Sausage and eggs for breakfast.

Back to bed now after takin him to school.

Love you.

Standing...

Standin at the bottom of the stairs...waitin to go for a walk..."Oh god, Oh God, be cool, just be cool she don't know you're flipin' the ever livin fuck out. She don't know...She probably is too...Relax..."

Love you.

As much...

It's the end of the day.

Laundry lol.

Finaly "relaxed'.

A little.

As much as I have tried to tell you how much I knew you were the one on that third walk to the car, I don't even think I've come close to explaining just how certain I was. I've tried. Nothing does it justice.

Conversation with James

"I want a woman gonna just be able to look me and know to bring me a bourbon, over crushed ice, in a rocks glass. (oh, I don't know surely one of the 14 will do lol) Just by lookin at me! That's what I want."

"Dude, they aint out there."

"Well fuck 'em then, I'll be just like this. Like its so awful. Least there's nobody draggin' me down. I'm tired of that shit, done, over, through, no more, ever, moved past it, don't need it, aint doin' it. And that's just the way it is. Its goin to have to be spectacular or it aint worth it at this stage of my life. I look at my history and it's my fault and I know why, but most of the times I've done good in life I been on my own. It's says something. I want a quality woman or none at all, it's just that simple."

James, always a good brother.

"You look pretty good for your age. (I always love that lol "For my age").

You might get you a hot lil thing with that bike"

We just laughed and we went on.

Im exhausted.

Been goin all day on 4 hours sleep.

Wedding Saturday,

 No date?

Thanks Lucy, ppreciate it.

Get tired of going to this shit alone.

Oh, well. Least I got pics.

But see the problem is they don't keep you warm at night Lucy.

Love ya dollbaby.

Peace.

That's...

That's my Lucy.
Internet problems suck.
Love you.

You...

You could have had chicken and dumplings tonight waiting on you when you got home.

I'm sure John made you something so much better.

Enjoy whatever it was he had made for you.

Peace.

Internet...

Very intermittent.

Cell signal sucks too.

Tech will be here tomorrow.

Feel like I am stranded on on island.

I'll still try and have my fun however :-).

Love you.

New...

New modem did same as last.

ATT sending tech out tomorrow.

Internet hit and miss till then.

Tell me to stop, I freakin' dare you.

Your so turned on you don't know what side is up.

Peace.

You're...

You're getting the deal of the century, so don't ever forget it.

I am too, so I won't either. 

Okay?

Deal?

Ever...

Ever think that's why I showed up? Why you "bumped into me". To keep you away from round three? Somebody that had been through what you had and understood the pain and the hurt and the suffering and wanted it all to go away as well?

Have I...

Have I not made myself perfectly clear about how this is going to be?

I mean do you understand?

Do you really?

For all our sakes I certainly hope so.

You...

You married him twice? 

You might have went for round three if I didn't show up.

In fact you were headed that way.

Had you pegged from day one dingleberry.

Told you...

Told you I would step on toes, push the envelope.

Funny you're not telling me to stop.

Says everything I need to know.

You don't know whether to slap me upside the mouth or give me a hug or both.

Bahahahahahaha

Crazy...

Crazy whores don't double check with friends and family about the character and integrity of their future victims. They couldn't care less. They're more impulsive than that. Wanna get in quick and get them while they can. They seek out the weak and the emotionally venerable. Not me this time around. Asked Nicholas "What if she is crazy as shit?" He very nonchalantly said "Chance you take". He already knows what you're up to. You're a fucked up mess and you come round us? It will be the worst decision you ever made.

Morning Beautiful

Morning Beautiful

Night beautiful...

Night beautiful...

Lets be ...

Lets be straight.
I expect to be treated like a king.
Cause I'll treat you like a queen.
I expect food.
You not good?
We will do it together till ya are.
House kept neat and clean or you won't wanna live with me.
I expect laundry done.
Receipts go in the checkbook everyday.
Everyday.
Even when Im not here.
It's non-negotiable.
Get over it and get used to it.
Won't be many of those.
Yes, that's how important it is.
I expect a few shirts ironed from time to time.
You should be proud to want to make me look good.
Old school? Chauvinistic?
So what.
Suck it up buttercup.
We're all just gonna have to work together.
Yard work, garden etc.
Tryin hard to get Nicholas used to this.
He gets trash, dishes and laundry. (We can pitch in on dishes especially in the AM with school. laundry too, it's good time to bond. needs to be done.)
I'm at home your at work?
Your at work I'm at home?
We carry the load for each other.
Cause we should want to.

I can do all this on my own.
I'm just betting it's a lot more fun with ya.

 Again, I expect to be treated like a king, particularly in the area of lovemaking.
Just in case you haven't noticed.

That...

That post just disappeared...

I don't care if you screen shot it.

Good for you.

Maybe I should be glad you did.

You should look at it every once in a while.

Remind you who you're dealing with.

Big Leagues.

Welcome aboard if you decide to cum.

Bahahahahahaha

Comin...

Comin this late in the game with things coming to a head gives it away as well.

My heart was in my throat and my stomach got queasy for about two minutes.

Time frames keep getting shorter.

You're more full of shit than anybody I ever met in my life.

I love it.

Least I get it.

Not many would.

I hope

I hope I have made it clear how things are, how they are going to stay or how they can be.

You don't fool me.

Go get John and go get the restraining order or shut up.

Meanwhile, I'll be havin' fun.

Bahahahahahaha

Peace.

It's like...

"It's like he brainwashed her."

Not you brainwashed him sweetheart.

From what I can tell he barely worked.

You were played.

For far to long.

No more.

It's over.

Come on home.

Quit trying to run me off.

Quit trying to run me off.

He followed you.

Things were in your name not his.

You carried his weight.

He abused you financially.

You were the victim.

It's why you're so "skitish".

You need help we'll get it.

I was

I was worried about that one for a minute.

Nice try.

Glad to see we agree.

It's what I give, It's what I expect back.

Period.

That's what they did to us.

That's what were escaping.

"That's not like Vergie, she's not that cold-hearted."

"She wants to trust, she wants to settle down."

Adam Somed

Nobody writes stuff like that and not mean it.

Are you kidding me?

Are you kidding me?

"Remember that empathy, fidelity, loyalty and monogamy and not in the cards."

They better be or your gone sister.

That will not be around my son.

And...

And lots of other stuff too lol...

I wanna...

I wanna have a love like this. 

That's what I want. 

What do you want Lucy?

I told...

I told Fawn bout your boobs.

And your flat belly.

Told her how crazy you make me with passion.

Told her I was a walkin' ragin' hard on.

She had a good laugh.

Love you.

Don't be gettin in Yahoo if you're not gonna thrill me now.

That's not playin nice.

Bears Packers tonight.

Division rivals forever.

Usually a good game.

Even if the teams suck lol.

Love you dingleberry.

Well...

Well that was a buzz kill.

Where...

Where did ya go?

Waiting on ya, just like always...

Now...

Now that's the way a boy likes to be gotten out of bed Lucy.

Yes indeedy.

Just want it in real life, every time I can have it that's all.

Always like checking and seeing which posts you have viewed the most when I get up.

It's always interesting.

The small of your back was enough to send me into overdrive.

Can you imagine how I am now?

Well, lol, okay, I guess maybe you can.

How many times have you spit out your drink when something has come through in yahoo is what I wonder?

Gotta run errands

ttyl

Love you

Thats...

Thata girl. 

Love it when you 1+ as soon as I post.

Makes me feel like your hangin on my every word.

Home...

Home safe and sound...

think I'll always be an ass guy...

but I'm likin what I'm seein' a lot 

a whole lot :-). 

Night beautiful..

Morning...

 

Morning Sunshine.

Tony be here in a minute, time to switch spots.

No wonder you were always tired at Kindred.

Get some rest every once in a while.

What ever I post will be there in the AM lol.

 

Love you Knucklehead.

Thanks again for the nice lil surprises the other day.

Uh...Yeah...if you could keep them comin'...that be nice.

Just sayin.

I'm so head over heels in love with you.

It's ridiculous.

 

 

If I was coming home to you, I'd be fixing you and Nicholas breakfast.

Show me how you like your coffee and I'll do that as well.

 

Promise.

 

 

Rumi

 

Be with those who help your being.

 

I'm only posting cause I see you're looking.

Rest, it does a body good Lucy.

Histrionic...

 

Histrionic?...

More like a hermit if you ask me lol.

A histrionic hermit?

Now tell me that's not a oxymoron?

Sounds like a Saturday Night Live skit in the making if you ask me. 

Bahahahahaha  

 

To bed lil one!

You did say back in the POF days that you would be loosing sleep didn't you?

Also said you would want to dialogue with family if I remember right.

You funny.

Love you.

Back to...

 

Back to bed! Geez, maybe you really are twelve, or three, or whatever emotionaly stunted age you are. lol.

Im not...

 

Relax.

I want you to rest.

I'm not posting anything.

Till I get ready to leave in the AM.

It's like you wake up and ook to see if I have.

Sleep.

Dream sweet dreams.

Of us.

Together.

Soon.

Of our wedding.

Our trip to Destin next fall.

Rest Lucy.

Been an emotional few days.

I'm drained as well.

Love you

High Tide...

 

High Tide or Low Tide sweetie.

That's right.

I'll be by your side sweetheart.

Go to bed...

I deleted...

 

I deleted the Histrionic Personality Disorder comment.

If you truly are, repost about it agian so I known.

It won't change how I feel.

But I honestly think, it was one last test.

Just to make sure.

I'll be with you through thick and thin.

I will.

I've proven it.

 

Sweet Dreams Beautiful.

Think about laying in my arms dozeing off.

 

No harm is going to come to you ever

If I can do something about it.

Thats why I was put here.

For you.

And him.

I got this.

Relax.

You're tired.

You didn't sleep last night at all.

Get some rest.

Please come be with us soon.

I've lost my center.

I won't get it back I don't think.

Till our souls are united.

So please.

Whatever it is you're working on?

Please make it soon.

Wishing I was with you.

Climbing in that princess bed.

Falling asleep.

Entangled.

Together.

Night Beautiful.

Love you.

It

It wasn't you.

It was him.

Never forget that.

Don't let it ruin your future life.

Always imagine how I would have responed

if he showed up at our door.

I asure you, it would not have been in the manner he responded when I showed up at yours.

I don't ever want to mention him agian.

Ever.

TI-TAN-IUM.

I do...

 

I do my best Lucy...

But I'm all man.

Guess you figured that lol.

I see the fun we could be having and the love we should be sharing and its frustrating sweetheart.

Look at it this way:

Would you rather I be less passionate about having you in our life?

I recover...

 

I recover nicely don't I?

lol.