Gotta get back in bed...

Gotta get back in bed...working tonight and tomorrow...92 page views, you blow me away...

Yeah...

Yeah...we beat yesterday in page-views...yeah!! woo hoo!!

What other man...

What other man you ever gonna know, gonna cook up southern fried chicken, yep, with bacon grease, in granny's cast iron skillets? You won't ever meet another one and you know it, it's part of why you love me...

Rumi always comes in with the right things at the right times...always...ever notice that?...Ever wonder why that is Lucy?...
relax...pretend I'm there with you laying your head on my chest listening to my heart knowing all is right with the world...
relax...shhhhhhhhhh...go to sleep as I run my fingers through your hair...

I understand...

I understand you wig out when crunch time comes...it's understandable...but no more threats sweetheart if you were gonna do something you would have done it a long time ago...so no more...goes back to that respect thing...

Rumi

If the door shuts, do not go away.
Be patient, even if every possibility seems closed.
The friend has secret ways known to no one else.


(yes she does)

Night beautiful. I love you, I know your going to be my wife someday...soon...relax... the journey is just getting started...

Yep...

Are you getting email alerts?

Are you getting email alerts?

Cause every time I post something it gets viewed right that second...

Maybe I should be the one being scared?

and by the way...with what I'm offering...you should be chasin after me...just sayin...lord knows you've probably chased after less...

think I don't know you...woman please...

I just get tired...

I just get tired of being threatened...either do it, or shut up about it already...pretty simple stuff...

What don't make sense is...

What don't make sense is...

Why would "John" just appear a year and 1000's of text later? Like it's a surprise to him now?

and if "John" was Travis? Why didn't he have any more to say after I saw him in Cookeville? It never bothered him at all till just now? Like he didn't know I was pursuing you? That dog just don't hunt...

And why so over the top with the threats?..."I'm gonna make it my point in life...with our incomes...I'm gonna call your cell carrier...gonna hack in your account and cause HIPPA violations" on and on and on..hit me right after I had just woke up as well...took me a lil by surprise...I was expecting YOU on the phone...

Fits a pattern of behavior however...one's an accident, two's a trend, three is a pattern...

This dog just don't hunt, it just don't...not after I done said all I did and been everywhere I done been...sombodys scared shitless she done found the real thing...yeah, Ive been called a wild man a time or two...thing is there's only one woman on this earth I wanna be wild with...wonder who that might be Lucy?...

You better treat me like a king is all I got to say...

You wait...

You just wait till I rub my soul patch all up over you...your dyin'...you can't wait much longer...your sitting there wet in your britches right now, don't even think I don't know it...22 page views and counting...why don't you stop at 69 again? Lil Miss Chicken shit...scared to death of me...I told you I would be patient and take my time...but the fact is your gonna feel better than you ever felt before and we both know it...it's awesome...relax...but we gotta start talking...that's just gotta happen...

Tell "John"...

Tell "John" I said he can go fuck himself...

Do you get it yet?

"Expose yourself to your deepest fear; after that, fear has no power, and the fear of freedom shrinks and vanishes. You are free."

- Jim Morrison, The Doors.

I see...

I see all the pageviews everyday...I see how many times you've looked at all the individual post...you're not foolin anybody, lol...maybe yourself, but nobody else...least of all me...72 pageviews in one day?...This is somebody that's "scared"?...more like scared of the good time their gonna have and just can't believe what they've found...how much longer knucklehead?

"...Ink by late fall, here by Christmas, ceremony late spring, Destin next fall..." Why you keep looking at it if you're so "scared"? You're so full of shit, always have been...

'I fell in love with her the third time I was ever around her, I've been chasin her for over a year, she won't give me the time of day"."That's an act, she's not like that, she's not that cold-hearted"...Like I didn't already know, woman please...

I'm tired of the nonsense...

You have pushed me away each and every time with the same old crap...Ever since Kindred..."I'm not interested!!"...Then I bust your ass checking out the bike on the third floor. "If she is into you she will get in touch with you "Tina" says...and then your in Yahoo Chat and saying the sweetest things ever...Push me back right before coming to Baxter as well. I go to your mom's house and text you the picture? That didn't "scare" you. 69+ page views the other day, oh yeah your terrified, it shows I can tell. More like mesmerized if you ask me. "John" appears out of nowhere right after I let you know I'm fed up with this sthcik? Says he saw all the text? Well where the hell was he for the past year? And why were you keeping the text around for him to see? Why not delete them? It's a bunch of hooey, you gave yourself away when I went to your moms and you didn't say don't go. I never expected you there. Went there to show you I would and to see if you would tell me not to. That would have been it right then and there. You know I'm ready to walk, you don't want me to, you've made it obvious at every turn. I don't know if there is a "John" or if it's Travis, of if your in an abusive relationship or not. These aren't my problems and I can't fix them. Only you can do that. But I will be here to help any way I can, I've shown you that. Funny that "John" saw the text I think. I said shit that would make you blush all over, not crude mind you, just provocative, you didn't mind those. Each and every time when things start to be real you push away. I'm getting tired of telling you how I feel and what I'm offering. You're not happy where ever you are. I don't even know where that might be these days. I can't make you happy, that's up to each individual. But I can offer you love like you've obviously never known and so obviously crave, and financial and emotional security, and a way of life that is very appealing to you. When the fear of not having it outweighs the fear of staying in the same old tired patterns, well, you'll either decide you want it, or you don't. But your days of being a gypsy are drawing to a close, you've made that apparent. Everybody gets tired of that shit after a while, gets old. If you are truly in an abusive relationship you will find a way out. You would call from work, use a friends phone, have a friend or relative text me and tell me whats going on, find a pay phone to use, set up a fake email address, any number of things. But you don't. Leads me to believe your just buying yourself time as your not ready or still just can't wrap your head around how things happened. Nothing I can do about it. "She wants to trust, she wants to settle down", "I said Vergie, do you know how rare that is that someone would show you how bad they want you in their life?" Like I would ever let harm come to someone I obviously care this much about...you didn't talk to the neighbor? give me a break. What are we in third grade? Grown-up time knucklehead, get your head on straight...Ink by late fall, here by Christmas, ceremony late spring, Destin next fall..."John" got  a better plan? Give me a break...

69...

69 page views...seriously...69? Not 58, not 68, not 70, exactly 69...lol...You trying to tell me something? Cause I'm all game...

Remedy

"...If I come on like a dream?
Would you let me show you what I mean?..."

Otis...

"...Take my hand
don't be afraid
I'm gonna prove
every word I say..."

I won't back down...