I'm tired of the nonsense...

You have pushed me away each and every time with the same old crap...Ever since Kindred..."I'm not interested!!"...Then I bust your ass checking out the bike on the third floor. "If she is into you she will get in touch with you "Tina" says...and then your in Yahoo Chat and saying the sweetest things ever...Push me back right before coming to Baxter as well. I go to your mom's house and text you the picture? That didn't "scare" you. 69+ page views the other day, oh yeah your terrified, it shows I can tell. More like mesmerized if you ask me. "John" appears out of nowhere right after I let you know I'm fed up with this sthcik? Says he saw all the text? Well where the hell was he for the past year? And why were you keeping the text around for him to see? Why not delete them? It's a bunch of hooey, you gave yourself away when I went to your moms and you didn't say don't go. I never expected you there. Went there to show you I would and to see if you would tell me not to. That would have been it right then and there. You know I'm ready to walk, you don't want me to, you've made it obvious at every turn. I don't know if there is a "John" or if it's Travis, of if your in an abusive relationship or not. These aren't my problems and I can't fix them. Only you can do that. But I will be here to help any way I can, I've shown you that. Funny that "John" saw the text I think. I said shit that would make you blush all over, not crude mind you, just provocative, you didn't mind those. Each and every time when things start to be real you push away. I'm getting tired of telling you how I feel and what I'm offering. You're not happy where ever you are. I don't even know where that might be these days. I can't make you happy, that's up to each individual. But I can offer you love like you've obviously never known and so obviously crave, and financial and emotional security, and a way of life that is very appealing to you. When the fear of not having it outweighs the fear of staying in the same old tired patterns, well, you'll either decide you want it, or you don't. But your days of being a gypsy are drawing to a close, you've made that apparent. Everybody gets tired of that shit after a while, gets old. If you are truly in an abusive relationship you will find a way out. You would call from work, use a friends phone, have a friend or relative text me and tell me whats going on, find a pay phone to use, set up a fake email address, any number of things. But you don't. Leads me to believe your just buying yourself time as your not ready or still just can't wrap your head around how things happened. Nothing I can do about it. "She wants to trust, she wants to settle down", "I said Vergie, do you know how rare that is that someone would show you how bad they want you in their life?" Like I would ever let harm come to someone I obviously care this much about...you didn't talk to the neighbor? give me a break. What are we in third grade? Grown-up time knucklehead, get your head on straight...Ink by late fall, here by Christmas, ceremony late spring, Destin next fall..."John" got  a better plan? Give me a break...