I refreshed...

 

I refreshed the page and all the one pluses went away. I thought you had deleted them. My heart was in my throat. It's not what I want. It was like I just lost the person who knows more about me than any one in the world. I don't wanna loose my muse Lucy. I want you just like I have always said, all day, everyday, till the end of days. Just want a life together, working together on the house, building a lifestyle, watching Nicholas grow up and become a young man. Together. 

 

I want you Lucy, It's not spectacular or bust, it's you or bust sweetheart. You just happen to be spectacular in my book :-). Just tired of it. Feel like I've shown you how badly I want you. Not much left I can do or say...

 

Just wanna see you coming down our sidewalk in that little white summer dress, to Tom Petty's "Watch her walk", just wanna ball my eyes out in front of the world just like I am doing right now, and let everybody know in public what you mean to me. Wanna ride off in the sunset on the bike in a suit and you in that dress, wanna get Nicholas his first suit, wanna see him be my best man, wanna go to Destin next fall, (could you imagine how much fun we would have?) wanna wanna wanna...

 

We got to get started Lucy. 

 

More than anything I just want to know it's what you want too.

 

Love you.