How

many times do I have to tell you?

I'm tired of waiting.

I don't understand wats going on.

The stress and the worry are not healthy for me.

Just wanna start a life together Bambi.

I know it's comin.

It aint no Sept 9th.

But its comin.

You have really got to understand how my body operates.

Stress and worry make me physically sick.

Badly.

People are just used to it that's all.

They just think I will always be okay.

"Take some medicine."

They think or say.

They weren't there when the medicine wasn't working for over a month.

When I didn't have the energy or the will to get up off the couch.

If mom hadn't come and forced me to go to the DR I'm sure that would have been the end of me.

I just get so frustrated.

If I tell people how I feel?

They see me as a whiny ass complainer.

If I don't?

Then they wonder why I am frustrated and cranky.

I can't win either way I go,

Pneumonia is a flat out killer.

So when I say I am feeling much much better?

You should understand just how relieved I feel.

Some fuckin suit is worried about makin a point with SMC lol.

I just wanna live.

And live my life, my way,...

with you.

Thats it.

Thats all I want.

That and for Nich to be happy.

Thats all I ever ask for.

Ever.

Promise.

Peace.