This

is it right here. 

This is exactly how it is, or was, or whatever.

 

"You have reached the conclusion that life is just as painful whether you practice self-denial by living up to others' expectations or practice self-expression and feel guilty about it." 

"If I have one life to live, I want to live it as me."

I mean I just came to the conclusion that if I was just going to continue to scrimp and scrape and live pay check to pay check?

I at least might as well do so on my own terms.

Why go through all of that and be working for a continual line of power-hungry asshole supervisors that don't know what they are doing, let alone be capable of leading?

If I flamed out spectacularly?

So be it.

At least I would have the satisfaction of knowing I did everything I could to live how I wanted.

Knowing you were there didn't hurt Lucy :-).

Love ya sweetheart.