I'm

not going to rest easy till we're together.
I'm just not.
I wish you and a whole host of others would accept it
as opposed to try and have fun with it.

It's not funny.

Not in the least.

I wouldn't wish it on anybody.
But it is the way it is.

Telling me not to be like this is like telling a worry-wart:
"Hey, don't worry."
Or anybody with any number of other issues,
"Hey, just don't think/worry etc about it."
Cause that just makes everything okay right?

You might as well scream:

"Don't be you!"

It just doesn't work.

I'll take a deep breath and be able to breathe when were together.

Till then?
Just trying to breathe from day to day.
It just the way it is.

I accept you and others.
Why can't I just be me?