One plus

One plus this post if you know beyond a shadow of a doubt you want to be my wife and live a quiet peacefull life in the country...

Still waiting...

Still waiting on that five Lucy..."Hey Lucy, I'm home..." I can't wait to say it...I might walk outside and then come back in just so I can have another chance to say it...I Love it...

Told you...

Told you I would make this blog a shrine to our love...

Do you ever sleep?

Well I would everytime I got the chance if somebody would get off their hands and do something about it...lol

So...

So I just wanna make sure I got this right...You know I am posting these to your google+ account...and you know that I am seeing you 1+ them...yet we still aren't talking? Okay Lucy...you're the one always been driving this train...lol

That's what I thought...

That's what I thought...What did somebody say once? Something about an inside joke builds intamacy?

You know...

You know I'm seeing you 1+ these right?...

Yep...

Mia: Don't you hate that?
Vincent: What?
Mia: Uncomfortable silences. Why do we feel it's necessary to yak about bullshit in order to be comfortable?
Vincent: I don't know. That's a good question.
Mia: That's when you know you've found somebody special. When you can just shut the fuck up for a minute and comfortably enjoy the silence.

1 AM Backups coming...

1 AM Backups coming gotta go...aren't you glad you found somebody who is on your level and "gets" you? Get some sleep...peace...

Where's

Where's my five Lucy? lol...

Is ...

Is the ice finally statring to thaw? Does somebody finally get just how much they mean to me and how bad I want to be with them?...House paid off as soon as possible...Small garden, solar pannels, kayaks...

I don't know that we will do everything I want us to do...I just know there's nobody I'd rather try and do it all with than you...cause I know, a trip to the store gonna be full of laughs...it's like you just came right out of heaven and sat right down next to me one night...blessed beyond belief...just want that cherry on top of life...Love you dingleberry...peace...

I am not nor have I ever been kidding...

I've been trying to tell ya...

I've been trying to tell ya...

 

 

I think somebody understands this really well now...

I think somebody understands this really well now...Imagine poor Nicholas, he has been having his mind expanded since birth...boy is 14 going on 35...it's the truth...

 

 

Go to bed Knucklehead...

Go to bed Knucklehead...it's late...get some rest...Love you...

I just wanna know...

I just wanna know you whole heart is mine...that you want this more than you've wanted anything else in your life and know that it won't be easy, far from it...but it will be so worth it, I promise you, I will stand with you thick and thin...your everything I ever wanted and then some...

It's what we've been doing...



Now...about that five...lol

Yes it does...

 



It just amazes me...

It just amazes me that two people can communicate without talking for so long...accident, pure coincidence I am sure...

Learned it a long time ago...

Learned it a long time ago...yes I did...

 

 

Written from a womans perspective....

Written from a womans perspective, but I thought it was funny...

 

 

Tell me...

Tell me that aint the truth already...

 

 

Yep...

Well...

Well, if there ever is to be one I am sure I would remember it...you're not the only good kisser in the equation sweetheart...lol...your knees gonna be the ones getting weak...

 

 

 

Lord aint that the truth...

I mean that hits the nail on the head right there...

 

 

Five...

Can a brotherman get a five? On any post ever? Well not really more like one post in particular...you know you want to...

I have been...

I have been...Don't you think I will continue to? Geez Louise Lucy, give a boy a break every once in a while...Sending stuff to your Google+ account...funny how "john" doesn't seem to mind that...or the 120 page views a day...it's just funny...

 



When?

When we gonna have that first all night telephone conversation? When Lucy? Driving me crazy Lucy...

You're averaging...

You're averaging...like 120 pageviews a day for a couple of weeks now...and you're the one that is scared? Really? Come on girl, give me a break...lol...you've been busted since day one sweetheart...No way your with someone and looking at this Blog that much...that dog just don't hunt...crack me up...

Don't think...

Don't think I'm not still waiting for that fifth page view either...you're funny...always have been...

I'm tired Lucy...

Had to cancel our trip out west :-(...Just to much going on to pull it off...ER Bill, Lawyer Fees, Nicholas didn't want to miss that much school etc...Oh well life goes on, we will kayak the Green River through Mamoth Cave National Park this fall, there will be things we can do localy to make up for not going...Bigger fish to fry these days than a trip out west...

You asked do I trust you...obviously I do or I wouldn't still be here. I believe in what Adam Somed said. I believe there is chemistry and fate and having been chased like never before and Rumi and on and on and on, so that it makes sense you would be scared. I'm intense honey. I ride intense, love intense, work intense when it calls for it...It's who I am, you'll never have to guess with me as to what kind of mood I am in or where things stand with us, this I can promise you.

Nicholas first High School Marching Band performance is this Friday PM. I asked off so I could be there for it. Nobody else is on the calendar, so I should be off. I just hate asking with such short notice. My family is out of town and I just can't see having the boy go to his first performance by himself, not with everything else he has going on with his moma...I just feel like I need to be there for him. I wanna ride the bike in right before half time, go sit somewhere down front, yes, complete with dorag. Have a sign made that says "Go Nicholas!" and just make a complete fool of myself for the boy.

The only things I want out of life Lucy are for him to be happy and for us to live a life together..."However long it takes, whatever I gotta do...this is my dream, this is what I will work hard for everyday of my life for...all day, everyday, till the end of days"...love don't come more true than this sweetheart I'm sorry it scares you...

I'm back...

I say what I mean...

I say what I mean and I do what I say, it keeps life "simple"...I can't help it I fell in love with you, you got the purest heart I ever met and no other is ever going to do for me...and if that means this don't happen and I live my life here just like I have been, well, so be it.

I love you Lucy, I want you for my wife...I gotta go to work, going up the Indiana side, back roads on Indiana 62 and 66 all the way to the New Albany bridge...

Better think about how your going to respond when that text comes from me some day soon...both of our futures hang in the balance...Peace...

Working Fair Admission

It's funny...

It's funny how the page-views go down after I tell somebody I'm not going to be on here...Don't ever think I aint got you figured out...have since day one...

Gotta go back to sleep...

Gotta go back to sleep, workin next two nights...

I still want my five...

Damn it! lol

Pretty much what I've been talking about...

Do you...

Do you love me Lucy? Do you really? Are you really going to go file a complaint on me?...Averaging 100+ page-views for over a week now and your scared of me? I have no idea where you are...I'm not searching anymore...If you want me in your life you'll let it be known...I've told you and told you what I bring to the table...Not my fault you weren't ready to deal with it...This is very doable...somebody just needs to get on-board with it...

Nicholas says...

Nicholas says, people see me like some mean ass rough and tough Russian bear on the outside, but the truth is I'm really just a big Teddy Bear...He's right, he knows me pretty well...

Love you Lucy...

and yes you are...

Owls, crickets,...

Owls, crickets, fog, moon, coyotes, clouds, fog, frogs...just like I love it...especially on Sun night late...the quietist  time of all...

Love you...tired..clling it a night...Peace...five's...goofy goober...five's...

It never stops...It just keep dropping in my lap...I Keep telling you this is not just me...

Your body is away from me
But there is a window open
from my heart to yours.
From this window, like the moon
I keep sending news secretly

Rumi

Anyone who genuinely and constantly with both hands looks for something, will find it.

Rumi

Carry your baggage towards silence,
when you seek the signs of the way.

A two?...

 Come on now...damn...harsh...I will not rest easy till I see that 5...

Wat...

Wat a boy gotta do to get a four or a five around here? Damn...

It's not...

It's not that I send you poetry, it's the kind that it is, and that it's almost always perfect timing with it, and the words and the imagery, and to think this was written mostly not of romantic love , but the love between oneself and ones creator, by someone of a different faith?...Wow...

Well...I did tell you I planned on blowing your mind, every single day...I don't know why you think I wouldn't...

Rumi

On this path let the heart be your guide for the body is hesitant and full of fear.

Rumi

Every step of the way I will walk with you
And never leave you stranded.

Rumi

Be thirsty heart,
seek forever without rest.
Let this soundless longing
hidden deep inside you
be the source
of every word you say.

Pretty darn close...

I still ...

I still want my five, don't think for a minute I don't...I'm watching that post like a hawk...

Was down...

Was down for two and a half hours...only thing missing was your slobber on my shirt from having your head on my chest...

Wow...

Sermon title..."When things get tangled up"

Hebrews 12:1

New International Version (NIV)

Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us,

I have been and I will continue to...I don't know what else to do except keep giving you love and trust.

5 Lucy, 5...you're not foolin anybody...

All just a big accident all just a big coincidence all along, ever since the parking garage...yeah ok, I buy that...not!

Also from sermon:
"There comes a time when you have to push through the pain to get to your goal" Like I didn't know about that already? There have been three or four times when I really really hurt in these matters...Is this not what faith and persistence are all about?

Sunday afternoon nap time. You should be here. Your heart already is...One day soon you shall be as well...

Always...

Always keep the boy guessin' right? You're so full of shit...lol...Don't ever think I don't know what's up.

Gotta get to church...

Love you...

If it aint a five by now

If it aint a five by now, there aint nothing else I can do or say to make it so...lol

Somebody...

Somebody needs to straighten up and fly right. lol

FIVE!...lol...

Rumi...

"My soul wants to fly away when your presence calls it so sweetly. My soul wants to take flight, when you whisper "Arise.

Not four...

Not four views, five knucklehead...lol

View this post...

View this post five times if you're madly in love with me and want to be my wife...

Rumi

"The soul has been given its own ears to hear things mind does not understand."...yep.

I want you...

I want you so bad...every which way a person could ever have a person that's how I want you...emotionally, spiritually, sexually, philosophically...you just don't understand...

Just call...

Just call...I'll say "Wats up kitty cat?"

127...

127 pageviews a new record Woo Hoo!...

Had fun...

Had fun, got rained on...

Yep...

http://markmanson.net/6-toxic-habits

Don't ever forget...

Don't ever forget you were the one that came and put your arm around me and put your head on my shoulder...I think I knew right then I wanted this forever...

Oh and by the way? The guy who was giving me grief at work? Same guy I had the talk with about putting the seat on the bike and what the "next one", if there was to be one, would be like..."good luck finding all that"...I'll just never forget the way he said it...Anyway talked to most of guys of character and integrity at work and they all agree he's miserable, the highlight of his day is coming in to work...Every last one, without me even prompting..."He's jealous, he's envious...and pointed to the fact that he starting having issues with me around the time I got the bike"...sad really...I never thought I'd have one...why can't people just be happy for you? Pray for our enemies they say...

Anyway it's strange, but it seems as though things have come full circle...

You gonna...

You gonna beat 140 page views here today? That is your record you know...Nich's out like a light...Gotta go work the fair at 4:30...love you...

Here's whats going to happen...

Here's whats going to happen before much longer...I'm gonna send an e-mail to hisbelovedone777@yahoo.com...not much to say, just dropping a line...I'm going to text you...If "Tina" comes back all stern about not e-mailing her, or "John" comes back with his threats...then I'm walking away from this love affair once and for all...as I will have had enough by that point...so enjoy the post you get here for the next lil bit as they very well could be the last you'll ever get from me...Real men don't make threats, they make promises, and they keep them...peace.

Why don't you just learn to live free?

"...If music got to free your mind
Just let it go cause you never know, you never know
If your rhythm ever falls out of time
You can bring it to me and I will make it alright
And if your soul is let go
Oh you never know, no you never know
And if your heart is beating free
For the very first time it'll be alright..."

It will be alright...it will be...but you gotta go for it...

Yep...

Young lady at church just poted this on her FB page:

"Sometimes you have to stop thinking so much, and just go where your heart takes you."

You don't fool me...

You don't fool me. You never have. If you honestly feel the way you said you do, no way you let me get away..."John"...lol...I'm bout to text you here in a bit, and if you wanna go file a complaint, well then you just go right ahead...9000 text later she feels scared for her safety from somebody that don't know where she is?...It's a crock of bull...just like all the times before...You're funny...

Why?

Why are you content to look at a blog when you could be sharing a life with that person? I don't get that...talk, gotta start sometime...

Love you

gotta start talking...

gotta start talkingsweetheart...I love you, he's passed out...I'm going to bed as well, busy day tomorrow...in and out all day...peace...

Been telling you...

Been telling you practically since the third time I was around you that I want you as my wife...why would you not believe me?

Talking to a ghost...

Talking to a ghost...Do you love me Lucy? Do you really? Can you handle me and my son? Can you make our home a refuge from chaos and drama and bull shit? Can you comfort us when we need it? Men don't have a big comforting gene and his momma is obviously not the answer. Granny and grandpa are way out of touch with this generation...Can you kick us in the ass if we deserve it? Do you fall deeper in love with me everyday? Do you really? Did you really mean it? Everyday without you in my life seems like a waste of time that we could be using to build a life together...for all three of us for a while...then just the two of us...Is it really what you want? Do you want it more than anything else you ever wanted like I do? Do you? Just tell me...

Turns out...

Turns out one group did it to another and not just him, so that's a relief...

I'm tired...

I'm tired...I can't think when he is upset...I hate it that there is nothing I can do...it's the worst feeling in the world...particularly right now with what all he is going through... I love you...wish we were talking...

Got an upset boy...

Got an upset boy...several people he thought were his friends stood him up about going to a bonfire tonight...First time I cried in a long time...he's different and he stands his ground like his dad does...pays a high price...it hurts me to see him hurt...

You're gonna be

You're gonna be absolutely soaking wet..all over the seat of the bike...sideways, forwards, backwards, upside down...you wanna play Lucy? You really woman enough? "I.m ready for it I can handle it" Do you really think so?

You could send a pic...I didn't text any of yours to any of the people in Albany...Trust Lucy, it's here.

You could have...

You could have been with us making more lemon shake-ups and hot dogs and hamburgers at the band Booster Booth at the fair...Scrambler, no tilt-a-whirl or spider...sux...got to ride the swings though... I'm beat...three hours sleep...More Band Booth and fair activity tomorrow...yeah us...

"I'm serious...

I'm serious, I'm gonna sop you up like gravy with a biscuit...

The fact of the matter is...

The fact of the matter is I am going to absolutely devour you...every last drop of you...and you know it...and you can't wait...but your scared shitless...your problem...lol...

Home sweet home...

Home sweet home...and yes I rode it like I stole it...seriously, like a bat out of hell every chance I got... forth time in a row coming home this particular way. Very familiar with it from years of  going to and coming from Louisville by this route...(Hi-Way 60). Honestly, got on it like I hadn't in a while..I seriously wish everybody had something in their lives that would give them as big a thrill as what this does for me...to have the adrenaline pumping through your body for hours afterwards...unreal...sleep? forget about it...to make love afterwards?...I couldn't even begin to fathom...but that's where I wanna go...with you...nobody else ever gonna do...Like Sly and the family stone says..."...gonna take you Higher! Higher!, Higher!...

We are winding things down...

We are winding things down...our shift is finishing things up...gotta get off of here...I love you..."This is my dream, this is what I will work hard everyday of my life for...Everyday, all day, till the end of days sweetheart"...always...you should know this by now...peace...

Evansville...

Evansville is a haul...but people do that commute everyday...and the downtime you will have at home will be more than worth it...you've seen it, peace, quiet, calm...and I'll still be commuting to Louisville so we're not going to be tripping over each other each and every day which will make the time we do get together even better...I get excited now about coming home :-)...Wait till I know I 'm coming home to see you...oh lord have mercy sweetie...

I'm not kidding...

I fully expect us to be married by Christmas.

I want you with us at Christmas...

I want you with us at Christmas...I'm serious...I fully expect us to be together by Christmas...

I dream of you, dancing barefoot in our yard, in a sundress, flowers in your hair, and nothing, yes, nothing else on to this song, just for me, cause you know I love it when you do...

I day dream about it alot actually :-)..."she's a summer love in the spring fall and winter, we can have high times if she'll abide"

Why the sudden spike in pageviews I wonder?

I just can't figure out what might be going on Lucy. Can you?

I just...

I just bounced the interface on a port of a SW to keep a hospital on the WAN!! Yeah me...first time for everything...lol

Damn ok, have it your way....

Can we just leave it there for once?

One more...