well thank you so much lol.
Exhausted.
Been going at it since 7:30 AM yesterday.
Pics tomorrow.
Love you.
Night.
Saturday, June 13, 2015
So
I work my ass off for two days on some food thats just out of this freaking world ( it's gotten better since you had some better planing, we've done it a few more times, getting used to working off a list, better able to work together on timing and such) and now you're gonna be all hardcore about 1+'s and views and stuff?
Damn your so hardcore lol.
No wonder I love you so much :-).
Like I have for...
you know...
three years now lol
It's
been a busy two days.
Been going hard since 7:30 AM yesterday.
Food was phenomenal.
(as you well know lol)
Thank you :-).
Love you.
Friday, June 12, 2015
Rumi
I asked for a kiss you gave me six.
Whose pupil were you to become such a master?
Full of kindness, generosity...you are not of this world.
Here's
the other biggie:
"Well your dad just got lucky."
Luck didn't have a fucking thing to do with it, that I can assure you.
I
can hear what people are saying.
It bounces around in my head like a 22 shell sometimes.
"...At night I wake up with the sheets soaking wet
And a freight train running through the middle of my head..."
Know the feeling sir.
Trust me on that one.
"How selfish of him...blah blah blah...after all Al and Norma done for him...blah blah blah..." on and on and on for fucking ever.
It's the very same ones that only ever pretended to like us.
They been yapping the whole damn time we've been here.
Let em yap.
"I'm a rebel, let them talk Soul rebel, talk won't bother me"
I bet they yap long after were gone, I bet you that much Lucy.
NEWS FLASH YAPPERS!
It aint about me.
It's about us.
All of us.
And it's about what's best for all of us.
Period.
Whats best for my son.
The kind of life he can have and how he can get himself and his family set up real nice.
Hopefully it's about helping people as well.
I understand that needs to be discussed\negotiated.
It's about havin' fun, and livin not existing.
Hopefully lol?
That's what this is about.
This is a blessing from God.
Period.
How anybody can say otherwise at this point is well beyond me.
People just don't wanna believe.
That's the only real explanation I can come up with at this point.
Love ya Lucy.
Old
Kindred Supervisor from when I first started sent me an invitation on Linkedin.
Lol.
I mean, whats with these people?
This guy didn't say 30 words to me in the over two years he was our Manager.
Now he wants to be on my Linkedin?
If you didn't bother to want to associate with me when I was 20 feet down the hall from you?
What on God's Green Earth makes you think I wanna associate with you now?
That train done left the station Hommie.
A very very long long time ago.
If
they are not happy for us?
For all of us?
Then fuck 'em.
Every last one of them.
I don't care who they are.
I meant it when I said it the first time.
I meant it yesterday when I was thinking it all day long.
I mean it today.
I'll mean it tomorrow.
I'll mean it forever.
Bunch of jealous, envious haters.
Maybe they should stop and think about Why? for a second.
Okay seriously.
We're good lol.
Just had some residual emotion to get out lol.
Love you.
I
just want people to understand two things:
1) I know whats going on. Please stop with all the fake bullshit. I see right through it, all it does is piss me off. I'm sick of it. Knock it off. We can make it for the duration that we need to. Even longer if we had to.
2) I always have and will always continue to do what I feel is best for me and my son. Period. Not what others wish me to do that contain their own individual bias based on what they think is best for them. Staying here is not an option in this equation. Period. People need to make their peace with it. Honestly? Given how long this has been comin? They should have made their peace with things a long time ago.
If I have learned anything, it's this, you'll never know true happiness living out your life for someone else. From what I've seen that is nothing short of a recipe for misery. It doesn't matter who they are or what that relationship is. It's your life. You've one shot. It's really not all that long of a time when you think about it. Best to make the most of it if you ask me. People hate it because you're demonstrating the guts and the courage to live your life in a way they that they not only didn't, but simply couldn't have even if they wanted. Not my problem. We're all responsible for the choices we make. The underlying message here is "live like me, be miserable like everybody else, how dare you go out on a limb and take chances and end up happy." If people do things because they expect something back in return? Then they have done it for the wrong reasons and shouldn't have even bothered to begin with.
A relative of mine and his wife were at a family gathering a while back. Recent "empty nesters" so to speak. All the kids are now out of the house. The coolness and the aloofness that surrounded these two peoples auras was striking. They never so much as stood by each other. Never smiled at each other. Not the slightest warmth or affection shown, ever. Never even smiled at each other. Best I could tell they never even spoke to one another. If they did it was few and far between. No thanks. Not the life I'm gonna live. Never was. I decided a long time ago I would rather be on my own than to live like that. What the fuck kinda life is that? Not one I wanna be living. These guys are my age. They got thirty years of that shit head of them? Have fun with that.
I just wanna get to the point in my life where I wake up everyday and when I see your face? Every time I see your face actually, The first thing I think is, "Can you believe this? Can you believe how things ended up for us?" and I will think it every single second of every single day, for the rest of my life.
Something tells me you know exactly what I'm talking about and you feel the same exact way :-).
No wonder so many people hate it.
Because everybody wants it but so few ever get it.
I know it's right around the corner sweetheart.
We're all good over here.
Promise.
Love ya Bambi.
ttys.
Thursday, June 11, 2015
Post
from 6/5 through 6/10 need the 1+ sweetheart :-).
Love you.
Don't worry bout me :-).
I'm fine :-).
We will be fine.
9- 10 more days right?
I think we will be okay :-).
Well
I'll be!
The 1+'s have returned!
Yea!
They can't keep me down sweetheart :-).
I just won't let them :-).
They would be flipping out and wishing harm on others etc.
Not me.
Not how I roll.
I wish them and all the generations that follow them prosperity, peace, love and happiness.
It's the right thing to do.
Plus they just can't stand it cause they know they couldn't be like that :-).
It's the truth.
"And no matter what game they play,
Eh, we got something they could never take away;
We got something they could never take away:
And it's the fire (fire), it's the fire (fire)
That's burning down everything:.."
Wednesday, June 10, 2015
So
a bike ride, a couple of hours in the pool, a few bud lites, a couple of Merkley Franks and some Spongebob later?
Daddys calling it a day.
Love you.
Night.
Tuesday, June 9, 2015
Fav
distillery right now.
haven't had the Old Bardstown or the Johnny Drum.
The Johnny Drum has gotten good reviews.
All three of the others are exceptional.
The Pot Still Reserve, The Rowans Creek, and my personal favorite of late, Noah's Mill.
"...Where
all these troubles weigh down on me will rise
Run to your dreaming when you’re alone
Where all these questions spinning round my head will die, will die, will die..."
Monday, June 8, 2015
Rumi
I am your moon and your moonlight too
I am your flower garden and your water too
I have come all this way, eager for you
Without shoes or shawl
I want you to laugh
To kill all your worries
To love you
To nourish you.
13
year old Corona Cap.
Bought it the summer we moved in here.
People are like "Don't you think you need a new one?"
Well?
No I don't actually and I'll tell you why.
Cause I have plenty enough hats already.
Don't need another one.
There may be a lot of white Corona caps out there.
There will never be another one like this.
Ever.
So why waste my time getting another one?
Besides, this one has "character' as somebody once called it :-).
Not even that big of a Corona fan really.
Just wanted a white hat lol.
Like their marketing more than I like their beer to be honest.
When it finally gives in?
A white mesh Nike fitted one would take it's place pretty nicely.
Till then?
I'll stick with this one :-).
Love ya Bambi.
Sunday, June 7, 2015
Exactly :-)
The Mexican Fisherman and the Investment Banker (Author Unknown)
An American investment banker was at the pier of a small coastal Mexican village when a small boat with just one fisherman docked. Inside the small boat were several large yellowfin tuna. The American complimented the Mexican on the quality of his fish and asked how long it took to catch them.
The Mexican replied, “only a little while.”
The American then asked why didn’t he stay out longer and catch more fish?
The Mexican said he had enough to support his family’s immediate needs.
The American then asked, “but what do you do with the rest of your time?”
The Mexican fisherman said, “I sleep late, fish a little, play with my children, take siestas with my wife, Maria, and stroll into the village each evening where I sip wine, and play guitar with my amigos. I have a full and busy life.”
The American scoffed. “I have an MBA from Harvard, and can help you,” he said. “You should spend more time fishing, and with the proceeds, buy a bigger boat. With the proceeds from the bigger boat, you could buy several boats, and eventually you would have a fleet of fishing boats. Instead of selling your catch to a middle-man, you could sell directly to the processor, eventually opening up your own cannery. You could control the product, processing, and distribution,” he said. “Of course, you would need to leave this small coastal fishing village and move to Mexico City, then Los Angeles, and eventually to New York City, where you will run your expanding enterprise.”
The Mexican fisherman asked, “But, how long will this all take?”
To which the American replied, “Oh, 15 to 20 years or so.”
“But what then?” asked the Mexican.
The American laughed and said, “That’s the best part. When the time was right, you would announce an IPO, and sell your company stock to the public and become very rich. You would make millions!”
“Millions – then what?”
The American said, “Then you could retire. Move to a small coastal fishing village where you could sleep late, fish a little, play with your kids, take siestas with your wife, and stroll to the village in the evenings where you could sip wine and play guitar with your amigos.”
Morning Beautiful.
So glad we got to see another Triple Crown Winner finally yesterday ;-).
Makes me happy.
What a race.
What a horse :-).
Loved how he pulled away when he sensed Frosted coming up along side him down the stretch.
Almost wire to wire :-).
For a mile and a half thats something.
Thats what they said they wanted to do.
No holding back.
Get to the front and stay there.
Jockey said he knew he had it won going into the first turn.
Easy to pick on horse racing.
I can understand the criticisms.
But yesterday?
It was special.
For lots of people who wouldn't have cared otherwise.
I'm just happy it happened.
Might be another 36 years before it happens again.
You just never know.
Moms for dinner.
Race with Al.
Probably go get some red lava rock to put down on mom and Als bank.
Love you Bambi.
Saturday, June 6, 2015
So...
Lord knows who is gonna come here and do no telling what while Dave and I are in Henderson for two days.
But I'm in charge of towels, brushes and hair dryers?
Sweet.
Deal.
Anytime sweetheart lol.
Do whatever you gotta do to get things exactly how you want.
I really don't care.
Move things to the deck or put things in the garage.
Whatever needs to be done.
It'a all good.
Cause I just wanna see you in that dress and hear you say "I do".
Other than that?
Well?
Love you.
Friday, June 5, 2015
Good thing
somebody doesn't mind the "messy hair days", or things not being perfect.
Yesterday surely was one.
But today?
Today is a brand new day,
We get to start all over again.
How great is that Lucy?
Dave came by.
His buddy Pat got a room in Henderson for us for two nights, Friday and Saturday June 18th and 20th.
Pat can't hardly afford to put gas in his truck sweetheart.
Dave kept sayin, "Now he might not show up."
:-).
I get it.
I still don't know exactly when, but I get the idea.
We will make it till then.
Always have.
Always will.
Oh?
BTW.
Somebody needs to be in charge of KY Bourbon that day for some of us.
I don't wanna get drunk.
I don't even wanna get buzzed.
Fact is I'm gonna need a lil sip now and again to keep my nerves in check while I am waiting for you to arrive.
Willet Pot Still Reserve, Noah's Mill, Four Roses Small Batch, all very serviceable and available in Owensboro.
"Watch her walk"
Thank goodness for the messy hair days.
Makes us appreciate the others that much more.
Love ya Bambi.
In and out all day.
ttys.
Thursday, June 4, 2015
Words
"I drink you up,
For every drop of you is sacred.
Every drop I drink you up.
You fill my cup,
The way you laugh.
Eyes of a child,
Lean on me, you fill me up,
You make me love,
So unconditionally,
Generous to me, you give me love
And break my heart.
Slip, you fall, I pick you up and dust you off,
You break my heart.
Rain, rain, rain down on me,
Again and again,
Rain down on me.
Take all you want,
And only hope can i, you wont deny,
Your love for me, my love..."
For you know who.
When
you put your head on my shoulder?
The third time I walked you to your car?
I knew right then.
I don't ever wanna be without this.
Ever.
Whatever I gotta do?
Thats what I'm gonna do.
Except that stupid bike ride to West Virginia.
I knew that shit wasn't ever gonna happen.
Just sat there listening to your mom's neighbor.
Biggest shit eatin' grin ever on my face.
Cause I knew, you knew, you had been had.
Bahahahahahahahahaha.
Please Do
"...Oh if all this gold, should steal my soul away
Oh dear mother of mine, please redirect me if this gold..."
But I don't think she has anything to worry about.
I worry about her.
She been a rock through all this.
"...and
remember all the ridiculous ways I tried to get your attention..."
Like what?
Hanging out in parking garages stalking me? lol.
Thing was?
You already had my attention.
Much more than that actually.
Much much more.
"He
went deeper into black
Deeper into white
Could see the stars shining
Like nails in the night
He felt the healing
Healing, healing
Healing hands of love
Like the stars shiny shiny
From above..."
"In this
great future you can't forget your past, so dry your tears I say..."
RNM.
RNM.
Grandmother and grandfather.
Uncle.
Dad.
Ma and Pa Gehring.
Grandparents for all practical purposes.
Great grandfather.
Great grandmother.
Great Aunt.
Step-Great grandmother.
Great grandfathers second wife.
Great grandfathers second wife.
I
know the feeling.
Everybodys like "Why aint he freaking out? I would be freaking out if I was him."
Well thats just it.
I'm me.
Not them.
Thats why I am not freaking out.
Not yet anyway lol.
Wednesday, June 3, 2015
People
forget about him being part Cherokee.
Thats where the mysticism comes from with him.
Grandmother I think.
I could be wrong.
Whatever lol.
Great song.
I like the picture of him as well.
It shows off the Cherokee in him pretty well.
Tuesday, June 2, 2015
Don't
think for a minute.
That I don't know...
You are the glue holding this all together.
The strength you see in me is just your own being mirrored back to you.
I knew instantaneously you were amazing.
I just never would have dreamed it...
to be this much so.
The moonlight here is reflecting over the fog\mist on the pond and is scattering about.
It looks like daylight.
It cast shadows everywhere.
Throw in some frogs and some crickets?
Equals Heaven.
I wish you were here.
Love you.
Did
you get the pics Dingleberry?
Love you.
Gotta plant a tree for mom and then have family pictures made for the church directory later this afternoon.
Tired after yesterday.
That was a lot of work.
Love you.
Monday, June 1, 2015
"Life
enhancing items" continued.
A hair dryer.
Seriously?
A hair dryer.
The boy never uses a hair dryer.
Never has.
It's part of the reason his hair is so healthy and strong.
A hair dryer.
Guess I'll go ahead and get sheets and pillows and pillow cases too.
Anything else princess?
I thought you were more of the tom boy type :-).
Bahahahahahahahaha.
Relax.
Don't worry.
I got it under control.
Maybe.
Bahahahahahahahaha.
A hair dryer.
FYI there's no plug in in the bathroom for it.
No one has proven themselves "worthy" of one needing to be installed yet.
Do I need to get you a bathrobe too?
You guys crack me up.
All of ya.
Dads
fav car of all time :-).
Sweet.
I have a replica of a black one on a shelf in my computer room.
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