Some Saturday...Tonights email chain.

It aint about the truck. It's about her not believing me when I tell her something.That's what I got a problem with.

I totally understand, and she needs to know that;  I can never talk
over here, he wants to know everything we discuss, so I try to stay
quiet and calm.  I wouldn't like it either.  If you don't let her
know, it will grind away at you, and you don't want that.  Sorry your
free afternoon was so hectic.  Was N o.k. when you picked him up?

I made no bake cookies, for you to have or take whichever the case.
Well, so much for being quiet, he came to me just now wanting to know
who you were mad at, what was said etc., said he heard every word.  I
then told him I feel like you, and when I tell him something, it makes
me mad when he gets on the phone and calls someone else to see what
was said.  Made it very clear to him, it's the same thing, and I don't
like it either.  My word should be sufficient.  Of course he
disagrees, says I'm think skinned.  etc. etc., life goes
on.......................  so many things I have to keep inside  me,
no wonder we pull

Haven't had a piece of pizza for so long, can't wait to bite into it.
Will be so yummy.

Love you bunches,  Mom

Oh she is going to know.

Calmly, but in no uncertain terms.

"When I tell you I didn't mess up the radio or the truck and that it was fine when I had it then it was fine". End of story. James always said I could stay there, talking to him to make sure just in case.

I can take showers at work in the fitness center. All I ever wanted was a place to lay my head for 6-7 hours and get some sleep.

Shes always been like this. Thinks she owns you cause she does something for you. It's why I don't ever ask her for shit, ever. It's not worth the hassle and the bitchin'. It just aint.

Hubert aint always going to be around, and not this summer but next Nich will probably be in JR College. She needs to really think about what she wants. Once Nich is gone? I got nothing to hold me back either. Maybe even before then if things fall in place just right, which it seems like they are.

I feel like my integrity and character have been attacked from somebody I am close too. I won't have it. I'll sleep at James if I have to and she can find somebody elses Saturday afternoon to ruin. Simple, easy, problem solved.

Al always takes this notion of "well you just have to take her shit" kind od thing. Not when you question what kind of man I am and what kind of character I have I don't. No sir. Never. I'll make other arrangements if I have to. Hopefully not.

I think she got the point when I fired back at her this afternoon. She knew she had screwed up and had said things in a manner she knew better than to have said. "Well I better get off here" she said. "Yeah sounds like a good idea".

I just won't take it, from her or anybody. If I said it was fine. it was fine, period.

The guy told her when the battery died last year that there was something wrong with the alarm system. I told her then to take it to Estcorn's and have it by-passed. She never drives it. It's gonna be that big of a deal to manually lock it up? She didn't wanna do it. I'm sure she has forgotten the conversation. Now it's all my fault.

It's bull shit.

She got this summer with Nicholas if she wants, or he is gone soon and she wont get to see him to much the next year and a half.

Tough. Our lives. Trying to get us both ahead of the curve ASAP any way I can. If all we try and do is please others all we do is end up miserable ourselves. Aint happening. lived that already.

It's just the cumulative affect of her crap, I've had enough. Luckily we can talk and things usually settle down.

"You didn't print that picture of Nich in his suit" "You didn't get the ink."

"Did you move his b-day card? I told you I hadn't put the check in it." "I didn't touch it, couldn't even tell you where it is."

Both of the above issues came through in text at work.

At work!

When I have the next round of work done on the truck I am taking it to Owensboro. It aint worth it. Acts like it's an ordeal to drive me five minutes down the road and drop me off. She got a lot in common with AL. All about power and control. "I did this so now you owe me." Screw that. You don't own this cat, never did never will...

I appreciate everything everybody has ever done for both of us but if somebody gonna act like I owe them or I am "beholden  to them?" nah...that shit aint happening. Ever.

She is just not used to it when somebody stands back up to her.

Thanks for listening.

love yall.

yes, pizza sounds great.

 Remember, Any time you need to leave the truck n Oboro you can always drive my car . I hope this won't be our lunch time topic tomorrow since you and I have discussed it. I get so tired of questions and should haves from third party.
Glad you vented. Get it out of your system. Wonder how Dad tolerated all this "garbage"' Guess she has decided to live with Hubert instead of getting married. Wonder how he is doing in reality?
I hope she will realize N is almost gone and she should spend whatever time she can with him. Don't think he will make a lot of special trips on his own to c her. Course he may not
come here either. Fore sure, he knows my doors are always open and he is welcome anytime as are you.
It will be ok. Address everything that is on your mind so the slate is clean. Luv u. Mom
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I told her our gameplan about him starting college early. She didn't like that either. This was before everything with the truck.

Like she is even around enough to have some input? Give me a break. She wanted me to keep satalite for "when I visit" she said...she been here two or three times since.

Im gonna wanna have a meeting with her and Hubert. All I want is a place to sleep six seven hours. That was what the deal was to start with. I am going to look her straight in the eye and tell her "When I tell you the radio was broke when I got in the truck, it was broke (trip to hospital Joanna etc). When I look you in the eye and tell you the truck was fine when I had it, the truck was fine when I had it, period and I don't ever wanna hear about it again."

It's questioning a persons manhood. Thats besides the fact that IT DOESN'T MAKE A LICK OF SENSE!

She wants me to help move Hubert from Shelbyville. Next weekend. Working midnights. She is just utterly clueless. I don't mind to help. Im gonna text tomorrow and tell her I can be there Monday AM and take my truck and hers if she wants. I would rather do it this way than in the middle of working a weekend. She won't want to. Then she will complain I didn't help her after I had offered.

Hubert was asking all kinds of questions about the truck, how did it run, what about the transmission...almost like he was wanting to sell it...He's got Dr. bills. He was a farmer. He is very charming. Janet was miked by Bernice (cleaning lady) and Phillip (nephew). I'd hate to see it happen again. She said her account was overdrawn last month. Well you know what? Quit doing your hair every other week and quit having the dogs groomed. I mean where does the money go? No house payment, no car payment, her retirement, half of dads...Something aint adding up. She has talked about selling the truck in the past. If she sells it cause she wants to that's one thing but if she sells it cause he wants the cash for DR bills? Big red flag. Shes lonely, always been lonely. This is what they do, they wait, then they get you sucked in, then they turn people against one another, makes it look like everyone else has the problem. And why can't Hubert's family move him? He got a big family. Farmers, country people, surely one of them has a truck and aren't working Saturday. Why is it the guy that is working midnights that lives 90 miles away gotta be the one to move him? I mean seriously, did he even ask any of his people if they could help? Why not? Another red flag. I'm telling you I can sniff them out anymore. I aint sayin he is, but I am sayin I will find out and I will make her ask herself some questions she aint been wanting to ask herself.

Yeah...I got some questions for Janet, things she needs to think about.

Me and Nicholas the only family she got.

God help her if she looses us over him.


ME to you now dingleberry...
Did I mention I was ready for a new life? One with a pretty lil wife? Ready for some new scenery? A new job? A new lifestyle? I've had enough of this bull shit. Were ready to roll. Say the word. Evil one just never gives up ever does he? Comes at you from unsuspecting quarters...tough for him. We moving on...soon...everybody gonna be upset cause were doing whats best for us?..Well they can get the fuck over it. They lived their lives. Out turn to do so, our way. Mom and Al be okay. I won't be no further away from mom than John is from Al. Janet's gonna get screwed hard if she is not careful. I'll ask Hubert about asking his family to help him move...it will tell me everything I need to know...

Some Saturday...