It's

not like were facing enemy fire or anything.

But there is a certain amount of daring in risking everything for something you believe is going to happen.

I'm sure others are like, "What are you risking?

This has been sewed up for a long time."

They're not me.

Their minds don't work like mine.

I can't rest or have much peace until I know I'm getting ready for the ceremony.

Just the way it is with me.

It's what I battle.

I wish people understood.

And some people?

Some people I wish they didn't understand lol.

They play it to their advantage.