Good read

AI’s 6 Worst-Case Scenarios Who needs Terminators when you have precision clickbait and ultra-deepfakes?

“We are entering dangerous and uncharted territory with the rise of surveillance and tracking through data, and we have almost no understanding of the potential implications.”

—Andrew Lohn, Georgetown University

"In interviews with AI experts, IEEE Spectrum has uncovered six real-world AI worst-case scenarios that are far more mundane than those depicted in the movies. But they’re no less dystopian. And most don’t require a malevolent dictator to bring them to full fruition. 

(People are getting this exactly backwards, The worst case scenarios will bring about the malevolent dictator (Antichrist) not the malevolent dictator will bringing about the worst case scenarios.)

1. When Fiction Defines Our Reality…

(as it currently does)

"But what choice is there when we can’t tell the difference between what is real and what is false in the digital world? In a terrifying scenario, the rise of deepfakes—fake images, video, audio, and text generated with advanced machine-learning tools—may someday lead national-security decision-makers to take real-world action based on false information, leading to a major crisis, or worse yet, a war."

“AI-enabled systems are now capable of generating disinformation at [large scales].” By producing greater volumes and variety of fake messages, these systems can obfuscate their true nature and optimize for success, improving their desired impact over time.

Revelation 12:9

And the great dragon was cast out, that old serpent, called the Devil, and Satan, which deceiveth the whole world: he was cast out into the earth, and his angels were cast out with him.

Matthew 24:3-14

And as he sat upon the mount of Olives, the disciples came unto him privately, saying, Tell us, when shall these things be? and what shall be the sign of thy coming, and of the end of the world?

And Jesus answered and said unto them, Take heed that no man deceive you.

(Weve been living in a post truth world for a while now already...)

One of the last lyrics says:

"And it's true we are immune

When fact is fiction and TV reality"

circa March 1983

2. A Dangerous Race to the Bottom

When it comes to AI and national security, speed is both the point and the problem. Since AI-enabled systems confer greater speed benefits on its users, the first countries to develop military applications will gain a strategic advantage. But what design principles might be sacrificed in the process?

Things could unravel from the tiniest flaws in the system and be exploited by hackers. Helen Toner, director of strategy at CSET, suggests a crisis could “start off as an innocuous single point of failure that makes all communications go dark, causing people to panic and economic activity to come to a standstill. A persistent lack of information, followed by other miscalculations, might lead a situation to spiral out of control.”

(Id say count on it at this point)

3. The End of Privacy and Free Will

"With every digital action, we produce new data—emails, texts, downloads, purchases, posts, selfies, and GPS locations. By allowing companies and governments to have unrestricted access to this data, we are handing over the tools of surveillance and control.

"With the addition of facial recognition, biometrics, genomic data, and AI-enabled predictive analysis, Lohn of CSET worries that “we are entering dangerous and uncharted territory with the rise of surveillance and tracking through data, and we have almost no understanding of the potential implications.”

I've said it before a few times already...

Daniel 12:4

But thou, O Daniel, shut up the words, and seal the book, even to the time of the end: many shall run to and fro, and knowledge shall be increased.

The argument that we are not here yet is the same thing as saying knowledge will lessen and then proceed to increase past where we are right now. It's just not the way it's going to work. And the trend in the graph shows as much.

4. A Human Skinner Box

(A Skinner Box is a often small chamber that is used to conduct operant conditioning research with animals. Within the chamber, there is usually a lever (for rats) or a key (for pigeons) that an individual animal can operate to obtain a food or water within the chamber as a reinforcer.)

"Social media users have become rats in lab experiments, living in human Skinner boxes, glued to the screens of their smartphones, compelled to sacrifice more precious time and attention to platforms that profit from it at their expense.

Helen Toner of CSET says that “algorithms are optimized to keep users on the platform as long as possible.” By offering rewards in the form of likes, comments, and follows, Malcolm Murdock explains, “the algorithms short-circuit the way our brain works, making our next bit of engagement irresistible.”

To maximize advertising profit, companies steal our attention away from our jobs, families and friends, responsibilities, and even our hobbies. To make matters worse, the content often makes us feel miserable and worse off than before. Toner warns that “the more time we spend on these platforms, the less time we spend in the pursuit of positive, productive, and fulfilling lives.”

Read that last paragraph again...who does that really sound like to you?

Revelation 12:9

And the great dragon was cast out, that old serpent, called the Devil, and Satan, which deceiveth the whole world.

5. The Tyranny of AI Design

'Every day, we turn over more of our daily lives to AI-enabled machines. This is problematic since, as Horowitz observes, “we have yet to fully wrap our heads around the problem of bias in AI. Even with the best intentions, the design of AI-enabled systems, both the training data and the mathematical models, reflects the narrow experiences and interests of the biased people who program them. And we all have our biases.”

How is Face Recognition Surveillance Technology Racist?

6. Fear of AI Robs Humanity of Its Benefits

"...what if people become so afraid of AI that governments regulate it in ways that rob humanity of AI’s many benefits? For example, DeepMind’s AlphaFold program achieved a major breakthrough in predicting how amino acids fold into proteins, making it possible for scientists to identify the structure of 98.5 percent of human proteins. This milestone will provide a fruitful foundation for the rapid advancement of the life sciences. Consider the benefits of improved communication and cross-cultural understanding made possible by seamlessly translating across any combination of human languages, or the use of AI-enabled systems to identify new treatments and cures for disease. Knee-jerk regulatory actions by governments to protect against AI’s worst-case scenarios could also backfire and produce their own unintended negative consequences, in which we become so scared of the power of this tremendous technology that we resist harnessing it for the actual good it can do in the world."

I'd say count on all six of them occurring

All we can do is be ready. 

It should be pretty clear by now what is going on all around us.

I love you honey :-).

They

 

should really come talk to me :-).

“The fundamental nature of reality could be radically different from our familiar world of objects moving around in space and interacting with each other,” physicist Sean Carroll suggested in a recent tweet. “We shouldn’t fool ourselves into mistaking the world as we experience it for the world as it really is.”

"For decades now, the quest for a quantum theory of gravity has fallen short of success, despite many promising ideas. Most recently a new approach suggests that the geometry of spacetime, the source of gravity in Einstein’s theory, may in some way be built from the entanglement of quantum entities. If so, the mysterious behavior of the quantum world defies understanding in terms of ordinary events in space and time because quantum reality creates spacetime, rather than occupying it. If so, human observers witness an artificial, emergent reality that gives the impression of events happening in space and time while the true, inaccessible reality doesn’t have to play by the spacetime rules."

Kinda reminds me of the laws of relativity don't apply to space but only to the things moving through space.

"the true, inaccessible reality doesn’t have to play by the spacetime rules."

I assure you it doesn't.

You might want to stop and think about what's not accessible and why that is...

Genesis 3:23-24

So the Lord God banished him from the Garden of Eden to work the ground from which he had been taken. After he drove the man out, he placed on the east side of the Garden of Eden cherubim and a flaming sword flashing back and forth to guard the way to the tree of life.

Hey

 

honey :-).

I love ya baby.

Like you don't know where I been and wats going on :-).

Good seeing ya last week BTW.

One day yall gonna learn.

Let me check something real quick...

Yup...

Still got way more ass than you and all your minions put together got teeth ...

 Yup. 

Sure do.

Time for a football analogy :-).

Tis the season etc.

Back in the 90's when Dallas had hall of Fame running back Emmitt Smith and a bunch of road graders for offensive linemen (They would just plow over people) I remember an interview with one of the offensive lineman and he said..."You get to gut check time late in the 4th quarter and theres usually one team wants to go home and another that don't mind to play another 15 minutes in OT. It's not that hard to figure out who is who."

Point is, wanna keep going?

You can't beat a guy willing to die.

I love you baby.

:-).

Yall

 

killin a guy with an anxiety disorder...yup...

I

 

know...:-).

Butt resting my mind?

A lil harder than most :-).

Yup.

I love you baby.

It's

 

what some of us have been saying for a while now.

A new COVID-19 variant surge ‘will happen again,’ experts say

“Because we’re failing to vaccinate the southern hemisphere in low and middle-income countries, that’s where it’s going to happen again,” said  Dr. Peter Hotez, a Baylor University College of Medicine vaccine scientist. 

“The worst-case scenario is we’re on our way there and we get hit with another variant that actually eludes the immune protection. I hope that’s not the case,” Fauci said.

Oh

 

you betcha :-).

1 Samuel 2:1-10

Hannah’s Prayer

And Hannah prayed and said:

“My heart rejoices in the Lord;

My horn is exalted in the Lord.

I smile at my enemies,

Because I rejoice in Your salvation.

“No one is holy like the Lord,

For there is none besides You,

Nor is there any rock like our God.

“Talk no more so very proudly;

Let no arrogance come from your mouth,

For the Lord is the God of knowledge;

And by Him actions are weighed.

“The bows of the mighty men are broken,

And those who stumbled are girded with strength.

 Those who were full have hired themselves out for bread,

And the hungry have ceased to hunger.

Even the barren has borne seven,

And she who has many children has become feeble.

“The Lord kills and makes alive;

He brings down to the grave and brings up.

The Lord makes poor and makes rich;

He brings low and lifts up.

He raises the poor from the dust

And lifts the beggar from the ash heap,

To set them among princes

And make them inherit the throne of glory.

“For the pillars of the earth are the Lord’s,

And He has set the world upon them.

He will guard the feet of His saints,

But the wicked shall be silent in darkness.

“For by strength no man shall prevail.

The adversaries of the Lord shall be broken in pieces;

From heaven He will thunder against them.

The Lord will judge the ends of the earth.

“He will give strength to His king,

And exalt the horn of His anointed.”

Exactly...

 

Happening...

 

A love that transcends time, space and distance...go figure :-).

So proud of both of us honey :-).

Bring

 

me some!

WTH woman?

:-).

Well

 

that sure wasn't a surprise :-).

Unconventionality

Your predominant psychological feature is Unconventionality. You have a strong need for independence and revolutionary ideas. You live life on your own terms, and you wouldn’t hesitate to take a hard stand in the face of strong opposition. Your motto: “Human progress has always been driven by a sense of adventure and unconventional thinking.”

Good

 

morning my Sunshine :-).

Thank you honey :-).

Yall

 

really went out of the way to keep tabs on me today :-).

I love you baby.

Hopefully it gets warmer after tonight :-).

TTYS.

Amen

 

What

 

is not being said is this:

There's just to much money in the system. To much of something, anything, even money, will make it worth less, ie, not be able to purchase as much. So there is that going on, along with the supply chain bottlenecks and raising/lowering interest rates just isn't going to fix either problem. So fasten your seat belt, cause one thing is certain...it's not boring times were living in these days.

Key Fed inflation gauge rises 4.9% from a year ago, fastest gain since 1983

Seriously, people talk about supply bottlenecks, they talk about rising wages, they talk about the concentration of corporations market share as all being components to inflation...but you never see a article that puts them all together with there being to much money in the system. Interesting...why in the world would that be?

The guy had it right I read back 7 or 8 months ago or whenever, when he said the Fed has lost control of the money supply. They will not be able to reign it in. Wait till the interest rate hikes go into effect and corporate profits plunge and the lay offs come in droves. They will tinker with lil incremental increases that wont do a lick of good to tame inflation and by the time they figure out they needed bigger interest rate hikes it will be to late to increase them in the manner they would have needed to be done to save off calamity.

Keep in mind some of these guys and gals at the Fed are as guilty as they can be of insider trading, trying to protect themselves from "downside risk" (omg somebody shoot me I've adopted their lingo). Saving your own wealth was not exactly the mission of the Fed.

Lets see what else...oh yeah, lets throw in a radicalized populace on both sides of the political spectrum and what could possibly go wrong?

Luke 21:36

"Watch ye therefore, and pray always, that ye may be accounted worthy to escape all these things that shall come to pass, and to stand before the Son of man."

I just

 

always loved them.

Ethiopian cross

"Ethiopian crosses are almost always made from elaborate latticework, the intertwined lattice represents everlasting life."

That one is for a staff. I just want a small one for a necklace :-)

I have

 

been pretty adamant about wanting to visit there for a while now and I've always wanted to take my Jewish Brother David Lash (and maybe a companion of his) with us as well.

Ethiopia that is.

This is how they celebrate Jesus baptism in the Jordon, in the season of epiphany.

TimKat

There are roughly 36 million Ethiopian Orthodox Tewahedo Church members worldwide. The vast majority of whom live in Ethiopia/Eritrea.

36 million.

That's over twice as many as there are Southern Baptist, and about three times as many as there are United Methodist.

The point is? The body of Christ is quite large indeed.

Been wanting to go to Lake Tana and visit the monasteries 

as well as various other sites/pilgrimages such as:

Abuna Yemata Guh

(Ethiopias chapel in the sky, aka the worlds most dangerous church)

as well.

As well as the:

Church of Saint George, Lalibela

and numerous other sacred places as well.

Interesting facts about the 

Ethiopian Orthodox Tewahedo Church, it

 "is the largest Oriental Orthodox church. One of the few Christian churches in sub-Saharan Africa originating before European colonization of the continent, the Ethiopian Orthodox Tewahedo Church dates back centuries"

It is a founding member of the World Council of Churches. The Ethiopian Orthodox Tewahedo Church is in communion with the other Oriental Orthodox churches, the Eritrean Orthodox Tewahedo Church, the Coptic Orthodox Church of Alexandria, the Malankara Orthodox Syrian Church, the Armenian Apostolic Church and the Syriac Orthodox Church.

The Ethiopian Orthodox Tewahedo Church had been administratively part of the Coptic Orthodox Church of Alexandria from the first half of the 4th century until 1959, when it was granted autocephaly with its own patriarch by Saint Pope Cyril VI of Alexandria, Pope of the Coptic Orthodox Church of Alexandria."

Ethiopian Orthodox Tewahedo Church

There's one in Louisville close by where my stepmother lives, and I've always wanted to go. You'd have to wear a head dress and sit on the side of the church reserved for females I do believe. Nicholas would like to go with us as well I'm pretty sure.

And thats the cross like I would like to have, but a smaller version of to wear as a necklace...yup...Been wanting one a long time but it needs be bought from a local craftsman in...guess where? Yup, Ethiopia.

I got a feeling well find something suitable for me to wear :-).

One of the points I am just gonna absolutely hammer away on when the time comes is this:

Deep south, red meat, open carry, pro life (so they say), white, evangelical "Christians" do not own the entire body of Christ. We never have and we never will. For that matter, no one denomination ever has or ever will.

Isaiah 54:2

“Enlarge the site of your tent, stretch out the curtains of your dwellings, do not hold back. Lengthen your ropes and drive your stakes in deep."

Time has come...

Its here.

I love you honey :-).

Morning

 

my sunshine.

I love you honey :-).

Got a new lil bit of slang goes like this :-).

"Grand rising massive"

Grand rising...as in great to get up again today...and massive...as in abundance is my mindset, when it's great to get up today :-)

I love you honey and yes I know where you're hanging out :-).

hehe yourself BTW

Pretty obvious my love.

Yall

 

must really be busy here lately honey :-).

Going back home gonna try and stay warm :-).

I love you.

Oh yeah...

 Revelation 6:17

For the great day of his wrath is come; and who shall be able to stand?

Luke 21:36

Watch ye therefore, and pray always, that ye may be accounted worthy to escape all these things that shall come to pass, and to stand before the Son of man.

Matthew 24:22

And except those days should be shortened, there should no flesh be saved: but for the elect's sake those days shall be shortened.

Definitely post tribulation.

"Who shall be able to stand his wrath?" Only the elect and only by his mercy will the days of tribulation be cut short to save them. I've been trying to tell everybody, I've been living as an example of the faith and determination that will be needed to be counted among the elect (it's really not that many people) when the time comes, otherwise it's all been for no good reason and that's just not the case so...pray always, that ye may be accounted worthy

Matthew 3:12

"His winnowing fork is in His hand to clear His threshing floor and to gather His wheat into the barn; but He will burn up the chaff with unquenchable fire.”

Exactly how are we to expect that the wheat will be separated from the chaff if there is no testing period (Tribulation) to see who is to be counted worthy?

Nominal, in name only Christians who have never experienced a day of hardship in their lives are gonna be in for a shock. They will fall in an instant. (Not to mention they make me wanna vomit)

Mathew 13:3-9, 20-21.

Then he told them many things in parables, saying: “A farmer went out to sow his seed. As he was scattering the seed, some fell along the path, and the birds came and ate it up. Some fell on rocky places, where it did not have much soil. It sprang up quickly, because the soil was shallow. But when the sun came up, the plants were scorched, and they withered because they had no root. Other seed fell among thorns, which grew up and choked the plants. Still other seed fell on good soil, where it produced a crop—a hundred, sixty or thirty times what was sown. Whoever has ears, let them hear.”

The seed falling on rocky ground refers to someone who hears the word and at once receives it with joy. But since they have no root, they last only a short time. When trouble or persecution comes because of the word, they quickly fall away.

By the droves when the time comes honey...

Seriously

 

Can we try something else for a change?

:-).

It's just like George Clinton says...

Even the greatest stroke in the world gets old after a while honey :-). 

Time to change it up babygurl.

There

 

most certainly is :-).

Oh

 

somebody gonna take care that lil attitude you got :-).

Yup...

Kinda

 

hard to deny what we have lived would be my argument.

Feels...

last night...

"One Step Up"

Woke up this morning, the house was cold

Checked out the furnace, she wasn't burnin'

Went out and hopped in my old Ford

Hit the engine but she ain't turnin'

We've given each other some hard lessons lately

But we ain't learnin'

We're the same sad story, that's a fact

One step up and two steps back

Bird on a wire outside my motel room

But he ain't singin'

Girl in white outside a church in June

But the church bells, they ain't ringing

I'm sittin' here in this bar tonight

But all I'm thinkin' is

I'm the same old story, same old act

One step up and two steps back

It's the same thing night on night

Who's wrong, baby? Who's right?

Another fight and I slam the door on

Another battle in our dirty little war

When I look at myself I don't see

The man I wanted to be

Somewhere along the line I slipped off track

I'm caught movin' one step up and two steps back

There's a girl across the bar

I get the message she's sendin'

Mmm she ain't lookin' too married

And me, well, honey I'm pretending

Last night I dreamed I held you in my arms

The music was never-ending

We danced as the evening sky faded to black

One step up and two steps back

One step up and two steps back

One step up and two steps back

Just gets tiring taking steps backwards all the time...

I told you a while back...

The very thing people love about me, strong faith etc...are the things that drive me the most nuts...

I'm not sad honey, I know whats up and all is going to be okay etc...

And, "Checked out the furnace, she wasn't burnin'", what furnace :-)?

And, the Nissan will turn over 

"Went out and hopped in my old Ford

Hit the engine but she ain't turnin'"

Just not enough gas to go anywhere...which my intuition/discernment seems to say is be by design :-)

"And me, well, honey I'm pretending..."

Been pretending you're my wife from the day I met you honey :-)

"Last night I dreamed I held you in my arms

The music was never-ending...'

I imagined I was tucking you in bed the other night, I was gonna stay up and work on some things :-). Billie Holiday was playing softly in the background :-). You were smiling :-).

Just...wanted to hear this song last night and didn't have it in my collection. I know, hard to believe I didnt have a Springsteen song in my collection :-). Not his greatest record, follow up to Born in the USA etc...

We will slow dance to it...promise...

I love you honey, tell everybody I said thx for all what they are doing and have done :-). Crew, New Chapel church members, Buddy, his wife etc...

Sorry Im such a grumbeler and not a very good servant at times...Emotions just way intense RN.

I told everyone a while back, the two most powerful people on the face of the earth since the Old Testament times are about to join forces...

Sent here to fortify the faithful, announce the start of the end of an age, bring others into a wider tent (Isaiah 54) etc.

I'm so proud of my church family honey.

Pastor Bridgette and Sue really knocked it out of the park last Sunday.

So glad to be a church member with other forward looking/thinking "Kingdom people" who are more than willing to subjugate their will for Gods greater glory. They were my family when I didnt have one. Eternally grateful, always. And Brother Joe and Brother Brian and so many others along the way...

Rambelin I know...I just love you is all :-)

And

 

I like green beans BTW :-). 

Slow simmered in bacon grease with pieces of ham or bacon. 

Yup...

Like cake too :-).

Just

 

how in the world is it...

that every time I walk in the door at Lewisport UMC to say hello to my buddy their secretary...

Somebody is texting almost immediately thereafter?

And how was it she seemed to know that I didn't have enough gas to make it to my buddys today? How was that possible?

Discerning minds wanna know honey :-).

Yall killin me...

Literaly...

and slowly at that :-).

No more insurance after today. Yea me! 

Like I couldn't see that one a comin :-).

Like I care.

Like I said yesterday, bigger fish to fry than insurance on a 20 year old truck I can no longer afford to operate.

Stayed warm last night...warmer weather comin too so thats all good.

I still wanna know who all the people were standing around out back of Lewisport UMC last Sunday evening. That's what I wanna know honey:-).

I love you baby :-).

Morning

 

my sunshine, my queen.

I love you honey :-).

Missed

 

you every day for a long time now...

and I'm just going a lil nuts with everything thats going on all around me...

I love you.

TTYS.

I

 

think its pretty obvious that somebody has had their meeting with a pastor 

and that the meeting had to be done without me present in order for us to conduct things in the manner in which we wanted...Yup.

Ready fucking die...had enough about eight and a half years ago...

Truth.

Oh

 

and I figure out what I am last night...

A  postribulation, premillennialist Calvinistic Wesleyan whose views on Hermeneutics places me squarely in-between the literal and the metaphorical. It's just...what a lot of people take as allegory or metaphorical I take as literal and what a lot of people take as literal I take as metaphorical. Yup...There ya go, go chew on that one for a minute.

I

 

know :-).

Just having a hard time catching my breath from time to time, heart racing a lot etc...

It's

 

kinda what people don't understand or just aren't getting :-).

Psalm 118:5-8

When hard pressed, I cried to the Lord;

    he brought me into a spacious place.

The Lord is with me; I will not be afraid.

    What can mere mortals do to me?

The Lord is with me; he is my helper.

    I look in triumph on my enemies.

It is better to take refuge in the Lord

    than to trust in humans.

And

 

this is a lil bit more how I would prefer things to be 24/7:-).

Pretty sure Ive used that picture before yup...

For the people that dont know, when the lioness stays close to under the Lions neck? Its to protect his jugular, his most vulnerable area.

I love you honey.

I

 

was thinking more like the scene in the nightclub where he says:

Tony Montana:

"Hey, coño, what is your problem? You got a problem? You're good-looking, you got a beautiful body, beautiful legs, beautiful face, all these guys in love with you. Only you got a look in your eye like you haven't..."

I know you know the rest :-).

Dont

 

even get me started about Freddie King.

One way or another I will be 

Yup. :-).

Take your pick :-).

I think I know which way you would prefer :-).

Yup...me too

Oh

 

and you are up early checking on things today :-).

Morning My sunshine :-).

So true...

Id rather stay in a cold garage eating trashy food than deal with most people...yup...

Just seems like a better alternative most days.

Y'all

 

are killing me honey.

Like I care about a 20 year old truck or insurance at this point.

I know you're here. I can just feel/sense the intensity rising. It's just way to much for everything to be status quo. I could practically feel your eyes watching me as I walked to Lewisport UMC yesterday.

And yes definitely a coordinated attack yesterday.

I had no more than walked in the door and somebody was doubling down on youth, Loucon, Covid etc. I had just wrote that post a few minutes before, so somebody is definitely watching wats being posted well before it shows up in page views etc. I mean it kinda tipped your hand so to speak...yup...sure did.

And then I get to buddy's and he wasn't there of course. Go figure right? So hard to figure what that's all about :-).  I don't know if I am going to go to buddy's today or not. Maybe tomorrow. Like I say I really don't care about the truck or insurance anymore (Lord knows youre the only one that does :-) So what real difference does it make any more? Might as well stay warm at the library and go back home and eat some more garbage. Hope everybody is enjoying the show :-). Careful checking your email today BTW. No telling :-).

Has been from day one.

Is.

Will be for eternity.

Morning

 

Knucklehead.

I love you my Sunshine :-).

My Queen.

My everything.

Oh

 

its happening alright :-). 

Im going to go home and try and stay warm.

ps. yall aint foolin me.

Yup...

 

Give

 

me some internet woman :-). 

I know you love that so much :-). 

If I'm going to cold broke and hungry at least let me read my last few days :-).

Feels:

Oh

 

were already way past there and our adversaries know it.

How to lose the next war: Ignore the supply chain

"The consequences of overreliance on foreign vessels are now rippling across our nation, as American agricultural and manufacturing exports are stymied in port, while foreign vessels take empty containers back to Asia for the next haul."

They leave emptyhanded and go back to get more goods from Asia because there's more $ to be made shipping things from Asia to the US than vice versa. This is where all the right wing reactionary red meat worshiping at the alter of the free market was inevitably going to wind up. Apparently it's only okay to let the "free market" decide prices as long as it's the US free market doing the deciding and we are nowhere near out of this mess yet.

Chickens come home to roost anybody?

62

 

passages of scripture, 

113 verses, 

four to six parts depending on how you section it up. 

Over two years in the making. 

Better hurry up or well have the whole Bible in our ceremony honey :-).

Just really trying to stay calm.

Done the freak out thing enough.

Only freaking out I wanna do any more is when I see you :-).

Yall

 

are so busy, it's so obvious honey :-).

Ready yo...

Oh

 

its gonna be way worse than that believe me.

Did

 

I mention how much I love living in a cage and being tracked like an animal?

Lil obvious honey. The charade continues. I'm not doing this tomorrow. I'll take the bike to the barbershop. Yall done pushed a good man past his breaking point a few to many times. 

Buddy wasn't home so there's 8 miles I could have used else where down the drain, butt whatever.

I did find some old power steering fluid of mine that seems to have helped and the oil level in the truck is fine so there's a couple good things that happened at least.

Of course it has to be the coldest nights of the year this week along with no $ and the food I have makes me wanna vomit just looking at it. Cream style corn with ramen. Yum. Bout threw up the first bite I took.

Philippians 4:11-13

I am not saying this out of need, for I have learned to be content regardless of my circumstances. I know how to live humbly, and I know how to abound. I am accustomed to any and every situation— to being filled and being hungry, to having plenty and having need. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength...

"I have learned to be content regardless of my circumstances"

It's harder than anyone could ever imagine. Didn't really wanna be back here again.

"...thy will be done on earth as it is in Heaven."

Going

 

to buddys. 

Wish me luck.

Just no sense in this anymore honey.

I love you baby.

And

 

why do all you IG post seem dated these days?

I love you honey.

Just

wondering a few things honey...

Cause you know, discerning minds wanna know.

What did our preacher mean when she said next Sunday (The Sunday I gave the message and she was on her retreat) is a big week for our church?

How is it possible that I know, way more than those in attendance heard/saw the message on the "Evolution of a prayer"?

Why did a friend of mine seem to know I was going to be able to tell my story from New Chapel UMC? (And seemed a lil envious as well?)

Why did our Bishop email me about seminars out of the blue for no apparent reason?

Why is the telecom putting in fiber/data lines in front of our church?

Who were all the people standing around out back of Lewisport UMC last Sunday evening? When there was no youth group meeting because there is no youth group to speak of any more at Lewisport UMC?

The thing that angers me the most is people thinking I don't know what I do and it's so obviously right in front of me. Unlike others I have ears that hear and eyes that see, people should know this by now.

Why are there sets of darts at the barbershop lying on the table in plain sight? Who wants me to see them and infer what's being referenced?

The main thing that kills me is, why is it so imperative, that a truck that is barely functional and that I can no longer afford to operate, be kept running? There's not but one person in this world that wants that truck to be kept running and it's not me or my buddy. You want it running? Fine, then you foot the bill for the insurance for the next six months/gas etc. As far as I am concerned the damn thing can blow up or end up in the river at this point. Tired of dealing with it every time I turn around, tired of looking at it, tired of seeing it anymore, its simply not worth the aggravation at this point. (I could mention something else that's fastly not becoming worth the aggravation anymore but I'm trying to be nice, polite, hold my temper in check etc) Its just another issue I shouldn't have to be dealing with at this point (The truck). I'll go throw myself on the mercy of my buddy and see what happens I guess. He's bound to be getting about as sick of this nonsense as I am by now. Leaving out of here on a plane but I can't pay insurance on a 20 year old truck. Welcome to the absurdity that is my life. I keep telling everybody I had enough years ago...nobody listens...Throw in the fact that others are jealous of me/us for having the very things we dont really care anything about (with the exception of the 48) and the cherry on top is all the people that want what were gonna have wouldn't have made it a week in our shoes and I think you can sense the frustration/aggravation that has set in at this point...Kafkaesque would be dialing it down a few notches. WOD BTW, Kafkaesque.

On the flip side? Maybe there's a good reason I am now in possession of my truck that I can't pay the insurance on and I hardly have any gas in etc...Also? I was motivated enough  to work on my twenty minutes last night for the first time in a while, it always evolves but I can tell its just about finished. 49 passages of scripture, 89 verses, six parts if you include the Intro and the question and answer sections.

How bout we say the heck with it and ride off like true outlaws with an expired lic and no insurance? Lord knows it wouldn't be my first time. Probably wouldn't be the last either at this rate.

Know what the difference is between being in a hole that's just deep enough to not be able to get out of anymore and one that's a half mile deep? Absolutely nothing, you can't get out of either, so what's the difference really?

Growing really tired of hanging on honey.

I love you baby.

Morning

 

my sunshine.

I love you baby.

Hope you're doing well.

Just

 

want my mind to be able to take a break.

Six years in flight or fight mode have taken a heavy toll honey.

Just

 

wishing you hadn't done some things in the manner you choose to do so here of late.

I'm sure you can say the same about me.

The difference is this: I don't feel like I put your health at risk but I feel like you currently are mine and its not appreciated and there is just no sense in it.

I feel like I am suffering so that you and your minions can perpetuate a charade that has lost all legitimacy at this point.

It's beyond ridiculous.

I love you.

It's killing me.

Butt I love you.

Another WOD BTW.

cha·rade

/SHəˈrād/

noun

an absurd pretense intended to create a pleasant or respectable appearance.

"talk of unity was nothing more than a charade"

Similar:

farce

pantomime

travesty

mockery

parody

pretense

act

masquerade

sham

fake

false display

show

front

facade

simulacrum

Its

 

still your army picture on my contacts list BTW.

Yup

 

Said

 

it a long time ago.

Said it a lot. 

Meant it every time.

Always will.

Yup

 

It's why I'm a lil off kilter (WOD BTW) these days honey.

It's

 

neither.

It's knowing that in spite of myself she chooses to give me the greatest company/friendship any man could ever hope to have.

Arnold

 

"History of Methodism in Kentucky"

p. 165

"Methodism has been the broadest and most irenic of the denominations. Their emphasis has always been upon Christian experience and godly living, and they have put little stress upon the rites and forms that are merely incidental to Christianity. We have been willing "to think and let think" and to accord to each person liberty of conscience in these incidental matters. But narrowness and bigotry have not been content to let us alone in the exercise of our liberal views upon these matters, and time and time again we have been  under the necessity of defending ourselves against the onslaught of those holding  less liberal positions." 

The more things change, etc...

I

   

was pretty sure it had red jet engines on it :-).

:-).

I

 

miss you bad honey.

I woke up after the strangest dream.

"I  walked in the place where I was living (not my current residence) and there was water all over the floor in the hallway. (Interesting, water :-) Apparently the freezer had kicked off and defrosted. I walked through a door (Rev 3:7) and into what seemed to be a gymnasium and there you sat...with my mom...yeah I know, go figure right?

And she had a piece of paper and she said very scornfully, "This is a list of every woman you've ever dated and the times during which you dated them" and she went on to point at you and said, "This is the last one and I really don't like her" And I said, "I know you don't, I've always known you don't and I know you know I don't care what you think about it either, I am an old man and your approval is not needed or wanted" And she got up and walked out and you sat there legs crossed in your casual clothes and just smiled. And I asked how you were doing and you said "fine" butt not in that sarcastic womanly kinda "fine" but an honest to goodness I'm doing well kinda way and you had a smile about you that seemed to say, I'm as happy as I have ever been. And you told me something to the effect of, "I know you know I've been messing with you just to see if you'll ever leave me and you've proven to me that you won't...ever... I've tried more than I could ever imagine to run you off yet you still profess your  undying love for me, it's time we did something about that...:-)" Something along those lines, I'm paraphrasing, you know how it is when you wake up from a dream state and your thoughts are a lil disjointed etc. It was like we were in the YMCA recreation room with basketball hoops everywhere and a few folding chairs and we walked over to check out a basketball to play a few games of horse and as we were walking to the goal with our ball you bounced it off my butt and said, "I know you know I love you." And I just looked at you back, smiled and said "Yeah, I knew you did the second I saw you" and you blushed and we were both thinking its time we make it official and I woke up as rested and feeling better than I have in a very long time."

End of dream BTW :-)

I don't know what's going to much any more or when our miracle is gonna take place, (thinking that's a lil by design BTW:-) but I do know it's not an accident the floors at my lil country church are looking so beautiful and the telecom looks to be like they are running fiber in the front of the church as well.

I know I'm a handful as are you honey, I'm sorry I get so tired of crappy food and huddling by a space heater to stay warm when I go home for the evening, and I largely take out my frustrations on you via emails you dont bother to respond to, (not that I blame you :-) but I made a promise to you and to  myself, that I would do whatever it takes, however long it takes and I'm just not the kinda guy that breaks his promise, even if it kills me in the process. Lord knows I've died a few times already, count yesterday evening among them.

The preachers message

"A man on a mission"

 yesterday was on:

Luke 4:14-20

Jesus Rejected at Nazareth

Jesus returned to Galilee in the power of the Spirit, and news about him spread through the whole countryside. He was teaching in their synagogues, and everyone praised him.

He went to Nazareth, where he had been brought up, and on the Sabbath day he went into the synagogue, as was his custom. He stood up to read, and the scroll of the prophet Isaiah was handed to him. Unrolling it, he found the place where it is written:

“The Spirit of the Lord is on me,

    because he has anointed me

    to proclaim good news to the poor.

He has sent me to proclaim freedom for the prisoners

    and recovery of sight for the blind,

to set the oppressed free,

 to proclaim the year of the Lord’s favor.”

Then he rolled up the scroll, gave it back to the attendant and sat down. The eyes of everyone in the synagogue were fastened on him. He began by saying to them, “Today this scripture is fulfilled in your hearing.”

More than a few times I've sat at my church receiving the message and thought to myself, "How do you ministers know what is about to unfold here at this location in the very near future?" Not only the title of the message but even the Children's moment was on point as well. The Parable of the vineyard workers, God's not fair he's just, which I had to point out had been on my mind all week, ever since leaving church the Sunday before. In particular:

Matthew 20:15-16

Don’t I have the right to do what I want with my own money? Or are you envious because I am generous?’ “So the last will be first, and the first will be last.”

I told Pastor Bridgette after the sermon that I didn't just have 60 or so revelations :-) jotted down on four and a half legal pages to share with others from the Holy Ground that is New Chapel UMC but that those revelations were merely part of a six or seven part series, which have a six part introduction as well, part of which I shared last week with a message entitled "The evolution of a prayer", which kinda got things all out of order, puzzle pieces, go figure :-). I'm not even gonna bother getting started with the Widow at Zarephath, or Naaman the Syrian except to say they are included in the series.

I know I'm rambling, the point I'm trying to make is this: As Christians? we are called to be as Christlike as we possibly can. Those verses? (Luke 4:14-20)  are in a message I'll give with you by my side. Christ wasn't the least bit popular going into the temple at his hometown and proclaiming the prophecy in Isaiah as being fulfilled. In fact he was ran out of town for doing so. (See Luke 4: verses 28 and 29). These verses are included for a reason, Gods not gonna send you a miracle, (his messengers) to announce who they are and what the age is we are entering into without them announcing as such on Holy Ground. We will be reviled, rejected, persecuted and hated for doing so. My argument is simply this...were in great company. (see above)

ps I'm not going anywhere honey. I'll be right here to do what we need to do. You and your minions can rest easy about that, you could also make it a lil bit less stressful on me as well :-). It would be greatly appreciated.

I listened to a guys sermon last night I had downloaded sometime previous and he said, "Nothing on this earth can satisfy you once you've received him unto you." I wished people understood that, I really do. I'll probably walk into our home you've established for us just like in proverbs 31:10-31 and you'll be expecting me to be amazed by it all and I'll probably say something like, "It's really nice honey thank you so much...BTW, wheres the crapper?" Just try not to take it personal...wealth and material things just don't really impress me, never really have. And yes I know its a big reason you love me so.

I love you baby. So pack up a trunk full of Honey Birdette and Let's Go!

Meanwhile? Like I said last Sunday near the close of my message:

"Thy Kingdom come, Thy will be done."

Not mine

I love you and I miss you bad, real bad, everyday since you left...years ago.

I'll die loving you, if thats what it takes to show the world my undying love for you.