I have

Matthew 5:15-16

"Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. 

Instead they put it on its stand, 

and it gives light to everyone in the house. 

In the same way, 

let your light shine before others, 

that they may see your good deeds 

and glorify your Father in heaven."

absolutely no intention,

of ever

turning it down,

so that others 

may feel more comfortable

with themselves.

If we are too bright?

Buy some sunglasses.

Turn away.

Go away.

Do what ever you gotta do.

But this light is gonna shine.

Period.

I'm done shrinking back.

Holding back etc.

Time to share with the world.

Us.

Our story.

What we've lived.

What I've lived etc.

I don't care who doesn't believe me.

Preachers, others, nobody etc.

Doesn't matter.

NOW TESTIFY!

All

I ever wanted for Christmas since I met you?

Was you.

I love you honey.

"You

need to work"

=

"You need to conform to my accepted standard 

of how the world should work for you."

Yeah...uhhhh, no thanks.

Explained all that already.

How dare you do things your way and have it work out 

seems to be the underlying message.

Newsflash

You don't have to know where youre going.

To end up where youre supposed to be.

"I don't know where I'm going,

I don't know what I need,

But I'll get to where I'm gonna end up,

And that's alright by me."

Watch us.

I love you Lucy.

"You

have to work."

Really?

Why?

How much more money I gotta make?

How many more homes we gotta pay off for people?

How many more kids we gotta put through school?

Like I need to hear this shit in my life any more.

Things

I don't ever wanna hear one word about,

ever:

The S spent on:

The 48.

I don't care I spend enough to buy 

a brand new one.

This one ends up looking like I want.

The fat boy.

(See above)

The KY Bourbon collection.

(Even if I never even sample all of them, 

it will just go at auction someday anyway, for more than I paid for it.)

Ganja.

Period.

I get to be me honey.

I love you baby.

Word

of the day.

Transmogrify 

verb

trans·​mog·​ri·​fy 

transmogrified; 

transmogrifying

Definition of transmogrify:

Transitive verb

To change or alter greatly and often 

with grotesque or humorous effect

intransitive verb

: to become transmogrified

As in, Donald Trump,

transmogrified, 

into a corruption fighter.

71%

Honey.

I'm gonna charge the phone all the way up 

and then go get something to eat and text.

:-).

I love you baby.

Revelation 7:1

We've ceded political leadership of the middle east.

Just absolutely gave it to Russia.

(Syrian decisions)

And now?

Were gonna loose influence in Europe.

As well as a market for our LNG.

U.S. Concedes Defeat on Nord Stream 2 Pipeline, Officials Say

They are laying the last few miles of the pipeline right now.

In the next few months they will be making connections and testing.

Making money.

Denying you a market for your commodities.

Further stresses NATO.

Revelation 7:1

"After this I saw four angels standing at the four corners of the earth, 

holding back its four winds 

so that no wind would blow on land or sea or on any tree."

The winds = a time of turbulence.

The four winds are:

US

Russia

China 

And radical Islam.

When the four winds are equal in strength?

The angels stop holding them back and unleash them.

Revelation 16:16 

And he gathered them together 

into a place called in the Hebrew tongue 

Armageddon.

Were watching the leveling out process unfold right in front of us.

The

KY Bourbon Wish 

list continues to grow.

Longer it goes on?

Bigger it gets.

Just the way it works honey.

In fact?

It's not a wish list any more.

It's the, 

"It's about to happen" list.

In fact?

It should be called the:

"Going to wherever the fuck I want
and getting whatever I choose list"

 at this point 

:-).

115 Proof?

Oh hell yeah.

To be "Bottled in Bond" 

a bourbon must be crafted: 

by one distiller 

at a single distillery 

and crafted over one single distillation season.

If it's from KY?

And it's Bottled in Bond?

You won't be disappointed.

Barrel proof?

And it's a "wheater?"

Oh hell yeah..

Always heard good things.

See the note about Bottled in Bond" earlier.

And again one more time for good measure.

"To be labeled as bottled-in-bond or bonded, 

the liquor must be:

 the product of one distillation season 

(January–June or July–December) 

by one distiller 

at one distillery. 

It must have been aged in a federally bonded warehouse 

under U.S. government supervision 

for at least four years 

(Most are 6-8 seems like) 

and bottled at 100 (U.S.) proof 

(50% alcohol by volume). 

The bottled product's label must identify 

the distillery where it was distilled

 and, if different, 

where it was bottled.

Only spirits produced in the United States may be designated as bonded.

Some consumers consider the term to be an endorsement of quality,

(Yep)

 while many producers consider it archaic and do not use it.

However, because bottled-in-bond whiskey must be the product of one distillation season, 

one distillery, and one distiller – whereas ordinary straight whiskey may be a product of the mingling of straight whiskeys (of the same grain type) with differing ages and producers within a single state – it may be regarded as a better indication of the distiller's skill, 

making it similar in concept to a single malt whisky, 

(The only kind I ever liked)

 small batch whiskey,

(Yep)

 or single barrel whiskey. 

(Works as well)

Bonded whiskeys are also valued for their higher-than-usual alcohol content (100 proof rather than the more typical 80–90 proof), 

(Nah...Really? Who knew?)

 as this means the product contains a less diluted spirit, 

typically corresponding to more flavor.

(Yeppers, works).

Bottled in bond

Were up to 20 bottles now BTW.

I love you lucy.

Just

want my baby.

Charging phone honey.

TTYS

And

for the love of God,

knock off this fake polish girl crisis drama bull shit 

that I don't even know what you are talking about.

Thank you.

I love you.

TTYS.

And

Dear future mother in law:

(or anybody else that wants to know):

I smoke ganja.

I have since I was 12 years old.

I'm never gonna stop.

So either you can tell your mom Virgie.

Or I can.

Or she can walk in the house in the middle of the afternoon 

and find me doing bong rips.

But I am never hiding shit in my own residence ever again.

Just thought you might want to know.

I love you honey.

Feel

like you're pushing just to see how much I'll take right at the very end and I'm telling you

I've taken more than I ever should have already and you're not listening to me.

You

said the other day, that blowing up like I did Saturday:

"No helps us."

Well?

You know what else 

"No helps us."?

Moving the fucking goal post for seven years.

I love you Lucy.

Relax honey.

I'll try to as well.

Honey?

I just want my wife.

Lived it yo.

“The problem is that the quality of the stock of jobs 

on offer has been deteriorating for the last 30 years,” 

Well no shit.

Understanding The U.S. Economy: Lots Of Rotten Jobs

If Unemployment Is So Low, Why Don’t Wages Go Up?

"Economists have long wondered: if unemployment is so low, 

why aren’t we seeing more rapid wage increases?"

Cause greedy bastards are running the show.

Duh.

The progressive wing of the democratic party is right.

The system is rigged.

Why Is Participation In The Workforce So Low?

"Another perennial debate among economists is: why is participation in the workforce so low? Tens of millions of working-aged Americans are still not formally employed and have no apparent interest in sending out a resume."

"Workers don’t re-enter the workforce because many of the the jobs themselves are rotten."

Count me among them.

I'm gonna work your shity job with some jerk as a manager and still fall behind?

Fuck your system.

I'll figure out something else.

I hear that Waffle House ion Fla is still hiring Lucy.

:-).

Weren’t Manufacturing Jobs Replaced By Other Jobs?

“Lost manufacturing jobs were chiefly replaced by lower-wage/lower-hours service jobs.”

Duh.

Where the fuck these people been?

Why Didn’t High Tech Save the U.S. Economy?

"With other countries targeting what they see as high-value industries, the U.S. is not just in danger of, but actually has been, forced into greater reliance on low-value, low-growth industries, offering lower-wage, lower-hours jobs.”

What Do The New Jobs Actually Look Like?

“When all that a country has left is the domestic manufacture of processed foodstuffs,” concludes the JQI White Paper, “you end up with a lot of unhealthy and unwealthy workers who are in dire shortage of security, much less dignity. A republic that offers no better than this cannot long endure.”

You gotta be a rocket scientist to figure this shit out?

WTF?

I said this three years ago:

"How bout this?

These jobs aren't worth it.

They don't pay enough.

Why work for peanuts and barely get by and not have a life and basically be an indentured servant when you can do largely the same working lil odd jobs or hardly working at all?

You can work your whole life with these shitty ass jobs with nitwit ass kissin managers and you're never gonna have enough to retire on or put your kids through school.

So why even bother trying?"

Be glad you have a job

Trust me

I know the feeling.

Numbers 12:7

"not so with My servant Moses; he is faithful in all My house."

Matthew Henry Concise Commentary

Numbers 12:1-9 

The patience of Moses was tried in his own family, 

as well as by the people. 

The pretence was, that he had married a foreign wife; 

but probably their pride was hurt, 

and their envy stirred up, by his superior authority. 

Opposition from our near relations, and from religious friends, is most painful. 

But this is to be looked for, 

and it will be well if in such circumstances we can preserve the gentleness and meekness of Moses. 

Moses was thus fitted to the work he was called to. 

God not only cleared Moses, but praised him. 

Moses had the spirit of prophecy in a way which set him far above all other prophets; yet he that is least in the kingdom of heaven, is greater than he; and our Lord Jesus infinitely excels him, Heb 3:1. 

Let Miriam and Aaron consider whom it was they insulted. 

We have reason to be afraid of saying or doing any thing against the servants of God. 

And those are presumptuous indeed who are not afraid to speak evil of dignities, 2Pe 2:10. 

The removal of God's presence is the surest and saddest token of God's displeasure. 

Woe to us, if he depart! he never departs, till by sin and folly we drive him from us.

Hebrews 3:1 

Jesus Greater Than Moses

Therefore, holy brothers and sisters, who share in the heavenly calling, fix your thoughts on Jesus, whom we acknowledge as our apostle and high priest.

2 Peter 2:10 

This is especially true of those who follow the corrupt desire of the flesh[a] and despise authority.

Bold and arrogant, they are not afraid to heap abuse on celestial beings;

Your

country is being destroyed from the inside.

"Experts said the depiction of sources and vetting in the report 

could pose problems for the U.S.’ information sharing relationships, 

and undermine the FBI’s recruitment efforts."

'Questions about the Trump administration’s
willingness to declassify typically sensitive material
predated Barr and the IG report.

In February 2018, Trump cleared the release of the so-called “Nunes memo”
over the objections of his deputy attorney general at the time, Rod Rosenstein,
and FBI Director Chris Wray,
who argued that certain information in it should have been redacted."

Watchdog report a 'roadmap' for Russian spooks, intel vets say

Somebody

told me once:

"God doesn't want you to suffer."

O contraire.

Please allow me to retort.

Why Must I Suffer?

"Suffering is a part of our lives. Most people at one time or another experience physical illness. Hunger is frequently endured by a large percent of the world’s population. Poverty is widespread. Still others suffer at the hands of people, either in difficult marriages, or with abusive parents, or oppressive masters. As a result of greed and corruption, the political climate in some countries produces much bloodshed and war. Those with deep spiritual convictions have to suffer persecution because of their obedience to their beliefs. Millions of people around the world suffer daily. Why? What is the reason?

Suffering came into this world in the beginning because of sin. It is a continual reminder of man’s sinful condition (Genesis 3:16-19; Romans 5:12). Pain, trouble, and sorrow became an everyday part of man’s existence, because of his disobedience. Since sin is in this world, suffering is a part of life. We cannot, in this earthly life, expect to see the complete eradication of disease or the end of suffering. We are all subject to it regardless of status or nationality.

Many people suffer unnecessarily because they abuse their bodies, or do not take proper care of them. If we indulge in smoking, drinking, taking drugs, and intemperate living, we are making excessive demands on our bodies. Consequently, our bodies, and even our minds, may break down under these stresses. It is sin to abuse our bodies (1 Corinthians 3:16-17, 6:18-20).

There is much suffering, however, that comes upon the human race over which we have no control, and it comes unbidden to the rich and poor alike. No one, no matter how good a person he is, can be assured that he will be exempted. Job, the great example of suffering, was commended of God as a perfect and upright man. Consider the misery he suffered, losing his health, wealth, and family, and even his wife turned against him! God was glorified through his suffering, and He would like to be through yours. Read Job, chapter 1.

A person is not necessarily sick, blind, maimed, deaf, deformed, barren, etc., because he or his parents have sinned. At one time the disciples asked Jesus after meeting a blind man: “Master, who did sin, this man, or his parents, that he was born blind? (John 9:2). Jesus replied, “Neither hath this man sinned, nor his parents: but that the works of God should be made manifest in him” (v.3). Later, Jesus healed the man. In some cases the barren woman suffers unjustly. She is despised and rejected because of superstitions and cultural stigma. Her condition does not indicate a curse from God, and she need not despair. In this case, as well as in all requests to God, let us always remember that He knows what is best for us.  

God does not intend to punish, but would rather like to refine us through this type of suffering. Actually, we can gain spiritual enrichment through such experiences. Suffering brings out the “real” or inner man and reveals our makeup. Many have found that by accepting difficulties and troubles their hearts have become softened. The humility this brings opens our mind to our dependency on God and His purpose for us. Then we can understand that, through suffering and difficulties, He intends to draw us closer to Him. Joseph was sold as a slave by his own brothers. Rather than being bitter about this, he let God work in him. He filled a great place in God’s plan. Later he told his repentant brothers, “But as for you, ye thought evil against me; but God meant it unto good, to bring to pass, as it is this day, to save much people alive” (Genesis 50:20). He was blessed in his submission.

The suffering we experience tends to make us think about ourselves. We may feel alone in our problems and think no one understands. The burdens we have may seem greater than what others have to bear. It is easy to indulge in self-pity and become bitter, but the example of Joseph shows us how God can bless us as we submit to Him.

Rather than despairing, we can allow our suffering to be turned to the glory of God. Once we are resigned to our lot and can humbly say, “Lord, Thy will be done,” God can speak to us. There are many instances where people have thanked God for taking them through the valley of suffering because it has caused them to stop and think. They then realize there is more to life than to fulfill their own desires, pleasures, and pursuits. Many testify that they have found the Lord through suffering. Then, when they must face death, they can joyfully say with Paul, “Death is swallowed up in victory. The sting of death is sin; and the strength of sin is the law. But thanks be to God, which giveth us the victory through our Lord Jesus Christ” (1 Corinthians 15:54, 56-57).

Suffering will be the eternal lot of all those who reject Jesus (John 12:48). However, those who are willing to suffer for Jesus in this life will enjoy the rewards of eternity with no suffering at all (Revelation 21:4). By humbling ourselves to accept God’s way for us and repenting of our sins, our robes can be washed white in the blood of the Lamb. Those who are redeemed in this way can obtain the heavenly reward (Revelation 7:13-14).

Suffering would teach us to be more sympathetic to others. We may make little effort to visit or pray for the afflicted, until we have experienced suffering ourselves. “That we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God” (2 Corinthians 1:4).

Jesus, who once lived on this earth in a body like ours, understands us and our sufferings well. He can sympathize with us beyond the capacity of any human being. He knows our pain and our troubled heart. When Jesus witnessed the grief of His friends at the death of Lazarus, He was so touched in His heart that He groaned within Himself and wept (John 11:33-35). He gave Himself to suffering for the eternal salvation of humanity. If He, being the perfect Son of God, accepted this, then we should be willing to also endure affliction. True followers of God willingly accept adversity since they are servants of Him, who is their example. A vision of Jesus, His love, and His sacrifice, causes them to consider, “Why should we be spared suffering?”

Even though we may have to suffer extensively, we can find a rest in accepting what God has allowed to us. God is the Master Planner-with every trial He has promised to provide for our keeping. When the apostle Paul was able to accept his difficulty or handicap, he was able to be a happy and useful person. He prayed three times, asking God to remove the thorn from his flesh, but God answered, “My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness” (2 Corinthians 12:9). Similarly, as we completely surrender to God and accept our suffering, God’s strength sustains us. When we accept God’s plan for us in suffering, it brings forth an expression of thankfulness that blesses our hearts and witnesses to those around us."

Why Must I Suffer?

Genesis 50:20

“But as for you, ye thought evil against me; but God meant it unto good, to bring to pass, as it is this day, to save much people alive” 

Trust me.

That verse resonates with me.

A lot.

res·o·nance

/ˈrezənəns/

noun

1.

the quality in a sound of being deep, full, and reverberating.

"the resonance of his voice"

2.

PHYSICS

the reinforcement or prolongation of sound by reflection from a surface or by the synchronous vibration of a neighboring object.

Everything in the universe is vibrating.

You just can't see it, right Lucy?

"The burdens we have may seem greater than what others have to bear."

Reminded me of:

"Every man thinketh his

Burden is the heaviest (heaviest).

Every man thinketh his

Burden is the heaviest (heaviest).

Ya still mean it: Who feels it knows it, Lord;

Who feels it knows it, Lord;

Who feels it knows it, Lord;

Who feels it knows it, Lord."

I love you Lucy :-).