Okay

you get this instead

Bahahahahahahahahahaha

Nope

not good enough. 

Double digits or no deal lol.

Ready?

Got them lined up.

You know the drill.

The number were looking for in pageviews.

Double digits or no deal.

Terrified

would be more like it :-).

You

ever gonna marry me GF?

Make a boy wonder why don't ya :-)?

Thats a joke.

I'm kidding.

I know already.

I

have chosen you again and again :-).

I

love you.

It's been

a busy few days.

Calling it a night.

I love you.

I just

really needed an ear today and thank goodness Nicholas was a good one.

He knows what I battle.

He knows whats going on.

He knows this is all part of a journey.

I know yall talk.

It was obvious.

That wasn't my point.

I just needed someone to listen.

To not judge or criticize and he provided that.

He provided that in an exceptional manner. 

Nicholas

was flat out on point today on a variety of issues.

Talking to him was like talking to you.

Cause you know, that's never ever happened before.

:-).

Saturday December 22nd.

French Lick.

West Baden Springs.

My best guess these days :-).

We're

here to love and to serve.

As best we can.

That's what were here to do Lucy.

I

know this is just another segment of the journey.

I forget it sometimes because it's been so long.

But deep down inside I know it.

So do others around me.

It's obvious.

I

know this much.

There is no way I could have managed my own household, 

worked a full time job 

and taken care of things around here in the manner they have been taken care of. 

It just wouldn't have been possible.

It's the whole,

"The lord works in mysterious ways" 

thing happening right in front of us.

Funny how things work out sometimes.

Because

Me neither

Nicholas

is wiser than his years.

I told him I was sorry about the living arrangements with the house being what is is and all.

His response:

"It's okay, if that's what it took to get you healthy.

At least you're healthy that's the main thing."

I told him my main issue I battle is one minute I feel like I've lived this wonderful amazing life deserving to be a book or movie or both and then five minutes later I feel like the biggest fuck-up there ever was.

He said he could see that.

Said he finds it appalling that in America it's not considered successful for someone to move back home and help take care of their elders when all over the world every year millions of people move back home to do just that very thing.

Talking about stress and end-goals and transitional stages and etc.

He said what helps him is to keep his eyes on the end game.

That while he could get bogged down with this semesters course load he knows the end game is to graduate school or there wouldn't be a this semester course load to begin with.

That one really helped as I definitely feel like we are in a transitional stage right now.

(We got this, etc)

Breathing.

Talked about breathing, relaxing, just being.

Seems like I've heard that one before Lucy.

I love you Virgie.

You

do know everyone and their brother wants to meet you right?

You do know this.

:-)

"Here I raise my Ebenezer
Here there by Thy great help I've come
And I hope, by Thy good pleasure
Safely to arrive at home"

I

love you.