served up for me on the small of their back while they are on their knees or layin on their tummy or something :-P.
Monday, May 12, 2014
You're
going to have a step-son soon.
You sure you're alright with that?
He's something let me tell ya...
Can
a boy just not even buy a three tonight Lucy?
Damn girl.
"Fiesty, not just a lil bit, a lot."
Really?
I would have never guessed lol.
Honestly Lucy...
I mean those text sound fun and all
and I am sure if we want them to happen they will someday...
But right now?
I just wanna go for a walk...
hold your hand...
watch the sunset...
and talk all night...
Love you Virgie.
One's two's...
Wat is up wit up you these days Molly?
Upset with your breakup with Nich?
I'll be your rebound lol...
Like...
forever I will be...
You know I will...
You
are already a better mom to him than he has ever had.
Not just saying that, it's true.
We love you.
We're ready.
Say the word.
Oh...
two's...
I should be so honored lol...
"Everybody sees the "unseen" in proportion to the clarity of his Heart."
RUMI.
Really?
a one?
and no 1+?...
like that matters now?
lol...
Thats fine...
I'll take it down...
be watchin your phone for naughtiness comin your way lil Miss Thang...
I'll go with you if you want when you get her labeled lol...
even label my junk for ya if ya want.
Deal?
Try me.
all it takes is an address...
Im getting ready to leave...
I could go to your home instead.
Chickenshit.
Bahahahahahahaha
Purple...
of course...
why wouldn't it be purple?
we'll find a place
to call our own
it won't be long now
we're almost home
reflections of another time
reflections of another place
the light above
rained down its grace
it's here and now
this time is ours
this journey now
this road we're on
is where we belong
remember us
remember when
so long ago
when it was cold
deep in the woods
the autumn chill
hung in the air
we didn't care
this is our time
this is our place
it's not a dream
this love is real
i can feel it in
my heart can feel
it in my soul
this is where
we both belong
"Where We Belong" by Michael Traveler
Morning...
ornery ass...
I mean...
Beautiful...
Love you.
Looks like I'll be able to ride in today :-).
Proverbs 31:10,27-29
Proverbs 31:10,27-29 A truly good wife is the most precious treasure a man can find! She takes good care of her family and is never lazy. Her children praise her, and with great pride her husband says, “There are many good women, but you are the best!” (CEV)
Thats right...
Night...
You
are about to cause me to stroke the ever-livin fuck out over here...
sucks...
Hope you had a good mothers day...
Love you.
Night.
Sunday, May 11, 2014
Mom
and I...
Electric Sheep Bonfire night...
Great...like that we are both smiling and looking at one another...
Posted it on er FB page for mothers day...
RUMI
You have no idea how hard I've looked
for a gift to bring You.
Nothing seemed right.
What's the point of bringing gold to
the gold mine, or water to the ocean.
Everything I came up with was like
taking spices to the Orient.
It's no good giving my heart and my
soul because you already have these.
So I've brought you a mirror.
Look at yourself and remember me.
It never gets old...
purple...
go figure...
Happy Mothers Day...
You bout to be a step-mom there lil Miss Thang...
Just loosin my ever livin fucking mind over here
that all...
Other than that?
Not much happening...
All day everyday Dollbaby...
I
am always here Hotrod...
I just act like I aint sometimes...
and you already know all of this...
which begs the question...
why do we continue to do it?
Morning Beautiful...
I mean ornery ass...
Hung out with Christian last night for a bit.
Had a beer.
Funny to me how everybody is wanting me to go do something or hang out with them for a bit these days.
I'll have to take a day off to go to WC Handy the day Dave wants us to go.
He's never asked me to take a day off to go before.
Been two years since we have been.
Nicholas
was tripping all over my feet yesterday at Wal mart like he is 5 years
old again and just can't get close enough to me..."But I want us to go
do something...we never do anything..." he says :-).
Christian wanting to have a beer last night...
He aint asked me to come over in months...
almost like these people know something is about to change there Lucy.
Now how could that ever be?
For the life of me I just can't figure it out...
Love you sweetheart.
Pretty soon you're not going to have to worry about cuddling at 4 in the AM anymore...
ever...
all you will have to do is roll over and curl up...
all over me...
every last bit of all of you...
all over me...
What a ride...
What a story...
Love you...
Love you...
Night...
Nich to Skrillex...
James to Willie...
Dave to WC Handy, two nights..
Better hurry before I can't fit you in to my schedule...
Bahahahahahaha
Saturday, May 10, 2014
Of course
there are stars in the night silly...
why aren't we watching them is the question...
Nich has chilled...
I think I can figure out why he wanted all my attention and my time these days...
I told him I would take him to see Skrillex at Waterfront park on Memorial Day...
I think that beats the Owensboro BBQ fest all to pieces...
any way...
he seems a lot more chill...
Bout time...
Oh...and I have been informed I should have Al teach me how to clean a fish...
and Nich stated he doesn't have a problem with reversed gender roles...
now isn't that just...
interesting?
Love you.
Morning Ornery ass...
I mean beautiful...
Had a good morning...
till Nich starting being a whiny ass lil bitch lol...
he don't wanna be home...
I understand, he is here all the time...
I, on the other hand rarely get a chance to just sit around and enjoy my home...
I have a chance to do so today.
It's too wet to do any work.
If he wants to go somewhere with somebody I will gladly get him there and back.
I told him so much
His social life is not my fucking problem.
Thats his responsibility not mine.
I will not be made to feel guilty about it.
Ever.
Period.
Love you.
ttys.
Friday, May 9, 2014
And you may ask yourself...
"...And you may find yourself in a beautiful house, with a beautiful wife
And you may ask yourself
Well...How did I get here?..."
Saw 'em...
Nashville
Municipal Auditorium.
Love you.
Ornery ass...
Bring it...
"Seems like we have talked about tequila shots before lol..."
all you ever you is fuckin yap..
Bahahahahahaha
Ready?
Me?
I was ready the first time I ever saw ya Dollbaby...
Who else...
ever talk to you like this?
Let me see...
That would be nobody...
That's who...
Nobody that ever really meant it and was going to make sure it happened anyway...
Believe it.
"...I can handle it..."
You're gonna eat those words sweetheart, promise...
You just wait till that hot wax hits you at just the right moment...
We'll see who can handle what...
Bahahahahahaha
Wat?
Did you really think the good lord was gonna give ya someone who couldn't handle you or know how to handle success?
Really Lucy?
Please...
Tell me right now to come where you're at and watch what happens.
Tell me...I'll leave right now.
I'll call and tell Nicholas to get a ride to school.
I dare ya.
Chickenshit.
Should have known you couldn't handle a real man.
Bahahahahahaha
Night
Yoda...
Love you.
candle wax...
couch arms...
yoga pants...
sweet dreams Dollbaby...
Bahahahahahaha
Thursday, May 8, 2014
Well
it's nice to see something on here besides one's and twos :-)...
poor truck man...
it took a beatin' this past six months...
bout to not be driven much here before much longer.
Could have rode up this time if I would have looked at the forecast before walking out the door.
I almost turned around and walked back in to get one more look...but then I just went on.
Now I know I gotta get back in the grove, just assume I am riding and then make any changes to that plan at the last minute.
Fours and sixes
on dirty talk and
being married?
...
Sweet lol...
"...I was the king if the alley, mama I could talk some trash
I was the prince of the paupers crowned downtown at the beggar's bash
I was the pimp's main prophet I kept everythning cool
Just a backstreet gambler with the luck to lose..."
I was the prince of the paupers crowned downtown at the beggar's bash
I was the pimp's main prophet I kept everythning cool
Just a backstreet gambler with the luck to lose..."
Oh let me tell ya...
it aint just talk...
All
I care about is that Nicholas is my best man...
you walk to "Here comes my girl" by Tom Petty...
and we ride off on the bike...
at least for show...
suit, dress, everything...
Other than that?
However you wanna do it sweetheart, I really don't care.
You're
so in love with me it's ridiculous lol...
Nobody does this much work for a guy they are not just head over heals in love with :-).
Sucks about the truck...
remember that new engine I said I would have put in it?
may need that before much longer lol...
Why
don't you just bring all that love you got saved up on over to me?
How about we do that?
"Who ever she decides she is going to be with is gonna feel like they won the lottery."
Or something like that one of those "rules gurlz" friends of your said back in the POF days...
sweetheart...
I won the lottery when I met ya dollbabay :-p.
Oh...
tryin oh so hard not to talk to you like that till I can do it in person for real...
get it?
Oh so hard?
Bahahahahahahaha
"...Are you ready for..."
"...Are you ready for, ready for
A perfect storm, perfect storm..."
Have been for going on two years now...
"...Cause once you’re mine, once you’re mine
There’s no going back..."
Sweetie...there aint been no going back since I seen you comein down the stairs at Kindred...
aint you noticed?
Love it!
A LITTLE COMMON SENSE FROM AN OLD COWBOY ...
Your fences need to be horse-high, pig-tight and bull-strong.
Keep skunks and bankers at a distance.
Life is simpler when you plow around the stump.
A bumble bee is considerably faster than a John Deere tractor.
Words that soak into your ears are whispered… not yelled.
Meanness don’t jes’ happen overnight.
Forgive your enemies; it messes up their heads.
Do not corner something that you know is meaner than you.
It don’t take a very big person to carry a grudge.
You cannot unsay a cruel word.
Every path has a few puddles.
When you wallow with pigs, expect to get dirty.
The best sermons are lived, not preached.
Most of the stuff people worry about ain’t never gonna happen anyway.
Don’t judge folks by their relatives.
Remember that silence is sometimes the best answer.
Live a good, honorable life… Then when you get older and think back, you’ll enjoy it a second time.
Don ‘t interfere with somethin’ that ain’t bothering you none.
Timing has a lot to do with the outcome of a Rain dance.
If you find yourself in a hole, the first thing to do is stop diggin’.
Sometimes you get, and sometimes you get got.
The biggest troublemaker you’ll probably ever have to deal with, watches you from the mirror every mornin’.
Always drink upstream from the herd.
Good judgment comes from experience, and a lotta that comes from bad judgment.
Lettin’ the cat outta the bag is a whole lot easier than puttin’ it back in.
If you get to thinkin’ you’re a person of some influence, try orderin’ somebody else’s dog around..
Live simply. Love generously. Care deeply. Speak kindly. Leave the rest to God.
Don’t pick a fight with an old man. If he is too old to fight, he’ll just kill you.
Woke up
at 11:30, 12:30, 1:30 and finally at 2:30,
got a shower and took off to run errands...
phone was dead lol...
went to get oil changed...
well of course the truck is leaking oil now why wouldn't it be lol?
Mom wanted a rake for mothers day lol...
a rake...
Okay, went to walmart got her rake...
and a candle...
she is like me, she has all she needs, she don't want much of anything...
it's nice...
refreshing in today's world actually...
anyway got her gifts...
went to Harley store to get rain sock for air filter...
can't get over there tomorrow it's going to be raining...
can't go Saturday he has an all day job already scheduled so it will be next Tuesday before I can go get the work done...
When I was at Wal-Mart Janet called...
"You left early today."
"I had a lot of errands to do Janet, didn't know how long I was gonna be waiting on the Oil Change...Not enough hours in the day lots of times."
"Oh I know and I don't even work."
"I know, now think about working 90 miles away from home."
"I was hoping you would take the computer with you to work on it."
I just stood there in silence with the phone for a minute...
"Well I can grab it the next time I come up...Tuesday."
"Okay, that will be good, I can't do anything on it except my bank and google."
"Well you should be able to do anything you need if you can get to the Internet and get to Google." "Well it's not working, I'll let you look at it."
Now keep in mind when I wanted to take it with me, when I made the offer...
she said no...
now she wants me to do exactly what I wanted to do in the first place lol...
and she wonders why people don't wanna work with or help her...
It don't matter if I restore her user profile to exactly how it was before..
something will be my fault always is...
After 39 years?
I just get fucking tired of it but I know that's how it's gonna be...
whatever, I'll do what I can.
I told her there were no guarantees that I would be able to fix her old profile and that she may have to go back and enter in user names and passwords for all her accounts she uses.
She didn't like hearing that.
Oh well, it's the truth.
I haven't done desktop support in almost 5 years, use Windows 7 at work and that's about it.
It would have been a good weekend to work on it...
gonna be rainy, not much that can be done...
watch movies, get weed eaters, sleep, rest, Mothers Day etc...
I had a dream Hubert flew off the handle and was tearing shit up.
I was in the truck leaving.
She asked "Why is he doing this?"
I just looked at her and told her "You were warned." and drove off.
Sad dream really, hope it never goes down like that, but it wouldn't surprise me either.
I mean you just can not help people that don't wanna be helped it's just that simple.
Love you Virgie.
Lets build this life sweetheart.
I told you don't peak!
Don't blame me for waking you up.
You were already awake there numb nuts lol.
"Watch her walk..."
exactly...
I done told ya who I give a shit about being there.
10 people or 10,000 aint gonna make no difference to me.
I'm the same person regardless...
No wonder
you get so hot and bothered when somebody tells you what to do lol.
You don't have anybody in your life to tell you what to do.
This is really not all that uncommon of a situation people find themselves in sometimes, male or female.
Happens...
Whatever you want or need me to be sweetheart.
Need me to work?
Not a problem.
Used to it.
Want me to be a house mom and and clean?
No problem.
Need a chef?
I'm your guy.
Need a gardener?
I can do that too.
Tour guide?
Check.
Adventure planer?
Okay.
Romantic get away planner?
Okay.
Nature trail guide?
Check...
you name it...
what you want me to be and do I will be and do...
just as long as first and foremost...
you let me be myself...
which is?
Your husband.
Peace.
Interesting
what gets "three's" on here these days lol...
have the prenup ready and I'll be ther in two hours...
we can go get ink later in the day...
Wednesday, May 7, 2014
No wonder
your ears perked up when we walked by my truck for the first time and I said
"I'll put a new engine in it before I'll buy another one."
The next time we walked by it you asked "Didn't you say you would put a new engine in it before you would buy another one?"
and when we had dinner in the Courtyard I was talking about solitude and being alone sitting on the porch out in the country and I said "Your soul and your spirit needs these, like your body needs vitaim D."
it's all starting to make more sense...
Just don't make me suffer to much longer Lucy...
Heart has been through enough already...
Lady at church askin mom if she enjoyed her trip and telling her she had been somewhere she had never been and she would have to go sometime...
Mom acting like she didn't know what she was talking about...
lady askin me later if I was dating someone...
People please...
I can be dense...but I aint stupid...
no wonder you want somebody who is not afraid to take charge and make decisions...
you need the rest just as bad as I do...
Oh and I can plan some fun times sweetie, trust me when I tell ya I can.
Bahahahahahahahah
Don't
think for a moment I don't know Lucy...
James
"I couldn't have done it."
"Of course he is jealous, he said him and his wife haven't been any where by themselves in 10+ years..."
"Wanna go see Willie Nelson in Murray KY?"
Nich
" I wouldn't be worried about the check book balance..."
all under his breath with that lil smirk on his face.
"Your gonna be in Nashville and I am gonna be in New York."
That and a bunch of other stuff.
Tony
"Maybe you will move somewhere where they already have a big frig that will give you crushed ice from the door."
"That would make a good gift wouldn't it."
Christian
"Always stay like that with him." (Talking about making sure Nich pays his own car insurance.)
"and you better be there..." (talking about having a cook out after he gets situated with his house.)
Fawn
"I just want you to be happy."
Janet
I honestly believe the only reason she let Hubert move in is because she knows I am not going to be here much longer.
Yes she is and has almost always been that lonely.
Mom
"You have to chase your dreams, it doesn't matter what others say or think"
(She is stressing by the way, it shows, not to others mind you but to me.)
Al
Posting to my wall about fire pits from Lowes lol.
Dave
"When you are retired..."
(He knows I planned on working till I passed away.)
You
Silver Boot Keyring.
"Somebody to go to the theater with..."
Tons of other things.
Give me a break.
I will walk out of here right now and never look back Lucy.
RIGHT NOW!
Tell me to come.
I'll be there in two hours.
Watch me.
Promise.
You know what I am really looking forward to?
Going through the house and just getting rid of a bunch of crap that: I don't need, I don't like, I won't ever wear and I don't feel like moving...
My whole life I been preaching about it's just stuff...
yes, somethings I really like...bike, entertainment system etc...
I just hope I get the opportunity to show everyone...
They weren't just words.
I just wanna go room by room and grab what we want.
Leave the rest behind.
Leave the doors unlocked.
Tell everyone they can come get whatever they want.
Come back in a month and take the rest to the dump.
Watch us.
Love you.
I have periods of calm as I honestly believe I do know what is about to happen, and then the next minute, or day I am completely bonkers because I really don't know...
"It may be a small anxiety disorder..."
A phone number...lol
Why on earth did you ever think I was going to let you just walk away?
Don't answer.
Our minds get clouded sometimes.
Everybody's.
Best to clear the cobwebs from time to time.
Love you.
Cummins Falls State Park
Yeah...uh...
lets never go there okay?
Whatever we do let's make sure that never happens...
cause you know...
That would just be awful.
Well
you know what?
I'm glad somebody thinks I am perfect for them and all,
and I am glad that I could figure out the way I should go, sent to me from on high I do honestly believe.
I would gladly bore anybody to death that would listen to me as to why I believe all this...
But if somebody can't just put my mind at rest a lil bit?...
well...
it's just more taxing on my brain than I can handle sometimes Lucy that's all...
Pride is a sin?
What about selfishness?
Stubbornness?
What are they?
I love ya girl I really really do...
and I feel I was put here to be your husband...
I wish I never so much as kissed another...
but you gotta wrap this up or I ain't gonna have a penny to my name or an oz. of energy left in me by the time you're done at this rate...
I've been telling you.
For quite sometime now.
If that's the way it plays out?
Nobody to blame but yourself...
you were told...
over and over you were told...
They
are finally starting to get Christians house together.
They had it in the field and were starting to put it on the foundation when I left.
He said he had to write a letter to the Attorney Generals office to get them to finally make any movement on it.
Is that ridiculous or what?
My day turned a lil sour with our Dentist appointments yesterday.
Nich didn't want to be taken out of school early as it affects him being able to apply a score of 100 on the final of his choosing. Cause, you know, that makes sense right? Get to apply a score of 100 on one of your finals just for showing up and being there everyday? That's the way the real world works. Whatever, anyway, I called the Dentist office when I was picking him up at 2:30 and told them we would be there as soon as we could. The said okay. The whole point in making our appointments together is to not have to make separate trips to Owensboro. I think we got there at 3:20. I had the appointment down for 3:15 they must have had it down for 3:00. The first words out of the receptions mouth were "I don't know if they will be able to see you or not you are 20 minutes late." This is after I had already called and told them I was just leaving the high school. Anyway, they come back and say that Mary (our tech) can see one of us but not both. I said "Well get his done it's easier for me to get here." So they got his cleaning done. He has 1 small cavity lol. Of course, why wouldn't there be one? I just looked at him with a very disappointed look and told him "You're killing me, that is three cavities in a year. If it is something that can't be helped like getting sick I can understand but this is preventable." He didn't like what he heard and I think he felt bad about it, I didn't get mad or yell but at this point? This is just stupid. Later on out of the blue he said "I'll do better dad." That was good enough. He knew he let me down. The part that was killing me was now I have to reschedule my appointment and schedule his appointment for the cavity filling. Last time I looked at my Google calendar on my phone it was all jacked up. I asked the ladies if they had a calendar I could look at to try and schedule. They just looked at me like I was from Mars. Nich said "Use the one on your phone." I told him about it not working. (I have since figured it out lol) Anyway, we figured it out and scheduled his appointment for the filling and rescheduled my cleaning. So now we are looking at two additional trips to Owensboro. Mom found another Dentist in Tell City so I think I will take him for his filling but from then on we are going to Tell City for the Dentist. All these trips to Owensboro just are not needed. Mom was going to the same dentist but she doesn't have dental insurance and that is why she found a different dentist as they were more expensive than others in the area. Here's what really gets me, I have been going to this place for over 12 years. I'm late 20 minutes1 time and we can't get in? How many time do you think I sat in that office over the course of 12 years and waited on them? It didn't happen very often, but on occasion yes, I waited, more than 20 minutes. I wasn't really happy with my Tech on my last visit (It wasn't Mary). She was very rough and just not real considerate. Anyway. Mom is giving me the number and we are going to make things easier on ourselves by going to a dentist close to home.
Then we stopped by Lowes, no ferns, lines were two miles long nice, moving right along. Then we got some groceries at Kroger. They had ferns, yea us! I had asked mom if it was okay if we could stop by on our way back and have dinner as it would be close to that time when we got home. Sure she says. We ended up frying fish and hush puppies as it was what Al had sat out. It was good but I would have been just as happy with a Bologna or grilled chz. I just wanted to spend some time with them cause it seems like the only time I ever get to spend with them is Sunday afternoons when I am home and I get tired of that being the only time we are all together. Then at dinner I realize I have to go to the Dollar Store to get a Mothers Day card for Janet as I won't be here on Sunday to give it to her. I meant to have Nich sign it this morning but forgot, oh well whatever, I swear Lucy, somedays I do good to remember what time zone I am in I really do. Those women at the dentist office just staring at me while I was looking at that calendar...lol...in my mind I was like "Come walk a mile in my shoes." Anyway, go to Dollar Store, get cards, go home, I was like "fuck it, I am riding!" I could have rode in the afternoon but I wanted to be in the hammock and just listen to nature and get a lil sun on my face, just not enough hours in the day sometimes. Anyway, went riding for a bit, felt great, came home and went through all my bills and shit, started laundry, just the regular routine for being gone the next two days, cooked him some pork chops and hamburgers. The dentist appointment I made with the dentist I am no longer going to be seeing? Yeah, it was for Wed May 20th. Aint no fuckin way. I am taking off Wed and Thursday that week for my first week off in seven months. That wed? I am riding to Hickman County to a lil park on the Mississippi River. Monday I will be sleeping. Tuesday I will be tired from being up late Monday. So Wed is about the first day I could head out. I will be dammed if I am going to let a dentist appointment keep me chained to home, oh well, doesn't really matter now anyway as mom has found a new dentist.
Now if I can just find the time to have the oil changed in the truck (didn't wanna drive it up here but there is like an 80% chance of rain when I leave Friday AM), stop by the Harley dealer and get a rain sock for the air filter that probably won't get put on the bike since it is supposed to rain all day Friday so I need to call them and reschedule that, and go pick up the weed eaters, get mom a rake for mothers day, yes, she actually asked for a "rake, like yours (mine)." She will be getting a candle as well lol...all that and about oh I don't know several other thousand things to do lol...
It's all okay lol :-). It's not like I have to go get Chemo or anything, it just gets taxing for one person to keep up with Lucy that's all. At least I only need about four more loads of gravel for around the house and Dave is letting me keep his trailer till I get it done. That, wash and wax the truck, clean out gutters and get all the silt that has flooded into the garage cleaned out and we will be in good shape.
I will be riding that whole week May 19th - 25th. I have just made up my mind thats how it is going to be. My aunt lives in Lexington and there is distillery up there on the KY Bourbon trail that I haven't visited yet, it's the farthest away, I might get a hold of my aunt and see if I could spend the night up there and visit that distillery and the Lincoln Boyhood memorial on the way back. That or maybe visit Willett distillery. It's not on the Ky Bourbon trail but I want my picture by their still (That's what that fancy bottle was made after) in Bardstown. Anyway if I don't go to Lex, I will hit up Willett and probably My Old KY Home state park (Bardstown). Either which way...I am riding that whole week...or my head will probably just fucking explode...
Love ya Lucy.
See you soon.
I pray anyway...
Night...
We should have been married a year ago.
I'm tired of looking at things I don't want anymore.
Tired of being around people I don't wanna be around.
Work or home.
All I do when I walk around my house is look at things I can do without.
You and him.
That's it.
Love you.
Night.
Morning Sunshine.
Tired of your shit sweetheart lol.
Move it along.
I mean.
Wat you need?
A ladder or something?
To get to my level.
Should have said somethin'.
I would have got you one.
Monogrammed and manicured.
Only then...
will I ever think...
you were woman enough...
I just don't think you got it in ya...
Actually?
I know you don't have it in ya.
Not yet anyway...
Bahahahahahaha.
Love ya.
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