Romans 8:18
Monday, September 14, 2015
"Why share?
1) God wants you to.
2) We are stewards of what God has given us. (It's all his anyway)
3) It shows others God's love
4) It changes your perspective
5) It stores up treasures in heaven for us."
Brother Joe.
See why I know somebody wanted me going to that church lucy?
Love you sweetheart.
"The
road to being a disciple = suffering.
Can you do it:
Joyfully?
Thankfully?
Willingly?"
Brother Joe Yesterday :-)
Sunday, September 13, 2015
The
parts about falling for each other a lil more as the leaves fall and not being able to tell if the goosebumps were from the autumn wind or from us touching each other were pretty awesome.
Just like somebody I know.
Bedtime.
Love you.
Night.
Know
why fairytales don't come true anymore Bambi?
Because Nobody believes in them anymore sweetheart thats why.
Heading out to mom's then fawn's and then home for a minute, then over to Dave's later for Cowboys game.
Love you.
Next week huh?
On most calendars the week starts on Sunday.
So now we have moved on to this week I suppose?
I'll believe it when I see it :-).
Love you Bambi.
Friday, September 11, 2015
Cool
rainy day.
Hangin with the pup.
Gotta go get a few things.
Watchin movies.
Finished The Aviator.
Never seen it before.
Good movie.
Love you.
ttys
Thursday, September 10, 2015
Wednesday, September 9, 2015
Happy Birthday
to my main man, Otis :-).
Booker T. & the M.G.'s.
Damn.
Stax Records house band.
Steve Cropper on guitar.
Booker T. Jones on keyboards.
Duck Dunn.
Al Jackson Jr.
Start talking about these guys today and most people just look at you like yeah, whatever.
Ignorant asses.
Saw Booker T.
He opened for the Black Keys in Indy.
He's done a record with the Drive By Truckers.
Awesome guy and musician, songwriter, producer etc...
He's in Franklin Friday PM at the Theatre.
I assume thats the one you wanted somebody to go to with?
Well?
We could have :-).
And yes that is the Outkast song redone.
Love ya Bambi.
So
yesterday I piddled around a bit after getting up and then took off to:
Buzzard Roost
About forty miles from here.
Came home and tried to laid down but Christian called and wanted to know if I could get Jr off the bus just in case him and the rest of his clan didn't make it back from Tell City in time. They did so I didn't have to worry about it. He said he had a steak with my name on it for dinner later on. Told him I had to get Nich and practice the parallel parking thing for a while and after that diner sounded great.
Went and got Nich and set up two saw horses and I showed and explained to him one time and he did it just fine. I told him he needed to do it three times and he did just fine each time. Not bad considering the behemoth that he is driving, not an easy chore by any means.
Took Nich back and went back to Christians to cook\eat dinner. A friend of his and Hailes was there that I met at the bbq. Bigtime outdoorsmen kinda guy. He's a riot. After diner we watched The Wolf of Wall Street all the way through. Second time for me, good movie.
By then it was 10 and I was tired so I loaded up the pup and came home.
I think you know all about this AM :-) since you're the one that started it all :-).
Love you Bambi.
ttys.
Is
somebody getting excited about next week or something?
Sure seemed like it this AM :-).
Morning sunshine.
Tuesday, September 8, 2015
Next
week huh?
Am I supposed to be believing you this time or something :-).
Cheesecake factory?
Where did that come from?
Had a really good day.
Get you caught up tomorrow.
Love you.
Nite.
Monday, September 7, 2015
Are you
getting this Lucy?
Do you need me to come explain it to you :-) ?
Cause I don't think you're getting it.
Oh but you bout to.
Get it that is.
Bahahahahahaha
My
response to a certain some body's
"How to keep her."
1) Why on earth wouldn't I want her to wear red lipstick? What she wants to wear is up to her and vice versa. At this point I just want to see her, in that dress, walking toward me, period. Her lips could be polka dot if she wants for all I care. But red lipstick and a lil black dress together? Oh good lord child look out when we get home.
2) Well, if she would have answered the phone ever I would but we are well beyond that at this point so I do what I can to let her know she is always the last thing on my mind when I lay down to sleep, as well as the first thing on it when I wake up. This will never change.
3) Trust me I get this one, got that from Al, even a cheap lil bouquet from Wal-mart says a lot given out of the blue. I'm not going to have them delivered because if I had your address I would just show up and that would ruin everything we have been working toward for so long. So this just has to wait till I can do it in person.
4) I'll do it everyday for you if you want me to. Sounds like something I would enjoy doing.
5) I do. She told me a long time ago she could never hear it enough so I try and make it a point that she hears it a lot. I figure when I get to the point and I think you might have been hearing it too much that day? Probably a few dozen more times for the day and we should be good. After over three years? I'm not leaving, but I get it, I'll be in my 80's and she will still be worried about me leaving, comes with the territory, accepted for what it is, moving on.
6) I couldn't care less about her past other than it made her who she is. Other than that? I couldn't care less. It's her\our future that I care about. Looking forward, not back. If she never wanted to tell me I honestly wouldn't care. Her past starts when she walked into the NOC that evening, anything before that? If she doesn't ever wanna tell me? I really couldn't care less. The only thing I wanna know is, why all the delay when the whole world except for me apparently already knows what's going to happen and when lol. And don't give me that "keep a boy guessin" bull either, not after this long dollbaby.
7) I always call her beautiful, like it's her name, cause to me it might as well be.
8) I've fought my whole life too. What a waste. I'm tired of it and I'm tired of the people who just wanna bring it out of me. Those people will learn to stay away from me or I'll stay away from them. I just can't do it anymore, it takes to much of an emotional toll and that in turn leads to too much of a physical toll. For whatever reason some people just don't understand this, their whole MO is fighting just to fight or arguing just to argue, no thanks. It's too fucking draining at this point in my life. So yes, I will gladly give in, more times than not as there just isn't that much out there that matters enough to start fighting over in the first place. Just don't ever think I'm a pushover because sometimes I won't give in either A) Just to show you that I won't always or B) For whatever reason it's that important to me. If it's the later don't push it with me like some people like to do and here's why, if I give more times than not cause I just really don't care? When I do stand my ground for whatever reason? The principal, or just showing that I will\can? It means I'll never back down or I wouldn't have started down that path to begin with. I'll give in more times than not mainly cause I don't care and am so sick of fighting, so capitulate when you can tell I'm not gonna give in and let me have my small victories, it makes a man feel like a man. Being "all woman" like you say you are, you should understand the importance here. The look on my face will tell you how to proceed. It aint no big secret.
9) Sounds like a plan :-). I don't like getting drunk. Not much anyway, too hard on the body. I think we all know my prefered choice of intoxicant :-).
10) Gotcha, no foot rubs.
11) You won't have to shave your legs for me to insist on feeling them sweetheart.
12) I don't read books, more like, current events, history, politics, foreign policy side of things, largely found on line. So I'll let you do the talking about books :-). If I knew for sure the color of your hair? I would gladly write you a poem about it but I don't, so it will have to wait.
13) Ditto. Try this with a sixteen year old with ear buds in all the time :-).
14) I don't just wanna tell you stories about when I first fell for you, I wanna tell the world. Not being able to is a source of great frustration. Obviously :-).
15) Gotcha. Everyday is a bad day without her but I'll try to keep this more in mind and give you more fair warning.
16) Count her twice, check. One thing though, "Never lucky, always blessed." So doubly blessed :-). That works :-).
And always remember, if you wanna keep him? Give him reasons to keep wanting to do these things for you. Make him your king, treat him accordingly and I don't see where there's a problem.
Love you.
Sunday, September 6, 2015
Therefore
I reiterate:
"...If they can't..."
"...If they can't be happy for us?
Fuck 'em.
We don't need them in our lives.
Period.
And I don't really care who they are..."
I mean who...
in their right mind...
wants you to stick around and be miserable just so you can be in close physical proximity to them?
When they know...
they know...
in no uncertain terms,
your joy and your peace is with someone else, somewhere else?
I couldn't do it to Nich.
I'd be like, be gone, be happy.
Just remember me...
Honor me...
always...
It's different if there is a parent who isn't honorable.
I understand that.
Nothing to honor there.
Just be happy and make me proud of the type of person you have become.
Zen Master
tells student: "If you move, I will hit you with a stick."
Zen Master also tells student: "If you don't move I will hit you with a stick."
Student tells Zen Master: "I see, I must remove the stick."
So ask yourself, who has the stick?
Yesterday was not worthy of any response.
Your shit quit being funny about three times ago.
Love you.
Saturday, September 5, 2015
Did
you think I was kidding or something?
"...and I want to rock your gypsy soul
Just like way back in the days of old
And together we will flow into the mystic
Come on, girl
Too late to stop now."
Going
riding.
Then over to Dave's tonight to watch Wisconsin vs. Alabama.
I mean I would rather be marrying you and all but a boy's gotta do what a boy's gotta do Lucy :-).
Aint like I aint sat around here all day several other times thinking things were happening and they didn't lol.
Those days?
Yeah...they didn't end so well to say the least.
Gotta get.
ttys
Love you.
Rumi
Apart from Love, everything passes away.
The way to heaven is in your heart.
Open and lift the wings of Love!
When Love’s wings are strong, you need no ladder.
Though the world be thorns, a lover’s heart is a bower of roses.
Though heaven’s wheel be mired down, lovers’ lives go forward.
Invite love into each dark corner.
The lover is bright as a hundred thousand candles!
Even if a lover seems to be alone, the secret Beloved is nearby.
The time-span of union is eternity.
The life is a jar, and in it, union is the pure wine.
If we aren’t together, of what use is the jar?
The moment I heard my first love story I began seeking you,
not realising the search was useless.
Lovers don’t finally meet somewhere;
they are in one another’s souls all along.
Rumi
Love is reckless; not reason.
Reason seeks a profit.
Having died of self-interest,
Love risks everything and asks for nothing!
Friday, September 4, 2015
You're
all I want.
You and Nich to be happy.
Him being happy is on him, nothing anyone else can do about it really.
You.
Thats it.
Nothing else.
I mean who else brings baklava to go with bbq?
Just you as far as I know lol.
And shows up late lol.
Like I couldn't see that one coming from a mile away lol.
I remember just sitting there in the courtyard.
Babbling on about your soul and your spirit needing solitude like your body needs vitamin D.
Just looking at you right in the eyes.
Thinking: "She's perfect, it's like I always thought it would be, that voice, that accent, her skin, her hair, I just can't fucking believe this is happening...Be cool...be cool, don't fucking blow it stupid, just don't blow it."
Well?
I guess I didn't.
Blow it that is :-).
Time to take pup and visit Christian, then a couple of bills to take care of and a ride :-).
Love you.
So
Brother Joe and his wife were coming over yesterday.
The shared driveway is a lil confusing, hard to tell whose house is whose.
I saw them start down the driveway and I was like "Shoot, they're going to christians!"
So I went out on the deck and they had just stopped in front of the garage.
Brother Joe gets out, now keep in mind I just had the oil changed in the bike.
I had the blue bandana on and my red coke shirt ratty jeans etc.
Brother Joe: "I'm looking for Andrew."
I kinda point to myself "Well you found him."
Guy had only seen me in church lol.
"I didn't recognize you."
"Well this is me."
"You scarred me."
"Really? Why?"
and we just had a laugh and went about our visit.
Good times Lucy.
Well?
"...see those distant peaks
glistenin' in the sun
they're callin' out to us
my love
and the adventure's
just begun."
Lets go see them then.
Morning Sunshine.
Love you.
Thursday, September 3, 2015
Bro Joe
stopped by.
he got the condensed version of "my story" that he wanted to hear.
More like the condensed version of "The seven times I know I've seen God working in my life" with some odd tidbits here and there about "my story".
Glad to be able to share with it someone.
He wanted my notes.
Thought it was a lil odd but what do I care?
I signed and dated them for him.
Got the oil changed in the bike earlier in the day.
Good for another 3000 miles if anybody ever decides they want to go riding here anytime soon lol.
Heading to moms here in a bit for a steak dinner.
Gonna hang around and try and watch some of the Utah\Michigan college football game.
Just got back from visiting Christian and his clan.
Nero always has such a good time running around with his momma and his brother.
Getting a lil tired now actually.
Love you Lucy.
"We were
born before the wind
Also younger than the sun
Ere the bonnie boat was won
As we sailed into the mystic.."
So...
Ummm...
Yeah...
Lets see here all these phone calls from strange numbers that I was supposed to be answering back in the day?
Exactly how many messages were left for me?
Lets see, by my count I got zero, exactly zero messages left lol.
Love ya Lucy.
Errand time.
ttys.
Wednesday, September 2, 2015
Yeah...
ummmm...
you might wanna put your seatbelt on for this one...
"As I walk through
This wicked world
Searchin' for light in the darkness of insanity.
I ask myself
Is all hope lost?
Is there only pain and hatred, and misery?
And each time I feel like this inside,
There's one thing I wanna know:
What's so funny 'bout peace love & understanding? Ohhhh
What's so funny 'bout peace love & understanding?
And as I walked on
Through troubled times
My spirit gets so downhearted sometimes
So where are the strong
And who are the trusted?
And where is the harmony?
Sweet harmony.
'Cause each time I feel it slippin' away, just makes me wanna cry.
What's so funny 'bout peace love & understanding? Ohhhh
What's so funny 'bout peace love & understanding?
So where are the strong?
And who are the trusted?
And where is the harmony?
Sweet harmony.
'Cause each time I feel it slippin' away, just makes me wanna cry.
What's so funny 'bout peace love & understanding? Ohhhh
What's so funny 'bout peace love & understanding? Ohhhh
What's so funny 'bout peace love & understanding?
Rumi
A Lover knows only humility,
He has no choice.
He steals into your alley at night,
He has no choice.
He longs to kiss every lock of your hair,
Don’t fret,
He has no choice.
In his frenzied Love for you,
He longs to break the chains of his imprisonment,
He has no choice.
So
bible study was at 10 this AM.
Nero only woke me up at 4:30 and 6:30.
I think he is finally getting the idea that I like to sleep till about 8:30.
Maybe lol.
We'll see.
So I let him out around 8:45 and what does he do?
Goes and gets a dead squirrel and hides under the shrubs with it.
At first I was thinking no big deal but he just kept on with it.
To the point where I was thinking I was going to be late or not make it at all.
Know how you take a dead squirrel away from a puppy who is hidden from you?
Well...
You don't lol.
I got on the porch so I could move the shrubs back to see where he was.
That's when a wasp stung me lol.
Right on the very tip of my finger.
Right by the nail lol.
Well this is great, fingertip is throbbing and puppy still chewing on dead animal.
It's 9;20 or so.
I text brother Joe to let him know I may not make it.
Few minutes later?
Yeah, here comes Nero just a strolling along like "Wattsup?"
Well?
You were hommie :-).
Got time to make it now...good.
Shoot!
Buick needs gas and I don't have time to do what it takes to get it.
Truck has trash in the back.
Like, nasty trash I've been meaning to get rid of for a while now.
Shoot, can't take it either.
So I took the bike lol.
Yep, I took the bike to bible study.
I bet the folks down at Lewisport Methodist don't forget me for a good bit lol.
Study went well.
Really like Brother Joe.
He and his wife will be here tomorrow at 1:30.
I got my notes put together for that.
Came home.
Phone dead, put it on the charger.
Walked with Nero back to Christians for a while.
Halie needed help with hay for the horses.
Helped with that for a second.
Came home, fired up the grill, cooked a chicken.
I don't think it's any good, sat out to long last Thursday.
Probably feed it to the dogs.
Got the gas situation in the Buick rectified.
Went and got Nero from Christians.
Laid down for a spell.
It's just to hot to want to do anything.
Got up with the dog a lil bit ago.
Made tea and lemonade.
Sitting here chilling.
Writing to you.
Wanna take a guess what two people been foremost in my mind all day?
And no I'm not one of them and yes you are.
I think you can figure out who the other is.
I'm having diner over there tomorrow.
I'll reach out and make amends as best I can.
I hope he sees fit and does the same.
Love you.
You're always on my mind.
Always.
Promise.
It's
been an interesting day to say the least.
Nothing bad lol.
Just interesting.
I'll explain in a bit.
You can keep the sweet words coming :-).
I like 'em too.
Love you.
Tuesday, September 1, 2015
Always
dug Mr Gabriel.
I get that he's not everybody's cup of tea.
But I always dug him.
So did a lot of other people I knew who liked a ton of other good music as well.
It's
what I want a certain young man to come to understand.
Others that work harder will out do him.
Even with his intelligence.
Don Zimmer should have never made it to Major League Baseball.
He did so by pure hustle and determination.
Managed the Cubs there for a while.
Guy was a character.
So
we were talking about the stars Friday PM at the BBQ.
Couldn't see many due to the cloud cover.
Everybody started talking about space.
How infinite it was.
Talked about the pale blue dot picture.
Just everything really.
Of course, as is always the case, someone brought up just how insignificant our planet was compared to the vastness of space.
How insignificant we are, compared to the vastness of space.
I said: "Or how magnificent we are given that we were created from it and are a part of it."
Crickets.
Priceless.
Subject changed after that :-).
People know me.
They knew what I meant.
Love you Lucy.
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