Monday, September 30, 2013

Why don't...

 
Why don't you just move in when I'm working some weekend?
 
Nich could help lol.
He knows where the key is outside.
 
Just come home and open the gargage door and your car is in our garage. The garage door opener on your side don't work so the door would be open. It's your side cause it's closer to the side door, not because the garage door is broke lol.
 
Can you imagine how I would feel Lucy?

I just...

 
 
I just wanna tell the world "I CAUGHT HER!"
Especially the people who know what I have done to try and do so...
That package coming back in the mail last Christmas about killed me...
The trip to Baxter wasn't a fun night in the Motel Six either...
You should have seen the looks on the faces of the people that weekend when I pulled up to their family cook out on the bike. lol. They just looked at me like "Who in the hell are you?"
But both times, as intense as the pain might have been at that moment,
it had severely dissipated or entirely went away by the next day.
It blew my mind,
that the hurt would just leave on its own
and a day or two latter I would be laughing about it.
It's how I knew Lucy.
 
Old school sweetheart…
cause it works.
 
What a story...

:-)...

When you comin?
Don't think I don't know...
 
Bahahahahahahahah...
 
 

I wanna...

 
I wanna wake up everyday and be like "Can you believe this? Can you believe this is our life? Can you believe we're together?" I can just see you standing there at the sink in the kitchen and I'm going to be thinking "I don't believe she choose to be mine, of all the guys in the world, she decided she wanted to come be with us..." and I'll be staring off into space thinking these thoughts and you'll be like "Honey dinners ready." (Obviously not my off day or I'd be doing the cooking lol)...and I'll just be drifting through space thinking how unreal all this turned out to be...and you'll come and say "Baby, what's wrong?"...and I'll snap out of it and get my head back in the moment at hand and I'll just smile and say "Nothing, nothings wrong...lets have a fire after diner watdaya say?" I just wanna snuggle up and fall asleep with you each and every time I get the chance...we're wasting time Lucy...
 
"...Come winter I will build you a fire
from the bones of who I used to be
before you came and washed the weary away
before you came here for me..."

Unknown

 
 
"Do not stay where you are tolerated. Go where you are celebrated." 

When you comin' Lucy? When girl? My heart, oh be still my poor heart...


Rumi

 
What is planted in our hearts will sprout.

I just...

 
 
I just wanna tell the world that our hearts are each others...
 
That I knew all along...what was going on...
 
The people that thought I was crazy?
 
When they see the love and the life we're gonna have...
 
They're gonna know...
 
They were the crazy ones...

I got...

 
I got a few  big questions I would like to have answered soon if at all possible:
 
1) When did you know I was "Him"?
 
2) When did you start making contact with my family?
 
3)Who all have you contacted?
 
Your somethin'...you wait...pay back is a bitch...lol...I might just have a hard time picking out which leather belt to give you a spanking with...

Proverbs 3:5

 
Proverbs 3:5

When...

I would marry you tomorrow...
 


You're...

 
You're killing me...that lil ω...damn girl...I told you I think about it enough...
 
Love how I know this has obviously been going on for a while now lol.
My family must really think the world of you to have been and by continuing to play along with you...
 
You don't fool me lol.
The look on Nicholas face when I said "What Zep song is it?" "Going to California...Why?" Just sitting there at the kitchen table with my shit eating grin on his face lol...
Like I don't know...woman please...lol.
 
I just want you in our home where you belong Lucy.
Looking forward to the day when I leave work and drive home in the AM...coming home to you.
 
Speaking of ω, when might I get a chance to see or pinch her?
 
Love you Lucy.
Lets do this...

I don't know...



I don't know how or when we're going to end up "there", I just know I'm going to love it, and I like the way you're drivin this train Lucy...I really really do...:-)...

"...sugarpie..."

off to lville
Love you.

Sweeter...


"...Sweeter than sugar...Sweeter than candy..."

Gotta get back to sleep so I can get up and go to work.
Welcome to my life lol.
Night.
Love you.

Morning Beautifull



Morning Beautiful. 
"Going to California" is on Led Zeppelin VI. This link comes through my Facebook feed last night. It never stops Lucy, it just never ever stops...Turns out the album was released on my birthday. All just an accident I am sure...





Love you...

Night...work next two nights...

Love you




I love...



I love what your doing and how you're doing it...
I'm glad my peeps right in there with you...they're having fun too...

Mom "Why you cleanin' out the garage?"...like she don't already know...yall are good, all of yall...

Sunday, September 29, 2013

I mean...



I mean it wasn't three notes in to "Going to California" and I snapped to attention and asked "What was that?, that song go back...go back one more, that one, what is that?" "Zeppelin". "What song?" "Going to California"...I just smiled...He said "What?" I said "Nuthin' and just kept watching the game...He just smiled...glad yall are all havin' fun lol...
Love you, 
Peace.

Found it...




Nich...



Nich just "accidentally" launched the Led Zeppelin Channel on Pandora. Just happened to be playing "Going to California" when he did..."...someone told me theirs a girl out there with love in her eyes and flowers in her hair...". Whatever could be going on Lucy? I just can't figure it out.

Just wanna...


Just wanna make sure I get this right.
While back mom asked something about if I thought I needed to take my treatment. I didn't think much about it. I told her Lisa (My nurse in Nashville that gave me my first IV and a member of the IDF) said that I would have to be tested again just to see if I still had the condition. Thats not something I really want to do. I read somewhere that in like 3% of people that have this it can happen. Rare, but it does indeed happen. I told her I felt better and was staying more rested and felt better than I did 15 years ago and it's the truth. Now today I get a book about foods that boost the immune system? Al sent me a link about tart cherry juice curing gout few days ago?

Is there nobody in my inner circle your not talking to? Carlos, James new partner, even laughed about getting rid of the trampoline.

Mom also said something about getting the garage doors fixed. She aint said nothin bout my condition or getting the garage doors fixed in a good bit. One just don't work, and I got one remote that don't work for the other one. Follow the Bachelor/Single Parent logic that follows: I never had a garage before till I got this house. Is it really that big of a deal to get out and open the door that I didn't even have before? I never even used it for the truck till a few years ago. Is there other stuff I need to, or want to spend your money on? Of course there is. So that's fine. Fix garage doors...check...sometime...soon...when somebody comes...for good...come on now, took me 11 years to clean it out? lol...

James lil comment about "This philosophy of "It works" gonna have to change, women want things to be pretty." Yeah that comes into a lot more clearer focus as well these days...

Check out the shirt:

Remedy
all natural cure all.

It aint no bull shit.
Been used as medicine for 3000 years.


Anyway...I like your style...I really like how you roll...always have, always will.

Look how many lives we've already touched Lucy...unreal.
James is starting to believe, I can see it in him...It's unspoken but it's like "Well it's workin' for him" kind of thing...Christian too particularly with the kids, again it's like "Well he did it" kind of thing...
Wait till we get together...

Love you,
Peace.



Saturday, September 28, 2013

I'm...


I'm calling it a night...
Today would have been more fun with you...
Wastin time Knucklehead.

Tomorrow
Church, dinner at moms.
Hopefully Alan stays and watches football.
If not Dave's comin over later tomorrow evening.
Good to finally get some rest.

"...Here wat I'm sayin'
everybody ...Well...everybody need a lil help sometime yeah...
everybody...everybody need somebody...
somebody to love
sometime baby you know
You know babe?
When I get cold
whether it be early in the morning
or sometime somewhere in the afternoon
oh I need somebody
just to say
say come on in baby
I wanna give you a big kiss now come on
M&^%$# F#$@^* come on
oh yeah children oh yeah
...keep on rollin'
sugarpie
...sweeter than sugar
...sweeter than candy..."

Mick Jagger, Rolling Stones
Tumblin' Dice
17 October 1973
Forest National Arena
Brussels Belgium

You gotta hear it.
Got a great nap, feel really rested for the first time in a long time.

Love you



Morning Sunshine...


Morning sunshine...sausage biscuits for breakfast, then off to Owensboro for a band competition...Wish you were with us. Love you.

Friday, September 27, 2013

I think...

I think this is where it all started. I saw that look on your face when you saw this picture. I saw your jaw drop open. I did. I was watchin out of the corner of my eye to see your reaction cause I knew this pic was coming. You can deny it all you want. I know better. It was the first ever "what the fuck is this guy all about? I aint never seen nuthin like this before" moment. Funny thing is...I'm wearing a Tom Petty t-shirt.

"Watch her walk..."

Love you,

Peace.


Rumi


You came suddenly shook me from my sleep and vanished.
In my heart you rose like the moon
but as I glanced at you, you disappeared.
Having had a glimpse of Your garden,
I have no more the patience to endure my existence.
One sip of Your intoxicating wine
has left me lovesick and full of longing.
Can a house stand when its foundations have been shaken?
On the path of love, there are many highs and lows
many unions and separations.
Oh how endless seems to me the journey
to that wondrous place where my passion draws me.

When...

When ya comin'?

Lyrics Lucy...Lyrics...


 Lyrics Lucy...Lyrics...

"...I been thinkin'
I've been thinkin
I've been thinkin bout you baby
Oh such a long long time..."


Morning Beautiful...



Morning Beautiful. No IM's? No comments? Damn Lucy...come on girl lol.

Home...



Home sweet home dollbaby...always an intense ride :-). Nichs fed and off to school, daddy time for a couple hours, then down for the count, get up, get him, fix dinner, football game...Love you. Peace.

Switchin...

 
Switchin spots gettin ready for Tony to come in...Headin home soon..can't wait till the day I am able to be comin home to you sweetheart...
 
Love you Dollbaby.
 
Peace.

Why...

 
Why am I getting the feeling in my gut that everybody knows something I don't? Mom, Nicholas, James, all smiles and laughs about things, swing, trampoline, talking to me in a manner they don't usually, etc...you know anything about this Lucy? Come on girl...

Thursday, September 26, 2013

Three times...

 
Three times in the last two weeks the very second I looked at my phone there was either an Instant Message or an e-mail announcing a comment being posted on the blog from you. I mean the very second I looked at it...splain, Lucy, splain...coincidence right?

Back...

 
Back to my post "I"...
 
Seems like a hell of  a deal in exchange for a phone call if you ask me...
 
Not everyday two peoples lists get "pimped".
 
Surely it's an accident, a coincidence right?

Well...

 
"...аnd noω each tike a сomment
is aԁded I get three emailѕ wіth the samе соmment..."
 
Well, your the only one commenting so I don't know what to tell you...lol
 
Nice font on that w by the way...

I...

 
I love you dingleberry...were gonna be great together...small little simple civil ceremony with no fan fare real soon, me, you, a witness and whoever we can find to perform it lol...public ceremony late spring, early summer, just like I've said, whoever gives you away drives to house in your hotrod, helps you get out, helps gets you together, "Here comes my girl" plays, you come walking to me on the chorus "Watch her walk..." tears just flowing like crazy from everybody, I wouldn't care if there were 10 people there or 10,000, it really wouldn't make a bit of difference to me...simple little white summer dress, flowers in your hair, my blue suit, pink or blue shirt and tie, your call on that, your flowers and accessories can match my shirt and tie, Nich as my best man, in his first suit, send out invitations in e-mail for all I care, ride off in the sunset on the bike, in a suit and dress lol, what a riot that will be, no need to spend a fortune, I'll get you a nice ring for that day, we will do this backwards, get the wedding band tattoos first, no need for gifts, just people being there would be gifts enough, nothing more valuable to give away than time, small reception at church afterwards, just cake and punch, tell our story, mingle with friends and relatives, Destin in late summer, early fall, after the peak of the summer season, things will still be open, but the crowds won't be nearly as bad...Whatdayasay Hotrod? You in? I have been...from the third time I was ever around you I knew, this is her, this is what I have been waiting for my whole life, she is exactly, even more so if that is possible, what I have been asking for...
There was no way I was ever going to let you get away from me...I just wasn't.
"Know why fairytales don't come true? Cause people don't want to believe in them"
"This is my dream, this is what I will work hard every day of my life for, because I want you, all of you, all day, every day, the rest of days..."
Aint true love great?
Love you,
Peace...

When?

When do I get to hear that angelic voice Lucy? When?
 
I'm telling you the day is gonna come when you're gonna be good to go and I'm gonna be like, "Oh shit, it's really happeneing...", I'll be so dumbfounded I won't know what to say to you on the phone...um yeah, not that likely, but the first few minuites will probably seem like something out of a dream...

You're...

 
 
You're challenging enough sweetheart, I think you always will be...I don't want another challenge, I want you to continue to challenge me...all of our days...that will be my next challenge...handleing you once I've gotcha...that's the next challenge I want in my life.

You don't say...


"If transmission is going very well between the two of you, it is only natural a time arrive that you will equally want to satisfy each other."

bahahahahaha...

Yep...:-P
 
 

Yep...


 




Like how...

 
Like how libermanjuanita5 said "peace" this AM...just like somebody else I know says...wonder where she got that from?...You horny today lol?  libermanjuanita5 got in touch with me twice, in one day? Woo hoo...yeah buddy, things be heating up...
 
Why dream it when you can live it?
 
I can't come get you till Saturday PM.
 
Just thought I'd let you know.
 
Love you.

I'm gonna

 
I'm gonna park my bike where it is shown in this picture. Right smack dab in the middle of the garage. Yes, it's harder to get it in and out of the garage doing so but there is only one thing that belongs in that other spot and thats your vehicle, nothing else, nobody elses vehicle, Virgie's vehicle. Your spot is reserved. It's waiting on you to come and take it, just like a lot of other things.
 
 

Headin out...

 
Night, love you, have a great day.

We could...

 
We could have seen them...just me and you...sitting on a blaket in the grass on a beautiful day, but noooooooooooo! Somebody had better plans...
 
 

Life without sorrow...

"Life without sorrow, love without pain..."
 
Simple things dollbaby, me and you sweetheart...
 
 

Morning Beautiful





Would like...

 
"ω"...nice...like I don't think about it enough lol...
 
Would like to see it up close and personal you know? Like say, oh I don't know, the rest of my days?
 
Come on Lucy what do you say?
 
I've never so much as used an RSS feed, sorry, guess you're out of luck on that front.

In case...

Just in case you couldn't tell by my conditions for Joanna to surrender her parental rights...
 
when the time is right, I can and will play hard ball...
 
this is one of those instances.
 
I am perfectly content to keep doing what I'm doing and to try and work around the house some to help get it ready for you...
 
But if you meant what you said as Adam Somed, and I honestly believe you did...
 
then you will call...
 
You, not "Tina", not "John", Virgie, the real life, in the flesh, most amazing woman I ever met, with whom I am going to have a life I couldn't have even dreamt about before I met her...her, she's the one that's going to have to call, there's no reason to be fearful or anxious...just call and talk like old friends...set up a time and meet somewhere in public, with a chaperone, whatever it takes...how hard is it?

Just...

 
Just call me and make me the happiest guy in the world, would ya? I'm telling you, it's what it's going to take.
 
Everybody knows wats up, your family, my family, your friends, my friends.
 
What are we doing this for anymore?
 
There's no test to be given I wouldn't pass.
 
There's no more "gauntlets" to run me through.
 
The way this chase continues is in our yard...
 
me chasing you...
 
in the soft summer rain...
 
to get you on the trampoline...

Wednesday, September 25, 2013

Go to...

 
Go to bed Lucy...
I get the feeling your not feeling so swell...
Love ya girl.

Rumi

 
"Whatever happens to you, don’t fall in despair. Even if all the doors are closed, a secret path will be there for you that no one knows. You can’t see it yet but so many paradises are at the end of this path. Be grateful! It is easy to thank after obtaining what you want, thank before having what you want."
 
Amen.

 

Yep...

1's?..Come on girl.
 
 

Psalm 147:3

 
Psalm 147:3.
 
He did Lucy, it's what he does. He did for you and for me. He will for Nicholas when the time comes as well.

Always thought...

Always thought those two vehicles would look great side by side...just like the owners :-).
 
I almost parked the bike by you up on the fifth floor when you were working at Kindred, but I thought that might be pushing things a lil far and might get me in trouble lol.
 
Actually, there was a day you parked on the third floor, now why would you ever do that Lucy? Oh and it was a really really nice day and I had told you on days like that I ride in to work...so yeah, why would you ever park your car on the third floor...when you know where I park? I just couldn't ever figure that one out...woman please lol, been on to your shenanigans from day one. Anyway, I did park it next to your car one day on the third floor, but I moved it a lil while later as I though you might try and get me in trouble.
 
I should have took a picture. It looked great those two vehicles together...just like the owners are gonna...
 
Peace.

This one...

 
This one...okay one like it anyway...couldn't find a pic with the racing stripes etc...
 
Come on Hotrod, cut a boy some slack would ya?
 
You know I love ya, you know were gonna make this happen...
 
Nich asking about that swing really just blew my mind...
 
 
 
 

Only one...

 
Only one vehicle missing.
 
 

Future...

 
Future could be tomorrow you know? Just say the word.
 
I won't quit doing what I 've done to win your heart sweetheart...I'll just keep on rolling along like I have been...
 
Because I enjoy it and because I know it gives you a thrill...
 
Now why would I ever wanna stop that?
 
Peace.

No comments?

 
Great ride in. Just felt awesome.
 
No comments posted here?
No more Yahoo IM's?
 
Whatever could be going on here Lucy?
 
Want you in my lap this Christmas.
Wanna read you the Christmas Story.
 
With the Fireplace screensaver on.
And then fall asleep, in our recliner.
 
Love you.
 
Your future husband.
Andrew.

Morning Beautiful...



Morning Beautiful.
Agian lol
Lets see.
Off to Louisville.
Work two nights.
Back home, get Nicholas, get dinner, home football game Friday PM.
Sat AM Band competition.
Sat PM and Sunday?...Downtime! yeah us...

You should be here.
The longer you drag this on, the more spankings you get.
Just thought I'd let you know.

Love you
Your amazing.
Your future husband

Andrew.

God blesses

3God blesses those people
who depend only on him.
They belong to the kingdom
of heaven!
4- God blesses those people
who grieve.
They will find comfort!
5- God blesses those people
who are humble.
The earth will belong
to them!
6- God blesses those people
who want to obey him
more than to eat or drink.
They will be given
what they want!
7God blesses those people
who are merciful.
They will be treated
with mercy!
8- God blesses those people
whose hearts are pure.
They will see him!
9God blesses those people
who make peace.
They will be called
his children!
10- God blesses those people
who are treated badly
for doing right.
They belong to the kingdom
of heaven.

Morning Sunshine.

Morning Sunshine.

Tuesday, September 24, 2013

Mom says...


Mom says I should fall asleep thinking of holding my "true love" and falling asleep "entangled Funny the use of the phrase "True Love" I thought...seems like your words...

Tonight at Long Johns out of the blue Nich says "You know what we should do?". (Which is like one of the scariest things you may ever hear sometimes). "What should we do?" "We should put a swing at the end of the porch." We been here going on 11 years...boys never mentioned a swing...till today...mom never talks to me like that...

Whatever could be happening here Lucy?

Dominos falling...



My attorney (Carol) calls me when I'm at the dump. I can't hear shit lol, finally I get a hold of her later away from the front end loaders. I told her about counseling. All three major points: don't take psych eval till after she does, "Light is at the end of the tunnel" and "I don't think we will need more than three or four sessions"...Told Carol I could pay for the three visits to see the councilor then subpoena her and were done. I mean I could tell that's what she was saying that day.

She said well wait a minute, Candi (Ex's attorney) called and said she (Joanna) wants to surrender her parental rights. So there would be no visitation, no contact...etc...oh...and also no child support. I said "Here's the deal and nothing is negotiable, I mean nothin': I claim him on taxes this year, she pays whats shes behind on the child support but once the judge signs off, from there on she pays no more, the EPO stays in effect and it gets documented she has already violated the EPO once by contacting me and that ER bill is all hers. It's in her name Carol. I said, "I'll never pay a penny of that ER bill, I'll make them drag me to court every time to get $5 and she will pay so many attorneys fees that it would be cheaper for her just to pay the bill, It's in her name, she caused this, she pays. She don't just get to go "I don't wanna be a parent anymore" and stick me with a $1800 ER bill, and then don't pay what she is already behind on child support? I don't think so. And this is why I love Carol Bowling (Red hair, 300 lbs + plus, off the chart intelligent wonderful woman) she says, "Well I  have to abide by the courts wishes, so I'm going to go ahead and get her appointment scheduled." I told her I really liked her emphasis on "I", that I thought that was great. She said "Oh did you like that?" I said "Yeah, yeah I did"...and we both had a really good laugh.

Joanna folds every time, always has. Looks for the easy way out. 

My attorney was shocked I just didn't take the offer to get her out of my hair, I said "Carol, that's what I been doing for ten years, no more, everything just like I said or she takes her psych eval ($500-$600)...but Im telling you, three visits and subpoena the councilor and either way It's good for us.

Back in the Plenty of Fish Days lol, somebody said something to the effect of "Dominos will have to fall just right"...well you tell me Lucy? Did some more dominos just fall?

Were ready for you sweetheart...Both of us...

Another glamours day...


Breakfast 7:00 AM, pancakes and bacon, Nichs favorite.
Took him to school.
Couple hours of daddy time, yeah me!
Mom followed me to bike shop so I could get the bike serviced. 
Rides like its new, air filter replaced, throttle adjusted :-)...
Came home, loaded up trash barrel, which was a bitch on a hill sloping the wrong way, with it falling apart due to rust while on the dolly.
Went to dump, unloaded truck and trailor.
Took trailor back to my buddys.
Went to Farm Store, got hooks to hang weed eater with.
Came home, both batteries for drill are dead, not need to be recharged dead, like dead dead, like need new batteries dead.
Went to step dads, got drill, came home, hung up weedeater.
1:30 of daddy time, yeah me!
Bikes done, call step dad to get me, back to Tell City to get bike.
Come home, 15 minutes untill time to get Nich from band practice.
Get Nich , come home we get cleaned up.
Back to Tell City to go to Long John Silvers, Nich loves it, I like it on occasion. Only reason we went was I didnt have enough time to cook dinner and grocery shop.
Home, unpack groceries.
Did two loads of laundry 
and now Im here with you...

I'll fill you in on the conversation I had with my attorney said here in a minute...

Love you beautiful.
Peace


Rumi


I closed my mouth and spoke to you in a hundred silent ways.
 
Yes you did.

Or...

Or you can come right now...
thats always an option...not like I would turn you away...

Busy day...


Went to the dump. Makin room for your stuff sweetheart. 

Attorney called. Ex wants to forfeit her parental rights. Long story, update you here in a bit. 

Just call, I'm not going to change the number, I'm always here for you, just like I always have been. If your not hearing from me I'm either asleep or busy running errands and taking care of other issues. You know I am always thinking of you. Want you here, six to eight weeks...find that job, lets get that ink, lets do this lil one...Peace.




You can...


You can use that lil w font of yours sweetheart I was only kiddin'...but I seriously don't need help being reminded of your "apple bottom". lol

"You don't know how perfectly you are designed" Did you mean it? Or you just talkin smack?

Morning Sunshine...


Morning Sunshine...Got the garage all cleaned up for ya...We're ready sweetheart...want you here with us...soon dollbaby...

:-)

:-)

Night beautiful...


Night beautiful, felt great outside today...felt like...you should be here weather.

Monday, September 23, 2013

Nicholas said...


Nich said "Maybe she doesn't want to come because she thinks were to much bachelor for her." I said that's her role, to soften up that side of us, to give the home a woman's touch a lil, I already told her to do what she wanted to downstairs, it's all hers, just leave me the computer room." He says "Yeah that's fine, long as upstairs stays the way I want it". "Well why on earth wouldn't it stay the same?". Silence...priceless...He knows he's gone in no more than 5 and a half years. Think about that now. Two and a half years from him leaving we will have the place paid off. I'll be 56, you'll be 44...

"She's be a fool to pass him by..."

Yes she would...

Don't come...


Don't come at me in Yahoo unless your gonna be dirty about it. I'm already running in 9th gear and when its the same old script, well, it's old news...no more, to much of a let down...just thought you might wanna know...

your all talk Lucy.

If you...


If you really really want me to watch you in web cam then you, lil miss thang, lil miss Tidmore, are going to have to call me, email me, message me and let me know that's what you want, if that's what it takes then ill gladly do it, but you gotta tell me, you, the real you, not some electronic ghost alter ego, you...

and keep "Drew's Honeypot" in tip top shape so shes ready for me, cause shes gonna get a work out...

Funny how I text you at 3 in the AM and "John" isnt flipping out, your not flipping out anymore, like I said, you're kidding yourself. always have been, I've known it all along.

Love you...

Peace.

I think...

 
I think about you all the time...I carry you with me everywhere I go. I know we can have a great life and be amazing together, it's why I fight and push so hard and don't mind stepping on toes, or ruffeling feathers, to get you to come forward, to dig you out of that cave, to break you out of that shell...A woman like you deserves the love a man like me can give her...You're all that's left in this world that I want or ask for when I pray...I don't ask for anything, because I don't need anything, everything I need has been given already, except for you...I would like for Nicholas to live a happy life...and I think he will...but mostly I pray for my friends and family to find peace, to have god watch over them...but actually request that I put forth and petition for? "If it be your will, let Virgire Tidmore be my wife for the rest of my days", that's it, that's all I ever ask for, been that way for a good lil bit now...I leave here at 6 AM EST...I'll be on the road for an hour and a half, always a good time to talk, no distractions...you'll be on my mind like always anyway dingleberry...Love you.
 
Peace.

When?

 
 


libermanjuanita5


 
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Experience

Human resources command Position: System administrator Sep 2010 to Present
Usaac information assurance division - Fort Knox, KY
Position: Vulnerability manager Nov 2009 to Sep 2010
11th signal brigade - Fort Huachuca, AZ
Position: Network security/server administrator Jan 2006 to May 2009
Us army Position: Automations/help desk technician Jan 2005 to Jan 2006

Skills

Windows System Administrator, VMware Administrator, Security Analyst

Sunday, September 22, 2013

We've found the problem...





Speaking of...

 
Speaking of "Kitty Kat".
 
"Drew's Honeypot"...lol
 
You wanna make a man feel 100 foot tall? Suprise a boy with that when we go to Destin.

So get...

 
So go find those big girl pants you bought a while back...get your head out of your ass...and go make the phone call...no Tina, no friend of a friend...your number flashing across my phone screen, your voice on the other end of the line...this is the price you'll pay for stonewalling me for so long...
 
I just won't do it to myself anymore...your turn..I'll answer, we know whats been said, we know whats up...say "whats up dog?" just like you did the first time I ever heard your voice...and I'll be like "not much kitty kat, wats up wit you?" and we will go from there...simple, easy, you know it's what you want...why wait?
Life is way to short...

So...

 
So be a big girl and call like you know your going to someday anyway...life is way to short, we could be gone tomorrow...but if I knew you wanted to be my wife...I'd go a happier man than I am today...
 
Love you girl.
 
Peace.

Who else...

 
Who else you ever gonna meet gonna pursue you like me?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else ever gonna cook for you like I can?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else ever gonna make love with you like I can?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else ever gonna make you laugh like I do?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else ever gonna build fires for you like I will?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else you ever gonna wanna take a nap in their hammock with?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else you ever gonna wanna go ridin with?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else you ever gonna wanna sit on the porch in a swing and watch sunsets with?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else you ever gonna wanna grow old with?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else you ever gonna wanna go see DMB with?
Lets see...Nobody
Who else you ever gonna wanna go to Bonoroo with? (They now have delux packages, buses, grandstands, etc)
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else you ever gonna wanna go spend a weekend in Nashville with?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else you ever gonna wanna do things sexualy you never thougth you would do before with?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else you ever gonna wanna go spend a weekend with in Memphis?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else you ever gonna wanna go kayaking with?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else you ever gonna wanna go to Sunday Worship with?
Lets see..Nobody.
Who else you ever gonna wanna go on long walks and hold hands with?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else you ever gonna wanna go to Destin with?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else ever gonna give you more romance than you ever thought you would get? (and will keep on after he's got you?)
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else you ever gonna wanna make out in the rain with?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else you ever gonna wanna go to New Orlenes Jazz fest with?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else ever gonna challenge you intellectualy/spirtualiy like I can?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else you ever gonna wanna raise a garden with?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else you ever gonna wanna go fishing with?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else you ever gonna wanna work on an old farm house with?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else you ever gonna wanna go to Tampa Bay Blues Festival with?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else you ever gonna wanna ride the Tilt-A-Whirl with?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else you ever gonna wanna be a Band Booster parent with?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else you ever gonna wanna go out on the town in your lil black dress and him in a nice suit with?
Lets see...Nobody.
Who else you gonna wanna go to lil fall festivals and county fairs with?
Lets see...Nobody.
 
So who is my competition here?
Looks like...Nobody.
 
Your so hot for me you can't take it anymore.
You don't think I don't know all this?
Your kidding yourself.
 
And the fact that I can tell you so?
It might make you a lil mad at first, but after a minute, it just builds the attraction and the anticipation that much more so. 
 
Love you Virgie.
Peace...

Why don't you

 
Why don't you just cut the shit and pick up the phone?
Just a text sayin "hey" would be fine.
 
You just don't want the chase to end thats all...
They always end Lucy
You kept it going on longer than anyone else could have.
You're aggravating as hell girlfriend...
Makes me wonder what the hell is up with you sometimes.
 
Have I not been patient?
Have I not been straight forward with you?
Have I not always told you exactly where I want this to go?
Do you not understand whats being offered here?
Do I have to come find you and shake some sense into that illogical female brain of yours?
I got nothing left to prove to you.
I was running on fumes till you sexualized things.
 
You been crazy about me from day one.
Not my fault you didn't see yourself with someone like me,
thats on you.
 
So we just gonna stay stuck here now cause you aint got a pair?
(Well, I mean I hope you don't, but you know, show ME some courage for a change).
 
You got so pissed when I told you I thought you would look great in a bandana, a nice pair of jeans, a pair of leather boots and a t-shirt.
Now look at what your saying to me and what your letting me say to you...lol
My my how things have changed.
 
And don't ever forget about chaps and nothing else on straddleing the rear fender of the bike,
letting me do Patron shots off your ass before having "My Way" with you out under the stars in gods creation.
Don't ever forget about that...
That image along with a whole host of others is permanently etched in my brain...they are in yours as well.
Don't ever act like I don't know how naughty you really wanna be.
I know better.
And I'm just the guy your gonna do it with.
 
Peace

Johnny...

 
Johnny had to ask June 30 some odd times before she said yes...don't even go getting any ideas Hotrod...

John...

John, Travis, King Kong, Superman, all the X-men, 10,000 marines, 13 gorillias and a tank aint gonna keep me from you Lucy...
 
Wish you would get it through that thick Irish Girl skull of yours.

I don't...

 
I don't know about plug ins to fight agianst hackers, but I know about young women who drag things on longer than they should that result in wonderful, patient, gentlemen getting fed up with their crap...THAT I happen to know all about Virgie...and that damn lil w, why don't you bring the real thing to me or quit using that font for that character?
 
Can't take it anymore...bout to bust all day everyday thinking of you...and don't even act like it don't make you wet hearing all this I know better...

Where...

 
Where did your middle name Brona come from anyway?

You said...

 
You said you wanted me last Christmas when you got your package in the mail...It's 10 months later Lucy!...There won't be a package this year :-(...I told you, and I mean it, I'm not looking up any addresses, I'm not calling, I'm not e-mailing etc, nothing of the kind...You wanna be with me? Show me you want to be with me as bad as I have shown you I want to be with you...
 
I'm not trying to be mean, it's just the way it has to be...I've done enough chasing lil one.
 
Come get your lovin' girlfriend.

I'm...

 
I'm cleaning out the garage. I'm getting my buddies trailer and clearing out 11 years worth of shit that I don't use or have no need for. I'm making room for you Lucy. I fully expect you here in the next few weeks...
 
"I can handle it, I'm ready for it"...yeah, right, actions speak louder than words dollbaby.

I can't...

 
I can't quit thinking of you.
About how badly I desire you.
All of you.
Every last drop of you.
All over me...
 
"Drews Honeypot" indeed...
 
Make it happen Lucy
make me the happiest boy alive...

Time to go...

 
Gotta get...when we gonna worship together sweetheart?

and yes...


and yes people did see what was posted here for a couple of weeks when I had tied the blog to my Google Plus profile as things were shared publicly...James just informed me lol...but nothing of the good juicy stuff lol...

It seem like...

 
It seems like somebody has started their rectal cranium insertion therapy.

Put the...

 
Put the ink on your finger...nothings official till I ask anyway...
 
You will flip with how I'm gonna ask.

There...


"Ι ωill trу to gеt the danglе оf it"...there aint no dangle involved when it comes to you sweetheart, none at all...Promise.
 
Dangle, lol good lord girl.
 
"Do or do not, there is no try"
Yoda.

Saturday, September 21, 2013

Well...

Well I wish I was there too...
 
Night sweetheart, sweet dreams...

Did ...


Did you go to bed?
Don't you wish you were snuggled up tight under the covers next to me?
You don't have to wish silly girl, you could make it a reality tomorrow...
and every day thereafter sweetheart.

Boared to tears...

 
 
Boared to tears, we could just be chit chating away but noooooooooooo, somebody has a better plan for us this evening...your just funny and you don't even know it sometimes...

I'd let you...

 
I'd let you stuff them in something like this for me.
 

 

and yes...

 
And yes I like your boobs...
I'll enjoy them very much thank you.
 
I noticed when we were in Yahoo, they were, shall we say?
Larger? Than they were when you left Kindred.
 
Why is that Lucy?
 
Was this all part of the plan?
Of getting back to being the woman you knew you could be?
 
Just because I'm an ass man
doesn't mean I don't have a good time
following the trail down
to my treasure.
 
I've learned to take my time
and stop and play
along the way...
 
Promise.
 
 
 
 

I think...

 
I think about you all the time Virgie.
Your always on my mind.
Your the last thing I'm thinking about before I go to bed,
and the first thing I am thinking of when I wake up.
I don't need to prove it to you.
You know it's true.
I've shown you so.
I know were coming up on a year since you left Kindred.
I don't know why you thought I would ever let you get a way.
We may not have seen or talked to each other.
But what I feel for you continues to grow in my heart everyday.
You're the only one I could ever be content with.
Your exactly what I prayed would enter my life.
Anybody else and I would just wish they were you.
I know you feel the same way.
You don't have to tell me, I know.
I can't help it how things happened.
I have no rational explanation, if people haven't lived it,
well, there's just no way they could ever understand it.
To expect friends or family to understand something they haven't lived through?
Well, that's just unrealistic.
 
Had breakfast with David Lash and a bunch of friends this AM.
They came in from Bosie.
He has found the love of his life.
She's wonderful.
They met on line through mutual friends and fell in love.
Two months later he moves to Bosie.
Thery're happy as can be.
She's white, cathloic.
He's black, Jewish.
You think love cares about such things?
I assure you it doesn't.
Their souls mesh, (like another couple I know) it's just obvious as day.
Tom was there.
Tom was the older bald security Guard that worked at Kindred with David.
Guy is like 84 years old and a riot.
Was an HR Director at some company in Louisville.
He was really glad to see me, made me feel great.
What a great group of people to be with this AM.
Tom saw you in the lobby one day when I was standing at the front desk talking to him.
He looked at me and with eyes as big as half dollars said "Who is that?"
I said "Remember that story I told you about busting that young lady in the parking garage?"
He said "Yeah". I said, "That's her". He said, "Oh My!". I said "Exactly!".
I'll never forget the look on his face or his mannerisms when he said the following:
"Be patient, be patient, it will be worth it".
I told him this moring that I had never forgotten what he said, and that I was still following his advice.
He said "It's what it's all about".
Indeed, it is.
 
Virgie,
if I never heard a word about your past and what you been through
it wouldn't bother me a bit.
The only thing that matters about your past to me is
it made you who you are today for us.
That's it, nothing else about it really matters.
 
I love you Virgie.
I want us to be husband and wife.
Soon.
Live a quiet life out in the country.
Have fun working on the house together.
Getting things how you want them to be so that you feel like it's your home.
Cause it is.
I wanna work that garden together.
Go and do the coolest shit ever.
With the most beautiful
amazing,
funny,
creative,
intelligent,
woman
I have ever met.
Why wouldn't I want this?
 
This is my dream,
This is what I will work hard for
all day,
everyday,
for the rest of my days.
 
It's never even seemed like work.
It just always seemed to be what I should be doing.
For me, for you, and for Nich.
It's how I know it's right.
 
I'll let you cry now...
 
Peace Dingleberry, Love you.

Friday, September 20, 2013

And your always...

 
And your always fun, just sometimes more so than others.

Love you

 
 
Love you, 1 AM "Blob" of alerts is rolling in...Love you Virgie.

I want you...

 
 
I want you.
As my friend.
My lover.
My Muse.
My inspiration.
My wife.
Soon lucy, soon...
 
What are your friends like anyway? Are they like GO! GO! GO be with them!"
Well, if they are good friends, they should be like that...
 
Be the best decision you ever made.
My pursueing you was, how could your coming to live a life with us not be?
 
Love you
No turning back now
We're heading down the homestretch girl
 
You dont talk to a boy like that,
or let him talk to you like that
unless your planning on letting it happen...
soon.
 
You got me for the rest of your life.
Say the word.
 
What are you doing Monday?
How about I come there and we tie the knot?
(Public ceremony still late spring early summer for everybody else)
 
Just tell me you want me there and I'll be there.
Tired of waiting.
 
We will get you with us as soon as you find a job.
Promise.
 
Peace.

Love you...



Love you.
Come be with us.

Rumi

submit to love without thinking.

Love you...



Apparently when I was posting stuff here it was being shared publicly ever since I tied my blog to my Google+ profile? I've got that fixed now...proud to be your fool sweetheart...

Nich Counciling...


We were both there for the full hour. She  (councilor) seemed shocked that I wasn't awarded full custody after Nich described the incident that happened that Saturday.. Actually said "Well, there's a light at the end of the tunnel now". When I said we would be coming as often and as long as we needed to she said, "I don't see the need for more than three or four sessions." She also said for us not to pay for or take any psych evals until Joanna had paid for and taken hers. Said she had seen many a time when a party pays for and taked their eval and then the other party doesn't. She (Joanna) can't do all this, she can't catch up the child support, pay for psych evals, etc, so in all likelihood we will never take one.Councilor couldn't believe all three of us were asked to take them and not just Joanna. "Who is the judge in these matters?", she asked like she just couldn't believe whats going on.

So here is the deal, three or four sessions, then subpena her to testify for us and Joanna is done. I'm gonna let that ER bill sit in Joanna's name and not pay a penny neither, it won't go to a collection agency on my behalf, it won't affect my credit, she is the responsible party for that bill, and she should be. I'll make them take me to court to pay my portion of that bill and even then I'll pay $25 dollars and then make them take me back to court every so often to make me pay...yep, another $25 dollars...after 10 years of this crap she deserves it, she deserves worse but this will suffice, it's justice. I kept wondering why I wasn't getting that ER bill, I never signed anything saying I would be the responsible party that's why...she signed him in, bill goes to her address, not mine, her tough shit. What are they going to say "Well Mr. Hollifield you need to pay your portion of this bill" "Okay then pay me the child support your behind on and I will"..so this situation is pretty much resolved as far as we are concerned...matter of time.

I love you.
I want you here with us soon.
I get tired of not talking to you sweetheart.
It gets old.