That's

 a girl.

Thank you.

Thank you so much.

Thank you more than you'll ever know.

It's all about the lil things with me sweetheart :-).

If it was me and you in my shitty lil house? 

With our shitty lil truck? 

Working shitty lil jobs?

I'd be just fine.

Just as long as I am with you.

You're all I want.

Nothing else left in this world for me that I give a shit about.

Material things just don't mean shit to me.

Never have.

Mom just sat there and looked at me when I told her Janet could take her house I didn't want it if it was all going to be all bull shit.

She just  looked at me like: "OMG he means it."

Yeah, always have, always will.

Whats the shock here?

Nicholas told me today I was jealous of him and the success he was going to have?

Bravado?

Wheres he get that from? lol.

I told him I didn't have a jealous bone in my body.

Asked him if he ever heard me say anything about being jealous of Fawn and Jason's new home?

Christians?

Christians truck?

No. he hasn't.

Because I'm not.

Cause material things just don't mean that much to me.

Okay, the bike may be an exception lol but you know what I am sayin Lucy?

Right?

I hope you do.

I said "Nicholas, I've been telling everybody for a long time, if I end up right here (pointed to the couch) and you're gone, and I work for New Age in the Kindred NOC and ride my bike and live how I want too. Why can't you just be happy for me having the level of success I wanted for myself?

No answer.

He's 15, he wants the world.

Now lol.

I hope Nich ends up happy, but thats on him, I think we can help but ultimately?

Thats on his shoulders.

Told him he should be thankful for being around Christian and Fawn and myself and seeing first hand the mistakes we had made, that it helped him learn what to avoid.

He just sat there with that "never thought of it like that look"

on his face.

I love you Virgie, with every last once of my heart mind body and soul and i know it's never gonna stop cause if it was?

It would have done so by now.

Peace, it's all I really want for everybody.

Not just us.

Everybody.

I had it before.

I'll get back to it again.

Sooner than I think I bet.