Okay

last week?

Ishan, the guy I helped get hired on with New Age?

Text and told me that Chad had updated him about my "status"

Whatever that means lol.

I was like, why is this guy texting me now?

Been almost 10 weeks.

Haven't heard a thing from him.

Why now?

What could Chad be telling him about except for Tuesday?

Chad sent several text messages as well.

Not like Chad to do so.

Pretty quiet guy.

Again, must be getting ready for Tuesday, right?

Leaving the bike shop last week and out of the blue Josh for no apparent reason says: "Hey are you still thinking about getting married?" I haven't said anything in so long to him or Cheryl it really took me by surprise.

I showed him a picture (No silly, no boobies lol) and told him yeah, soon, were gonna have the time of our lives together, I have no doubt. Josh was left just shaking his head like "Damn...". I was like yeah, happening.

I reiterated that whatever work I wanted done on the bike I wanted him to do it someday, that I had told him that a long time ago and that I meant it. I value loyalty and honest, quality people. That until I got this one how I wanted, he was the guy to do the work. I told him if I ever got another one all bets were off, but this one was between me and him.

Virgie? The guy looked at me like : "This guy can have anybody in the world do what he wants on his bike for him and he still wants me to do the work." That is exactly how he looked at me. I sense things sweetheart and even though I can't prove they are real? I know the feelings are true. Just the way it works with me sometimes.

So out of the blue last week I had Ishan text, Chad text, Josh asking about us getting married, Aunt Connie sticking around for a longer visit than normal, staying with people her and my uncle don't normally stay with on Monday night mom's melt down about being in a rush to leave Monday PM and you telling me about a wedding on 7/7. 

So why wouldn't I believe it?

Nich asked what the plan was.

I told him I was going to sell the truck on Monday.

No reaction from him this time.

None.

Any reason for that Bambi?

My guess is I won't be having too :-)

It sucks lol.

Knowing everyone around you knows what you think to be true but don't have any confirmation about yet.

All kinds of thing piling up on you. I've told you, I'm going to be a basket case till someone tells me to start getting ready, we're going to blah blah blah.

Actually?

Probably up until the time the marriage License gets signed lol.

I'm a "it aint over till the fat lady sings, do you mind if I take it home and read the fine print?" kinda guy.

Drives my own self crazy sometimes, but it is the way it is.

I'm just glad you accept me.

As I am.

Faults and all

Accept my apologies about last night :-(.

But I had reasons to believe it was actually going to happen.

Just want my wife sweetheart.

Sooner or later this roller coaster ride will stop.

I'm betting on sooner :-).

And when we get off the ride?

We will be at an elevated plateau few people will ever get to experience.

I hope you fall asleep with your dress on lol.

I hope we wake up and just start dancing and singing and laughing and kissing in our wrinkled up clothes.

Maybe not lol.

But you know what I am saying.

Every second I can possibly ever have with you.

Thats what I want Virgie.

It's what I've always wanted.

It feels like home you said.

Well I'm pretty homesick these days.

The pain and the hurt come not from the day you left, but from wanting this my whole life.

I believe you feel the same.

Everyday.

All day.

Till the end of days.

Every last drop.

I'll give us everything I got.

I promise you I will.

I know you know I will.

And when I don't think I can continue?

I'll reach down deep and find a way anyway Dollbaby.

I promise you I will my love.

My everything.

Peace.