You

know?

The thing I am never gonna get is, what difference did any of the events of the last few days make?

I mean? 

What was accomplished by it?

What was stopped?

Nothing.

Shortsightedness really.

Somebody just screwed themselves over in the long run really.

Just like they always have.

Makes me think something is really not right with them for them to do what they did.

It's the only thing that makes any sense.

Anyway, thats the part that will rattle around in my head like a 22 shell for a bit.

Just didn't make any sense.

"Let me see here, I got everything to loose and nothing to gain so...yeah lets go with the everything to loose option."

Whatever.

Movin on.

Tryin anyway.

Back to bed.

Trying to slowly wean myself on midnights and get back to the land of the living from being a vampire for 5 years.

Hard.

Hopefully by Monday we will be there.

Love you Lucy.

Night.