upset as I have ever been with him ever.
I will not put up with it.
I simply can't.
I will get sick.
Gone are the days of me not getting some $10 - $20 dollar item so that I can get something for him instead.
If it's not appreciated then why should I bother?
I'm not gonna do it no more.
Let him work in the hay fields this summer for all I care.
Do him some good if you ask me.
I'm fucking tired of it.
Disrespect the guy who provides for you.
Who ever heard of such nonsense?
I am going to talk to him...calmly.
In no uncertain terms.
He is at a crossroads in his life.
The hard path, the one he has fought against, is the one he needs to take.
He knows it.
He just don't wanna.
Well that's just tough.
One of the problems is I have no time to myself.
None.
Ever.
No riding = no therapy.
That's going to change here soon.
Hopefully.
"Well, when he is in school..." all the people who have never been a single parent seem to like to say.
Well you know what jack asses?
When he is in school I am running errands and taking care of things around the house.
By the time I get done, you know what?
By the time I get done, you know what?
I have to get him, so there is no break.
But there is sure about to be :-).
Yes I choose this life.
I understand that.
It's been better for him than staying with his mother.
But yeah...
Being unappreciated?
That just went out the door...
He dug himself a hole that's gonna take him years to get out of.
The only way he can recover?
Every time there is work to do be ready to do it.
Right then, no waiting.
Good attitude.
Keep that mouth shut.
Never say "I told you so" ever again, even if it's true what good does it do?
What are we?
Six years old?
Give me a break.
Love you.
Thanks for letting me vent.
Might wanna tell him what I am telling you so he knows.
I'm serious it will take years of:
"Every time there is work to do be ready to do it.
Right then, no waiting.
Good attitude.
Keep that mouth shut.
Never say "I told you so" ever again, even if it's true what good does it do?"
To work his way back into my good graces.
He has always avoided hard physical, manual work.
Always.
It was just easier for me to not fight with him.
It always ended up like this.
Just not this severe.
No fucking more.
So help me to God if he has to spend all night in the garage to start the weed eater then that's just what he will have to do, I ain't doing it no more, he is old enough, he is capable, he just doesn't ever want to.
I have
seriously had enough of his fucking nonsense to last me a lifetime.
No more.
And I will not be made to feel guilty for him going without when he shows no appreciation for what he has.
No sir.
Not no more.
The thought of "I won't get that for me because I want to get Nicholas..." has just exited my consiousness...
Tough.
He can stay in high school and then go right in to the armed services for all I care at this point.
What ever comes his way now?
About his attitude and his demeanor?
He brought it on himself.
He ought to feel ashamed of how he acted.
I'm fucking disgusted with it.
How can I ever have it around anybody else?
Who in their right mind would ever put up with it?
It's about time for a lil family pow-wow with granny and grandpa.
About how disgusted, embarrassed and ashamed I am about his behavior.
He won't want that.
He won't want that one bit.
Wanna be treated like a man?
Then don't act like a child.
Period.
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