Oh Three's!

 

Oh my gracious!

Heavens to Betsy Lucy.

Did I do something right?

 

I do a lot of things right Lucy lol.

 

I can feel it girl.

 

Don't like the people I work for.

Not the job, the work is fine.

Three or four of the guys are really great.

Just don't like the owners and how they have handled themselves with all this Insurance business and the lack of raises..

And I don't like where I live any more.

Our place is fine.

Just not to many people I want to be around any more.

 

Talked to Christian yesterday a couple of times.

He was visiting his dad (Jimmy) at the farm.

He said his attorney doesn't even know whats up with his house.

Said it is just sitting on the lot in Owensboro.

He wanted to know if I wanted to go eat Chinese.

I would have, but I was full.

I pray everything works out for him.

 

He text Saturday.

The mother of his kids (Angel) was too sick to make it to her visitation.

Yeah, the one hour of the week she gets to see them she can't come.

Nice.

Next day she was at the park.

 

Anyway, I hadn't heard from him in weeks and I get a text about how mad he is at her and he wants to take pictures of her at the park and blah blah...

I remember those days.

Being mad over every lil thing they do or say.

 

I told him yesterday I hoped he makes his peace with it, she will not change and there is little to nothing he can do about it. Wanted to look at my watch and say "Only another sixteen years or so to go." I didn't. I've learned to show some restraint :-). Bout time lol. I thought he was making a mistake when he had the second child with her. It's what he wanted, not her. Fawn did to. What do you do when somebody is excited about having another child and you think it's a mistake? I told him congratulations when Ryder was born. I really didn't know what else to say.

 

I just see him getting angrier and more bitter as time goes by. Sad really. He just hasn't had that look at himself in the mirror yet where he tells himself "This is my fault, I don't like who I have become, I'm going to set out to change it and if I fail? Well hopefully I'll be a better person than I was."

Being a good dad should be good enough.

 

I just worry about him. Needs counseling to help sort out his stress, issues he has had for a while. I don't think he will do it. Two kids? Single parent? When does he have the time to do anything for himself? I had help (God bless), he does as well but my help was always right there, I don't think that's the case with him.

 

I worry about him Lucy. I want to see him do well for himself. With each passing day it seems like that is something that is drifting farther and farther away...

 

Sucks...

 

I guess us leaving was a day coming that I hadn't ever thought would get here either.

 

Oh well.

 

Sometimes just gotta walk on and do what you know is best for you and your family.

Hancock County KY just aint it no more Dollbaby.