If

you were there shortly after I woke up this afternoon?

And you could have just cusp my face in your hands?

And just gave me a kiss and smiled?

If you could have been there at the service?

So that when I had to lean forward?

And put my elbows on my knees?

And massage my temples?

Not because of  a headache.

But because of the mental processes that are taking place are consuming you?

To the point where you feel like your head is just going to spin off on its own through the cosmos?

Yeah, if you could have been there then?

Just to rub my back for a few seconds and flash that smile agian?

If you could have been there with me walking to the car?

Holding my hand?

Just looking at me and mouthed "It's going to be okay."

Then I would have known it was going to be.

And I've known it from the third time I walked you to your car.

And I know it's never going to change.

Thats why it hurts so much.

Merry Christmas Virgie.

Love you.

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